Smh

I blink goodbye as she tells me to die.

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Insecure People

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The reason I don't have facebook right now. Literally have already felt my chest tighten up from stress due to FACEBOOK. wtf people? This is crazy man.. It's like I really can't win even when my life's open. The sick part is when I'm open how I'm 'supposed' to be the results don't really add up to what their supposed to be.

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More heat for that.

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More grief for that.

I'm stressed. I don't know what else to say, I just wish I could really let loose and clear the air (I can't yet though I want to) and let everybody get the view they should have, the 1 I want you to have.

Thank God for my family. I know I take them for granted constantly, but everything I try to do is done with them in mind. I wanna 'represent to the fullest' and I will. I KNOW I will.

Thank God for Jess, she's like my best friend, and although I've driven her away with the same things I wish I knew how to explain/let out she still does her best to at least support me.

Thank God for my friends. My REAL friends I consider you all family, and not much could really change that. I think the thing I respect most about all of you is that our relationship has never been easy. I fully acknowledge that I'm no easy person to remain close with as I have issues with 'projection', and often get too far lost in my own thoughts. I can be an *sshole Michelle and Squishy know lol but still through all of the BS I hope all you know how much I truly care for you. When I have the means to so there's really nothing I wouldn't put out on the line.

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Am I lying? *rolls eyes*

I just feel blessed at times even amidst all this stress I feel on top of me. Tonight needs to be easy, and it needs to start shifting towards that street sometime soon. I'm going to try to be on here all night if I can. Not literally of course, but writing and what not.



*Classroom "B4" diggeth?*


No 1 else hit me up about the book club =( not even Jess... So it's me and Kiki going hard in the pages.
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*don't ask about that page either it's invitation only and it's about to be gone as well*



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facebook!

Ummmmmm yea. clues for blues. see ya'll there!

*What's my muf*ckin name!?*

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Bout To Set It off (boredom)

N this B*tch' Ya'll know the rest...

While I watch 'Set It Off' I wonder what you all thought about Drake's album.   Very well put together if I do say so myself. I guess I should be focused on the movie but who hasn't seen 'Set It Off' ??  Liquor and trees. That's what I think about when I pay attention to this movie lol... Sure is quite a bit of it in these early scenes.

With that said I guess it's ok that I wander back to the music...

*pinky pointers* <<-- very common in this movie as well.

Misogynistic behavior, apparently no time for grief. Hood rules, I thought you knew. Smh It's funny to see these depictions and draw your own conclusions. Interesting question... Why is it all black actors play some sort of 'other side of the fence' role before they make it 'big' or are accepted in Hollywood? I'd list a few actors but then I'd risk sounding more ignorant.

This is boredom blogging at it's finest.. I had a quote for that but it's escaping me at the moment, but this moment is exactly why the mailing list is no more. I mean it's there but now there's so little who will I bother??

Back to facebook?? Social networking sites may just be the death of me in the upcoming weeks. I'm going to be looking for new ways to motivate my mind, I guess it isn't really a new way but reading will definitely be my number 1 outlet..

*I"m waiting for all the death to start occurring in this flick, things can't be happy like this forever. Never is right?

Wanna know the snobby white woman attire at a dinner party??

Something sleek 1 base solid color (I've seen them vary in variety) novelty jewelry you know, little gold bracelets some over fancy neck wear. The most important piece however is the head wrap scarf thingy. Go back and watch a movie with a fancy dinner party and tell me you wont see white women in head scarfs...

Seriously?? Boredom man..

Any1 seen Date Night? I'm hoping it has it's moments as I'm not expecting very much from it. We'll see though. In case you haven't noticed my day is being spent viewing cinemas. Well the 1st half of it anyway, I'm going to move back to what's comfortable after Date Night.

I have A LOT of music I would like to get through but it has to be done the correctly. Music music music! Squishy you know how I do!

*drooling @Jada right now*

She's a looker straight from the pedestal pusher. No need to even gas it up.

*Date Night*

 Common is in this film. Let's see how big or small his role is?


... Ok so he's reduced to ice grillin n*ggas, I ain't mad get your check my dude. This movie was aight though, I had a few good laughs. Looks like tonight is going to be alright after all, I'm juiced! Sorry for the randomness I was really uninterested in all this visual stimulation. Truth be told I've been trying to get to my secret cove to pop open this new batch of music, but I'ma chill and let what happens be...

Shouts to everybody I wanna do some catching up tomorrow which isn't to say I'm going to be unavailable tonight just typing what I think per usual. Hope everybody's day is going ok. I'm here if you need me.

*Girls are amazing*

Shouts to Jess

Sorry for this ya'll really didn't deserve it lol.. smh

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Book Club

Just got the idea to start a book club. Dead*ss I wanna do it! Let's do it! a book every how many days/weeks/months. Sounds interesting, mostly because I want to hoard the books you all are reading for yourselves lol.

Still hit me if your interested as it stands there is only 1 potential member NOT including myself. Who's ready to get Fundamental??




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Addiction

ad·dic·tion

   [uh-dik-shuhn]  Show IPA

–noun

the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to somethingthat is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, tosuch an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.

Origin: 
1595–1605;  < L addictiōn-  (s. of addictiō ) a giving over,surrender. See addict, -ion

—Related forms

o·ver·ad·dic·tion, noun

Related Words for : Addiction

dependence, dependency, habituation

World English Dictionary

addiction  (əˈdɪkʃən)
— n
	the condition of being abnormally dependent on some habit, espcompulsive dependency on narcotic drugs

Word Origin & History

addiction 

c.1600, of habits, pursuits, etc., from L. addictionem  (nom.addictio ) "an awarding, a devoting," noun of action from addicere (see addict). Earliest sense was less severe: "inclination,penchant," but this has become obsolete. In main modern sense itis first attested 1906, in ref. to opium (there is an isolated instancefrom 1779, with ref. to tobacco).

Medical Dictionary

ad·dic·tion definition

Pronunciation:  /ə-ˈdik-shən/ 
Function: n 
:  compulsive physiological need for and use of a habit-formingsubstance (as heroin, nicotine, or alcohol) characterized bytolerance and by well-defined physiological symptoms uponwithdrawal 
broadly :  persistent compulsive use of a substance known by theuser to be physically, psychologically, or socially harmful compareHABITUATION 

addiction  ad·dic·tion (ə-dĭk'shən) 
n. 
 Habitual psychological and physiological dependence on asubstance or practice beyond one's voluntary control.

Science Dictionary

addiction  (ə-dĭk'shən) Pronunciation Key   A physical or psychological need for a habit-formingsubstance, such as a drug or alcohol. In physical addiction,the body adapts to the substance being used and graduallyrequires increased amounts to reproduce the effects originallyproduced by smaller doses. See more at withdrawal. A habitual or compulsive involvement in an activity, such asgambling.

Legal Dictionary

Main Entry: ad·dic·tion 
Pronunciation: &-'dik-sh&n 
Function: noun 
:  compulsive physiological need for a habit-forming drug (as heroin)


Yeah I'ma go IN

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