I guess when you have a love affair like I did it's easy to be pulled back into it. They want me to love you, and I'm afraid I don't know how to anymore. I'll try my best.. Haven't I always? It's kind of out of my hands now.
on some 1st love type sh1t.
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Now it's this, blame.. Yup, I do.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Frustrated beyond Repair
I'm not happy right now. I'm happy for what the future can hold, and what new opportunities will bring but I'm not happy right now. I'm just worn out, it seems as if nothing I do is ever good enough. Which sucks to the most exteme levels because I've felt like what I've been doing hasn't been anything I wanted to do. Everything is off and nobody wants to fix anything thing right now, they all just want to complain about things being off. I've been off for how long now?
I'm frustrated.
I wish I could move away.. Get away, be away. I feel like there are so many bloated expectations and I just want to see if I can f*ckin survive. Cause see, people been talking A LOT OF SH1T over the course of the last 2 years. I'm in a beautiful position to stick a d1ck up them on some other sh1t. I want to f*ck them, for the pain they caused me.
So I'm bitter and frustrated.
I guess anger is a great way to mask fear and uncertainty too. It's not fair. This sh1t is too much for me right now. Breaking down is something I'm accustomed to, but it should not be this way right now. So much wrong with what's right, and not enough right with what's wrong.
Give me some f*cking pills, I felt great on those.
See I'm being pulled from what I love. It is what it is, but it hurts regardless. F*ck it, I had a vision and I'm in a position to make that vision work. I'm doing it my way and a lot of people aren't gonna like it. I'm just curious to see who's gonna be there at the end. I wish people would just take what they knew and throw it out the f*ckin window though. I don't even know what the hell to expect from me. Unfortunately, I can't tell the future and everybody wants answers as if the opposite is ACTUALLY the case. It's not.
Music, can you make it twice?
3 times, 4 times, I don't really know the number. Who would, when they do their best to forget. I was about to get tight again, but nah, not my place. I know the bullsh1t flying at my face recently, I'm not unaware at all. Truly the opposite, remember 'what's done in the dark comes to the light'. That was about a week ago. Here I go wrapped in riddles, done is an understatement.
I need a new f*cking zone.
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-/Rebel2Society\-v(**)
I'm frustrated.
I wish I could move away.. Get away, be away. I feel like there are so many bloated expectations and I just want to see if I can f*ckin survive. Cause see, people been talking A LOT OF SH1T over the course of the last 2 years. I'm in a beautiful position to stick a d1ck up them on some other sh1t. I want to f*ck them, for the pain they caused me.
So I'm bitter and frustrated.
I guess anger is a great way to mask fear and uncertainty too. It's not fair. This sh1t is too much for me right now. Breaking down is something I'm accustomed to, but it should not be this way right now. So much wrong with what's right, and not enough right with what's wrong.
Give me some f*cking pills, I felt great on those.
See I'm being pulled from what I love. It is what it is, but it hurts regardless. F*ck it, I had a vision and I'm in a position to make that vision work. I'm doing it my way and a lot of people aren't gonna like it. I'm just curious to see who's gonna be there at the end. I wish people would just take what they knew and throw it out the f*ckin window though. I don't even know what the hell to expect from me. Unfortunately, I can't tell the future and everybody wants answers as if the opposite is ACTUALLY the case. It's not.
Music, can you make it twice?
3 times, 4 times, I don't really know the number. Who would, when they do their best to forget. I was about to get tight again, but nah, not my place. I know the bullsh1t flying at my face recently, I'm not unaware at all. Truly the opposite, remember 'what's done in the dark comes to the light'. That was about a week ago. Here I go wrapped in riddles, done is an understatement.
I need a new f*cking zone.
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-/Rebel2Society\-v(**)
Friday, June 3, 2011
Comment here!
I am extremely late addressing comments... maybe because the notices aren't emailed to an account I can check. Of course I see them eventually, and I ALWAYS appreciate them! However, due to the lateness of my discoveries I often don't feel it makes much sense to comment back. I'm not sure if that logic makes any sense... Something tells me it's like thanking some1, of course it's bad not to do it right away, but a thank you is better than no thank you.
Maybe that was an apology... I'm not sure at this point I just know they can both be appreciated the same.
While I would love to boost my comments on here I won't comment back because it's there now and I even have trouble finding it.. Or I will, you'll see.. Okay, I'm done being confusing!
Well I don't mind if you copied and pasted. Acknowledgement is acknowledgement, especially if there's something positive being said about it...which I can't tell if there is...lol
I DEF forgot about that paper on the desk lol....wommmmp. Oh well. Catchin the sly's like a hound though.
Get it?
I don't think soooo ;)
You go tooo hard into what ppl interpret off of what you say...Just LET IT BE! but good post tho.
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Well anonymous I did not get your comment. Unless you are speaking on sly fox's, and the hound catching the fox. On some fox and the hound type sh1t. I was being extremely precise with my duality, thanks. In other words I DID like it, just felt like sharing MY perspective on my constant filtering. Or need to.. I can't say that I mind clicking on some1's page and seeing something I wrote there.. I can say it's uncomfortable but in the grand scheme of things do I really give a flying f*ck what the next person thinks? Not really, I do care about what I think though so I try to be as honest with myself as I can allow. That's tougher than some1 I don't know reading my ish. Besides who's heard me SAY this stuff? These are the hurdles I deal with, so yeah not an issue. Hope it shed some light though. Thank you very much!
What is a friend, but a single soul dwelling in two bodies.
-Aristotle
Holla.
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Well anonymous, cool quote. I love quotes if you haven't noticed. Aristotle was a cool guy, though by his times standards was probably an extremely weird figure... Ever notice how influential iconic people were usually pretty F'd up by society's standards? That's so interesting to me! Anyway, I would hesitate to label my friend's that way. 1 single soul? 2 bodies? Yikes. I've been left out to dry too many times to feel comfortable with that description, but maybe that was the point?? Friends are great though, I wish I had more good 1's.
Thank you for the comments, sorry for the late reply. Much appreciated.
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-/Rebel2Society\-v(**)
Maybe that was an apology... I'm not sure at this point I just know they can both be appreciated the same.
While I would love to boost my comments on here I won't comment back because it's there now and I even have trouble finding it.. Or I will, you'll see.. Okay, I'm done being confusing!
Well I don't mind if you copied and pasted. Acknowledgement is acknowledgement, especially if there's something positive being said about it...which I can't tell if there is...lol
I DEF forgot about that paper on the desk lol....wommmmp. Oh well. Catchin the sly's like a hound though.
Get it?
I don't think soooo ;)
You go tooo hard into what ppl interpret off of what you say...Just LET IT BE! but good post tho.
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Well anonymous I did not get your comment. Unless you are speaking on sly fox's, and the hound catching the fox. On some fox and the hound type sh1t. I was being extremely precise with my duality, thanks. In other words I DID like it, just felt like sharing MY perspective on my constant filtering. Or need to.. I can't say that I mind clicking on some1's page and seeing something I wrote there.. I can say it's uncomfortable but in the grand scheme of things do I really give a flying f*ck what the next person thinks? Not really, I do care about what I think though so I try to be as honest with myself as I can allow. That's tougher than some1 I don't know reading my ish. Besides who's heard me SAY this stuff? These are the hurdles I deal with, so yeah not an issue. Hope it shed some light though. Thank you very much!
What is a friend, but a single soul dwelling in two bodies.
-Aristotle
Holla.
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Well anonymous, cool quote. I love quotes if you haven't noticed. Aristotle was a cool guy, though by his times standards was probably an extremely weird figure... Ever notice how influential iconic people were usually pretty F'd up by society's standards? That's so interesting to me! Anyway, I would hesitate to label my friend's that way. 1 single soul? 2 bodies? Yikes. I've been left out to dry too many times to feel comfortable with that description, but maybe that was the point?? Friends are great though, I wish I had more good 1's.
Thank you for the comments, sorry for the late reply. Much appreciated.
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-/Rebel2Society\-v(**)
Wo Wo Word!
cre·scen·do
[kri-shen-doh, -sen-doh; It. kre-shen-daw]
Show IPAnoun, plural -dos, -di [-dee] Show IPA, adjective, adverb, verb–noun
1.
Music .
a.
a gradual, steady increase in loudness or force.
b.
a musical passage characterized by such an increase.
c.
the performance of a crescendo passage: The crescendoby the violins is too abrupt.
2.
a steady increase in force or intensity: The rain fell in acrescendo on the rooftops.
3.
the climactic point or moment in such an increase; peak: Theauthorities finally took action when public outrage reached acrescendo.
–adjective, adverb
–verb (used without object)
5.
to grow in force or loudness.
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Thursday, June 2, 2011
Yozir
Great end to an otherwise wack day I can't even front. Great conversations all the way around. My best friend came through and we on some like it never went old type sh1t. I love when people show you that time can change everything but it can't f*ck with what's real.
"so go ahead tell me how you feel, I'm lifted on the edge of surreal turning the crank connected to the wheel."
Now it's morning. Feeling good about things, today may actually go my way a little bit. All a n1gga really need is a little bit anyway right? So I'll be great if that's the case. I'm moving too fast for my own good though! definitely had something I was working on, and I'm going to finish I need to, but I've found something else to catch my attention lol.
... And I'm late. =) Oh f*cking well. Yozir muf*cka!
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-/Rebel2Society\-v(**)
"so go ahead tell me how you feel, I'm lifted on the edge of surreal turning the crank connected to the wheel."
Now it's morning. Feeling good about things, today may actually go my way a little bit. All a n1gga really need is a little bit anyway right? So I'll be great if that's the case. I'm moving too fast for my own good though! definitely had something I was working on, and I'm going to finish I need to, but I've found something else to catch my attention lol.
... And I'm late. =) Oh f*cking well. Yozir muf*cka!
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-/Rebel2Society\-v(**)
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Yucky mind.
Huh... How's this for a realization. I haven't paid the attention that your writing should have gotten from me. Not naming names, not even going to copy and paste it here because it wasn't meant to be copy and pasted and placed somewhere else *ahem!* -but I liked it. I'm sure I'll break it down 100 times over, although it wouldn't really be necessary what you were saying was quite clear. Your nasty though. Condoms inside of vaginas? Really? I'm not judging just acknowledging, I mean you wrote the sh1t.
Yucky indeed.
There was just a lot of eyebrow raising/lowering things filtered in there lol. Not mad at that at all. Anyway nice job kid. Your probably better than me, I'd believe it.
Now wouldn't it suck if you had to question whether or not that's what I ACTUALLY wanted to say? Oh, is that what your doing now? I'm sorry, it's just because I'm forced to think about what's going on up there and how it's being viewed, I feel people should have to ask themselves if I'm a habitual raging liar.
Soak it in.
Ohhhh LQL I discovered the yellow paper used to write all that nastiness on the computer desk... So yeah. Guess now you 2 have something else to talk about huh? Hehehehehehee Now take the above paragraph (the 1 above that 1) and apply it to this paragraph here. Lol I'm too much. NOW take the above...
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Real sh1t though it was on the desk lol.
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-/Rebel2Society\-v(**)
Yucky indeed.
There was just a lot of eyebrow raising/lowering things filtered in there lol. Not mad at that at all. Anyway nice job kid. Your probably better than me, I'd believe it.
Now wouldn't it suck if you had to question whether or not that's what I ACTUALLY wanted to say? Oh, is that what your doing now? I'm sorry, it's just because I'm forced to think about what's going on up there and how it's being viewed, I feel people should have to ask themselves if I'm a habitual raging liar.
Soak it in.
Ohhhh LQL I discovered the yellow paper used to write all that nastiness on the computer desk... So yeah. Guess now you 2 have something else to talk about huh? Hehehehehehee Now take the above paragraph (the 1 above that 1) and apply it to this paragraph here. Lol I'm too much. NOW take the above...
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Real sh1t though it was on the desk lol.
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-/Rebel2Society\-v(**)
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