Why people think me walking away is me throwing something away? Don't quite understand that, I feel like I've been throwing sh1t away for quite some time, and I just started understanding that. See I knew I was trash or resembled such because I was discarded, and left in the muck. Dirty as what's on the inside of the street sweeper trucks. The lining of bucks becomes rare to the touch, I've come to like the holes in my hands. Liking is an overstatement but the hole left from my man's is still strong standing or floating... But get some money honey I know you got yours, kinda left me floored. Sick of being ignored but that's a "tossup" at the worst. More cents might prove to make dude rude and lose sense, but a humble streak peaked out with 1 inch and 6 feet. Terrible things wait, let me pop up. I got incredible grooves to change moods if I wanna. Baby talk. You know I'm gonna do whatever I gotta, but let me hit this first get on with my lazy walk. 2 in 1 not 2 for 1 that'd be a good deal. Word to the cigarette shop around the corner from the spot with the 5 red lights.. not a night so I'm not over there but maybe a close by night will find me back over there. With my stolen fears looking up at me, I wave goodbye happily. To the left of me she, but even she shape shifts so frequently forcing me to travel back through the past just to find a pretty memory. Went left, and got left. Went back and got blasted through reality checks... You know so society could say whether or not I passed it? What you think? Like, really, did I pass it? Let's just assume I'm in the back of the classes. Paying more attention being quietly more attentive then the people in the front of the class. So they say look at this classless ass spazzing in here. They don't care that I'm dirty poor and hurting let alone hard working. They got a problem with me cause I'm not there! Come on, I can't be everywhere... Can hardly stand to be inside my head. Hard to stand without reaching for my meds. Pretty long lasting prescription for what I've been depicting. Feeling invincible could be good or bad, when I get to feeling like that my actions aren't sensible. Get a bag fill it up with my most important stuff. Contemplating if bringing my dog along will make it all too tough. Lying on my back wondering how the stars see us, until I'm blessed enough to seal them shut on my own. Feeling like home is where my feet are. That's pretty hard, or soft... Laughing in the grass I feel its time for my mind to sneak off... Really i was NEVER there so here, and hear understanding to why I speak soft... Still moving, on lost but at least it's not off...
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Now it's this, blame.. Yup, I do.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Conversations with Rubin
I've been having some deep talks with Rubin trying to let him voice his concerns with where I'm heading. First off I tell him be cool, I know it's tough dealing with me my dude but just know that we are in it together. I think he understands now.
Which means new sounds can now work towards being accepted. It's been silent for too long.. Well not really, but I don't consider your noise audible noise. My dude proved that a LONG time ago, but I just got it last night.
106 n Park is just interesting.. I see what ya'll like though, and I'm not mad. Just trying to understand, and that's where I'll be (mentally) for awhile. Do you think it's backwards to gain understanding of others through music they may or may not accept? I wonder...
I really should point out I'm in a very bitter part of my life. Meaning I feel like a veil has been pulled over my eyes while I've been spun around for greater disorienting affects. The results is me not giving much of f*ck right now. I'm telling you cause it honestly scares me knowing I'll act 1st and think later. There's no telling I'll be guaranteed my later diggeth?
Getting kind of weird now...
*tacos then pop up then well... tacos*
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hold u down
Which means new sounds can now work towards being accepted. It's been silent for too long.. Well not really, but I don't consider your noise audible noise. My dude proved that a LONG time ago, but I just got it last night.
106 n Park is just interesting.. I see what ya'll like though, and I'm not mad. Just trying to understand, and that's where I'll be (mentally) for awhile. Do you think it's backwards to gain understanding of others through music they may or may not accept? I wonder...
I really should point out I'm in a very bitter part of my life. Meaning I feel like a veil has been pulled over my eyes while I've been spun around for greater disorienting affects. The results is me not giving much of f*ck right now. I'm telling you cause it honestly scares me knowing I'll act 1st and think later. There's no telling I'll be guaranteed my later diggeth?
Getting kind of weird now...
*tacos then pop up then well... tacos*
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hold u down
Just Wow.
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I can't plan stuff like this. Can't do it. Love that I can't, and it still happens with such perfect timing. My time is everything besides little numbers like this. Enjoy, this is my favorite song off the GodleebarnesLP.
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1st heard this on a solo excursion in San Diego. Wasn't really 'solo' but at the time I was walking around looking for a bathroom, food, and girls. Well not for girls that would be dishonest, I was looking AT them though. Least I could do all the guys naked out there anyway, I require even playing fields... too much...
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I can't plan stuff like this. Can't do it. Love that I can't, and it still happens with such perfect timing. My time is everything besides little numbers like this. Enjoy, this is my favorite song off the GodleebarnesLP.
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1st heard this on a solo excursion in San Diego. Wasn't really 'solo' but at the time I was walking around looking for a bathroom, food, and girls. Well not for girls that would be dishonest, I was looking AT them though. Least I could do all the guys naked out there anyway, I require even playing fields... too much...
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Monday, September 27, 2010
When 2 plus 1 doesn't add up.
Aka when your chick and you music no longer coexist.
See I can zone to my music all day with or without some1. I'd prefer it to be with some1 else just so I can see how outer space my thinking is when compared with their earthly views. *chuckle*
However, half the time I don't get their opinion at all so that's neither here nor THERE lol. The worst is when I get an opinion that isn't theirs at all. Why curb what YOU think cause I'M weird?? Makes little sense to me.
Moving right along. Few things can compare to the joy that comes over me when I get ready to listen to unheard music. *rephrasing* (f*ck it)
However I DO have a girl won't even shout her out cause she's close to the end of my shout. Trouble comes when I have this other "chick" I'm trying to f*ck with. My excitement can't be messed with I'm telling you that much now. Consequently (essay style), my b1tch clashing with my chick. You figure out who's who cause I'm done thinking I know to find some1/thing new.
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... Which would make me excited if you were...
These 2 keep conflicting with each other amongst other things. You sheisty b1tches need to watch out. Shout out to my habits I only care about.
*1 and 1 and 1 and 1 and 1* <<=== a lot of habits
Lastly, love to those that take time out to understand me amidst the bullsh*t you surely must have to sift through to get dude, or me, or him too.
Just not looking good for relationship season... But you'll know cause Uknow!
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See I can zone to my music all day with or without some1. I'd prefer it to be with some1 else just so I can see how outer space my thinking is when compared with their earthly views. *chuckle*
However, half the time I don't get their opinion at all so that's neither here nor THERE lol. The worst is when I get an opinion that isn't theirs at all. Why curb what YOU think cause I'M weird?? Makes little sense to me.
Moving right along. Few things can compare to the joy that comes over me when I get ready to listen to unheard music. *rephrasing* (f*ck it)
However I DO have a girl won't even shout her out cause she's close to the end of my shout. Trouble comes when I have this other "chick" I'm trying to f*ck with. My excitement can't be messed with I'm telling you that much now. Consequently (essay style), my b1tch clashing with my chick. You figure out who's who cause I'm done thinking I know to find some1/thing new.
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... Which would make me excited if you were...
These 2 keep conflicting with each other amongst other things. You sheisty b1tches need to watch out. Shout out to my habits I only care about.
*1 and 1 and 1 and 1 and 1* <<=== a lot of habits
Lastly, love to those that take time out to understand me amidst the bullsh*t you surely must have to sift through to get dude, or me, or him too.
Just not looking good for relationship season... But you'll know cause Uknow!
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On Another Note
The distinction has been made. New notes to be posted on my fb page full of interesting content *rolls eyes* Speaking of content... A blog is a blog. A note is like 15 things rolled into 1. More on that later.. The direction these entries will be taking. Greece/Rome Gods/Goddesses Astrology charts (apparently we're in WHAT age now?) ...
Strictly because I'm interested. Figured it'd be a welcome change from music and OTHER things... Hmmm My online presence will be APPARENT. Fun fun fun... Catch me in person though! <<--- smh
*laughter*
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Strictly because I'm interested. Figured it'd be a welcome change from music and OTHER things... Hmmm My online presence will be APPARENT. Fun fun fun... Catch me in person though! <<--- smh
*laughter*
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Sunday, September 26, 2010
My skin's grown thin.
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Should be the title to something I'm writing cause it's ill lol... What if every blog was written out into some sort of verse/poem before it actually became the blog entry you eventually read? Hmmmm... Just something to think about...
Stop letting things get to you and just get to the things 1st. That's the point of this here entry. I don't want to be on my spiteful sh1t, because I know I can, and I go in. I don't know what it is in me that allows me to possess such an embodiment of evil, but trust me it's there. Instead of attacking those I'm not in good standings with, I'm going to effectively ignore them.
"All you care about is..."
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The statement that set me off, or a summary of it paraphrased for your crystal clear understanding. I don't know, I just LOVE being told what I do and don't care about. I should let people do that more often.. Next time for that, however, this time I will definitely take heed of what was said. People have to be accountable for what comes out of their mouths it's as simple as that.
I wish people would slap me with some direct quotes geez... It'd be that much harder to talk my way out of something.
I don't want to go on too long there was a reason for this specifically, and I think I've achieved it. Just letting you all know I'm a little more fed up than I was yesterday. Which consequently is me being more fed up than I was the day before. It's just NOT a good look.
When some1 says "all you care about.... blah blah blah blah" to me they better be ready to eat the whole damn sentence. *sighs* spiteful. Maybe, but what about motivational? Like I'm going to either motivate you or myself to make a change, and when I flick the switch to undergo that change? SMH
That's it lol
*But what the hell do I know I just chill UNDER trees*
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Should be the title to something I'm writing cause it's ill lol... What if every blog was written out into some sort of verse/poem before it actually became the blog entry you eventually read? Hmmmm... Just something to think about...
Stop letting things get to you and just get to the things 1st. That's the point of this here entry. I don't want to be on my spiteful sh1t, because I know I can, and I go in. I don't know what it is in me that allows me to possess such an embodiment of evil, but trust me it's there. Instead of attacking those I'm not in good standings with, I'm going to effectively ignore them.
"All you care about is..."
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The statement that set me off, or a summary of it paraphrased for your crystal clear understanding. I don't know, I just LOVE being told what I do and don't care about. I should let people do that more often.. Next time for that, however, this time I will definitely take heed of what was said. People have to be accountable for what comes out of their mouths it's as simple as that.
I wish people would slap me with some direct quotes geez... It'd be that much harder to talk my way out of something.
I don't want to go on too long there was a reason for this specifically, and I think I've achieved it. Just letting you all know I'm a little more fed up than I was yesterday. Which consequently is me being more fed up than I was the day before. It's just NOT a good look.
When some1 says "all you care about.... blah blah blah blah" to me they better be ready to eat the whole damn sentence. *sighs* spiteful. Maybe, but what about motivational? Like I'm going to either motivate you or myself to make a change, and when I flick the switch to undergo that change? SMH
That's it lol
*But what the hell do I know I just chill UNDER trees*
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Fall back!
If I'm too much of anything in a negative connotation fall the f*ck back. Reason being, I don't need to hear what I'm not to you, if you feel that way get another me. Dime a dozen I'm sure, go shopping and buy your happiness cause I'm NOT it. Just felt the extra need to put this out here coming off a night where I was back outside and feeling very out of place.
I know what I like/love and what I don't, it's that simple. Forcing me to change what I know to work for me isn't a good look. Forcing yourself to change what you know won't work for you isn't a good look. Does anybody feel me, like can I get a good look? This goes for every single relationship I can think of.
Don't want to think of them at the moment, I know I NEED to work on them so I'm not looking like the perfect saint here. As stated above, just felt the need to address it. Be happy with me, or be happy without me. I think the past half year has shown I'm comfortable or confused enough to foot it alone. Chill.
More to come later. Trying to decipher the difference between a blog and a facebook note. There has to be a difference (in concept and context) otherwise there's no need for both of them, and I need both of them. Do you need it?
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I know what I like/love and what I don't, it's that simple. Forcing me to change what I know to work for me isn't a good look. Forcing yourself to change what you know won't work for you isn't a good look. Does anybody feel me, like can I get a good look? This goes for every single relationship I can think of.
Don't want to think of them at the moment, I know I NEED to work on them so I'm not looking like the perfect saint here. As stated above, just felt the need to address it. Be happy with me, or be happy without me. I think the past half year has shown I'm comfortable or confused enough to foot it alone. Chill.
More to come later. Trying to decipher the difference between a blog and a facebook note. There has to be a difference (in concept and context) otherwise there's no need for both of them, and I need both of them. Do you need it?
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