I just would like to...

Shout outs. Shouts. -nods

Shouts to Family.

Shouts to Rubin.

Shouts to Rough n Rugged.

Shouts to forgetting important things. UGGHHH!!

Shouts to alone time.

Shouts to never having to be alone if you don't want to

*clone yourself and never ever leave your side*

Shouts to Technology.

Shouts to instant gratification.

Shouts to Pizza.

Shouts to intelligence.

Shouts to logic.

Shouts to being able to take care of yourself (and others).

Shouts to living under your family.

Shouts to freaky sh1t. *only girls of course boys are still icky*

Shouts to being miserable.

Shouts to being lonely.

Shouts to being sensitive.

Shouts to being a b1tch.

Shouts to *pullin no punches*

Shouts to Google.

Shouts to the content on dictionary.com

Shouts to money.

Shouts to the illuminati

Shouts to musicians.

Shouts to finishing out a list.

Shouts to jobs.

Shouts to me, I'm still here.

Shouts to my last remaining hope in marriage (there will be none after).

Shouts intoxication.

Shouts to addiction.

Shouts to life.

Shouts to death.

Shouts to the all the painfully average chicks calling each other ugly.

Shouts to the beautiful ladies who say nothing at all.

Shouts to the dead*ss ugly girls who try and shine because they're more than a face or... (lol)

Shouts to my old girls ya'll were tough, and INSPIRED shout outs that counts for a lot.

Shouts to the most supportive b1tch of them all. * ***** * (sorry for calling you a b1tch).

Shouts to sleepless nights.

Shouts to sleep filled nights.

Shouts to mornings :)

Shouts to favorite shows...

*back to scathing*

Shouts to the people who turned their backs.

Shouts to the people that forgot.

Shouts to the people that remembered.

Shouts to the people that STILL care, I see you (I've been watching/listening).

Shouts to the people that won't get it (again, I've been watching/listening).

Shouts to the people who keep it *Western Union* (100)

Shouts to the people who LIE to me, I love you.

Shouts to the people who tell half of the truth... Can never tell which is worse..

Shouts to Saved by the Bell... For the boyhood crushes.. OD

Shouts to the Mile High Club.

Shouts to not being afraid to cry.

Shouts to Inception.. The movie and the meaning.

Shouts to those I care about.

Shouts to dreams

Shouts to inspiration..


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Misunderstanding.

I will be single, alone, and miserable for a long time. The equations really aren't that hard to set up, nor are they difficult to decipher. My lifestyle wants subtract from my needs. My own stubbornness allows me to carry on knowing I'll lose in the end. Some would argue it's stubbornness I'm even still here at all. Call it what you want but I will become, stay, and remain single due to a misunderstanding.


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History says a misunderstanding will do much more then land me 'alone and miserable', but I know what I'm saying, so there it is.

Somethings I can't even begin to comprehend sometimes so I say shout out to Alex cause she's playing the same game I am. No telling on whether or not she knows she's losing too, I haven't gotten that far in with her yet. As I'm typing this I'm wondering if content needs to be edited. I've tried to be more open about my happenings and that hasn't really faired to well. Hence me losing.

Feeling awfully sick right now very suddenly.. Need a bathroom..    

That was intense.

Reminds me I wasn't supposed to write anything on here. Apparently this is where I go to talk bad about Jessica people whenever I feel like I'm catching the wrong end of the proverbial sharp stick. well *my fault miss lady, my fault.*                                                

I love Marley she's mine but I think she's been mad at me. I'll snuggle you when we sleep tonight baby!

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Too much.


Words are being too kind to me. I should do well to remember to return the favor, but in this case it probably won't happen before I pass out. I'm tripping, remembering things old and new all at once. I hope my stuff's charged up..

smh at the direction this went.

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Blankness

I'm getting drowsy do you know why? Probably not but it's underlined everything on here to both fb spots... and then I stop.


Feeling like going in NOT feeling like going in. I don't like feeling indifferent to my own thoughts. I SHOULD care more than I do, yet I'm okay knowing I care as little (which is more than you anyway) as I do.

These are random placements of basic thoughts brought together by blankness brought over by an overanxious mind.

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K I'm done being bored on my blog, sh1t there's supposed to be everything for me to do on here yet, I'm rambling... again... I can't help it I'm loving the interactions I'm getting today and like I said up there I'm feeling drowsy lol. I swear today is 1 of them days I let my mouth get me into trouble (check) and I make people raise those eyebrows as curious/worried/angered onlookers. It's all good though I know who I'm talking to!

Ok so this paragraph will bring some focus to this whole thing.. Friends, and I use that word very hesitantly. Please don't feel like it's a problem to speak to me about issues. I'm not the 1 to feel intimidated in front of or speaking to. TRUST ME. I guess I should just say check the blog, and then see what I mean. This is stemming from friends of mine not really opening up with me, which is fine, you definitely don't have to. I just don't want the reason you don't to be because your Pnoid bout being judged, cause that'll NEVER be the case. EVER.

Anyway I want to be able to help people, especially my friends. I don't have very many, and they (you) should know I care about them a great deal. I love you all. Like deadass with a late pass. Get that Eminem in your system #NotAfraid

I told a friend today my blog told a story... Then I thought about it, and yes it really does. I'm sure you can get too much information about me from here, and I'm sure there have been multiple changes and evolutions. Maybe I should highlight the ones I th.... nah never mind, its there if you want to.

I made the distinction between blogs and notes, and then preceded to not use any notes! WTF? Well those are coming to. There'll be artists quotes. Important/unusual information relative to me and my closest peoples! ... So you might wanna stay on top of those when they start dropping on the Turtle's page.

Yoo speaking of which (shout out to Margot just cuz n1gga! lol) Chris Wilson continues to get more play/run/action than my n1gga Turtle.. Doesn't make sense but whatever. Maybe it's because Chris is naked and Turtle doesn't have a real face? Whatever, like I said, stupid.

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As in who's dictating all this?

Anyway I'm literally being summoned away now. The evening better prove more peaceful then the first part of my day it's curtains for me holding my feelings back. Which could be a good thing... right? shouts to Jessica Mean Bear Davis!





Feeling in love *MUAH*




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See my ears are different.

Which 1 do you think came 1st? Lol it's Hilarious how much this n1gga be talking to you.






*having mad b1tches is looking shakey...*








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What I really meant was

Why people think me walking away is me throwing something away? Don't quite understand that, I feel like I've been throwing sh1t away for quite some time, and I just started understanding that. See I knew I was trash or resembled such because I was discarded, and left in the muck. Dirty as what's on the inside of the street sweeper trucks. The lining of bucks becomes rare to the touch, I've come to like the holes in my hands. Liking is an overstatement but the hole left from my man's is still strong standing or floating... But get some money honey I know you got yours, kinda left me floored. Sick of being ignored but that's a "tossup" at the worst. More cents might prove to make dude rude and lose sense, but a humble streak peaked out with 1 inch and 6 feet. Terrible things wait, let me pop up. I got incredible grooves to change moods if I wanna. Baby talk. You know I'm gonna do whatever I gotta, but let me hit this first get on with my lazy walk. 2 in 1 not 2 for 1 that'd be a good deal. Word to the cigarette shop around the corner from the spot with the 5 red lights.. not a night so I'm not over there but maybe a close by night will find me back over there. With my stolen fears looking up at me, I wave goodbye happily.  To the left of me she, but even she shape shifts so frequently forcing me to travel back through the past just to find a pretty memory. Went left, and got left. Went back and got blasted through reality checks... You know so society could say whether or not I passed it? What you think? Like, really, did I pass it? Let's just assume I'm in the back of the classes. Paying more attention being quietly more attentive then the people in the front of the class. So they say look at this classless ass spazzing in here. They don't care that I'm dirty poor and hurting let alone hard working. They got a problem with me cause I'm not there! Come on, I can't be everywhere... Can hardly stand to be inside my head. Hard to stand without reaching for my meds. Pretty long lasting prescription for what I've been depicting. Feeling invincible could be good or bad, when I get to feeling like that my actions aren't sensible. Get a bag fill it up with my most important stuff. Contemplating if bringing my dog along will make it all too tough. Lying on my back wondering how the stars see us, until I'm blessed enough to seal them shut on my own. Feeling like home is where my feet are. That's pretty hard, or soft... Laughing in the grass I feel its time for my mind to sneak off... Really i was NEVER there so here, and hear understanding to why I speak soft... Still moving, on lost but at least it's not off...


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Conversations with Rubin

I've been having some deep talks with Rubin trying to let him voice his concerns with where I'm heading. First off I tell him be cool, I know it's tough dealing with me my dude but just know that we are in it together. I think he understands now.

Which means new sounds can now work towards being accepted. It's been silent for too long.. Well not really, but I don't consider your noise audible noise. My dude proved that a LONG time ago, but I just got it last night.

106 n Park is just interesting.. I see what ya'll like though, and I'm not mad. Just trying to understand, and that's where I'll be (mentally) for awhile. Do you think it's backwards to gain understanding of others through music they may or may not accept? I wonder...

I really should point out I'm in a very bitter part of my life. Meaning I feel like a veil has been pulled over my eyes while I've been spun around for greater disorienting affects. The results is me not giving much of f*ck right now. I'm telling you cause it honestly scares me knowing I'll act 1st and think later. There's no telling I'll be guaranteed my later diggeth?

Getting kind of weird now...





*tacos then pop up then well... tacos*



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hold u down

Just Wow.

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I can't plan stuff like this. Can't do it. Love that I can't, and it still happens with such perfect timing. My time is everything besides little numbers like this. Enjoy, this is my favorite song off the GodleebarnesLP.






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1st heard this on a solo excursion in San Diego. Wasn't really 'solo' but at the time I was walking around looking for a bathroom, food, and girls. Well not for girls that would be dishonest, I was looking AT them though. Least I could do all the guys naked out there anyway, I require even playing fields... too much...


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