This blog was set up specifically based around my love for hip hop music. It's grown into an outlet for my thoughts, imagination, and fantasies but still remains rooted in music. Everything done on here is done that specific way for a specific reason. Right down to the Charles Hamilton d*ck suckers that google his name just to see what blogs are talking about him so they can go there and talk sh*t. Let's not forget the shoutmix folks either. Nice work. *These niggaz is haters! (c) Hov*
YEEEES I know how to spell, use spellcheck, and I'm anal about things being spelled correctly. Think about that. Anyway The links on here all lead to what I would say is useful information guiding you to the best latest music/phone-computer tech/hip hop blog/movie-tv-anime-video game-comic book/ sites available. So its funny to me (not annoying just humorous) when I get questions for help about music.
Don't get me wrong the fact that someone would want me to help them with their music is humbling and ill and the same time. It's just STILL surprising lol. With all that said, there are some specific music web sites I left off the list because I don't endorse getting the music that way, and this was supposed to be for Squishy to find out what those sites were, but then a sense of responsibility kicked in.
Change of plans (sorry), I think I've said enough for now still so much more to touch on though. HATEerz on deck! Gone(n peace)!
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Apparently some people weren't too happy with the last post.. I mean I don't really know why, but its something to note don't u think? I don't hear any complaints when I'm dropping names on some happy- to-know-ya- love-ya-laugh with you sh*t (mind you when I do that those are all honest feelings every time).
That's completely ignoring the fact I wasn't malicious with my words in the least bit (and damn if I can't whip up some sharp sentences that are proven lethal when heard/read). I'm definitely not mad though! How could I be? If someone has a problem with this their reading and isn't that the idea in the first place? Lol and IF they're reading YES IT IS THE POINT (I know how easily confused you get...)!
What do you do when the audience you perform to expects you to lose? (That sounds like an excerpt of some sh*t I wrote) I guess you have to ask yourself if you really want to win or just look good losing? My conclusion was the former. Ahhhh welcome to the place you go when you know you've made mistakes learned from them and don't want to make the same one's again.
Redemption Hall or something like that, pretty much where I've been decorating sense my series of self induced 'Fails'. To my credit a lot of it while it could've been avoided WAS out of my hands. Kicked my feet up and got quite comfortable until I decided it was time for some REdecorating dig?
Since my sense is having some much needed additions added to it, I figured I'd clear some more things up. This space is mine, unless I lend it to one of you lucky people. I'm bout to tip the glass and let it spill over.
I have nothing to lose revealing myself cause I'm true to myself all day. So yeah I'm gonna come back to facebook, back to myspace, back to twitter and enjoy being everywhere that is accessible to the public. At least the public with an internet connections lol.
Anyway people that know me know what it is. Still the same nerdy (more nerdy actually) dude laid back to the max wondering where or who is gonna come sweep me off my 2 feet, who just happens to be extremely talented at that round ball sport. So yeah n*ggas laugh it up and you b*tches ladies zip it up cause its obviously not for you. So why hate?
There's Law to keep Order and I'm creating my own law and order here, and everywhere else in my life cause when I wait for it to come to me (sweep sweep) I find myself waiting waiting and waiting some more. So choke on that. Rebel2Society@gmail.com UgotIT!Gone!
So more friends gone to start off 2010. Its a whatever type deal to me right now, I mean I know I could have given more of myself to build/strengthen/salvage the relationship(s) but I'm spreading myself thin as it is. That's not to say I didn't WANT to do those things, just I'm trying to be focused on my lil dudes my game my life, family, and friends. The problem is it comes in that order. I can admit I need to work on that and I plan to, sorry, I AM working on that (Gamble on me eehhh?). However, this is moreso to say good bye to Megherz (insert peace smiley emoticon here) the quirky yet funny, sometimes spaced out, independent, master of the see-saw 24 hour fitness employee. Unfortunately my one time acquaintance who became a short time friend is now once again becoming an even more formal acquaintance... So I'm going back in the past while moving forward in the future (Quick?) and it makes it DOES make sense!
No malicious intent here, it just didn't work out there kid. But any mention of 'using' dead that sh*t.
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*Resisting the cliche Jay-Z (insert song title here) phrase*
Those 5 things are all important and necessary priorities for me to have, I just need to work on reordering their order of importance AND still give the same amount of energy to each area. honestly all that was trumped by anything basketball and or electronic/manga/cinema/related activities available at the time YOU KNOW! Lol this is kind of fun... I recognize that nothing worth working for will happen overnight, so I'm taking it a few steps at a time. People may actually get some things they've been waiting for...
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My intent wasn't to embarass or put anybody on blast, but this is me right here. If you were offended I'm sorry. Enjoy this more intimate look your getting today, cause I don't know how I feel about it.
Why everyone wanna send me happy new years dumb early? Its not new years for me yet ya'll! I still appreciate the love though. Hope everybody gets what they are looking for and sets some mean goals to achieve. I'm trying to eliminate hate of any and all kinds in 2010.
Simple right? I'm going to get MORE into this IN 2010 lol but for now that's the goal. Paying attention to those clues? hmmmmmmm...
Let me say welcome back Charles Hamilton! I'm going to retract statements made in my blog entitled '*sighs*' real quick. The new music is fire my dude! The 'Normalcy EP' you dropped? BANANAS B (no homo lmao)
Let me take this time out to big up ALL my fav. hip hop artists (Nas, Jay-Z, Eminem, Charles Hamilton, Lupe, Kanye, Slaughterhouse, Blu, 50 Cent, Mos Def, Slum Village, & Elzhi)... They all came with some type of project or just flat out had good music for me to listen to.
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A lot of these dudes had a lot to prove too (to my ears lol) and they did (thankfully) so big ups n*ggas!
Now I have to deal with the one who likes Charles Hamilton not (HATES him more like it.. Kobe too smh) and try to be as happy as can be. Alex where the hell you at? stop playing before I go craaaaazy (lol she's never seen crazy *rolls eyes*) All love baby!
*what I REALLY want and how I REALLY feel*
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... 'If I had it I'd give it only to regenerate it in a minute'... true story (Michelle)
Everybody (if you don't know who you are by now goodluck) I love ya'll!! gone (n peace)!
I wasn't playing when I said Lupe was straight bodying this rap sh*t. Here's some proof. Off his latest mixtape 'Enemy of the State: A Love Story' and in order if you don't have this, log on and d/l it now! BTW this post is gonna be long...
[Lupe Fiasco] Check! One, Two… Ahh.. Naw!
[Verse #1: Lupe Fiasco] Your attention please, your attention I need it So I can sit you in a position from which I see it Where I’m seated is scenic Heavy-weighter, slim as the Machinist, so bulimic Which means you somewhere in between it I take it back for you like the Wild Stallions (Wyld Stallyns) of San Dimas I’m in the market for low-mile 360 Modena's And a good organic cleaners My car always a winner Your car’s always pitted We should call it Stanley Steamers Most of my friends in gangs My new nickname is Ghengis Khan But without the ‘Ye, but his last name’s my side I ride with the demeanors (the meanest) I’m armed to the teeth You’re Venus and you’ve never been to the Dinas (dentist) School of Hard Knocks, I dean it I done it, as well as a celebrated alumnus I donate to the campus and my name’s on the arenas But you can’t bring it to my court Not even with subpoenas Cause you can’t play my sport But you can still cheer-lead us And you can’t sit there That section’s for the seniors And the sexy senoritas So just move up to the bleachers How you gonna school me when I grew up with your teachers I know that you can't hear me Cause I blew up all the speakers And the power line is hanging Cause I threw up all the sneakers I ate up the imposters And I chewed through all the pizzas I blacked out with a black card And I maxed out all the Visas
[Verse #2: Lupe Fiasco] Uhh…Accreditation so prestigious Just walk across my stage Your life will be completed Don’t need financial aid Cause this is just some free shit You been properly prepared Throw your hats up in the air I’m red hot, Chilly, (Red Hot Chili) I’m Anthony Kiedis My spirit smells teenage And Chi-town’s feelin' excellent We hit them with the President See we set the precedent I don’t feel I’m best I just feel I’m better than…
[Chorus: Thom Yorke/Radiohead] Everyone… Everyone Around… Here Everyone is so… near So alone… So alone
[Verse #3: Lupe Fiasco] See I don’t disagree This is just a grievance This ain’t dissin’ This is civil disobedience How you gon’ make hip-hop Without all the ingredients? Lot of mouths to feed Plus a lot of greediness And that greed, outshines the neediness What ni***s need is some "question they authority" And tune out all the TV shit And we be this So I give ‘em more You see I did it for…
[Chorus: Thom Yorke/Radiohead] Everyone… Everyone is so… near Everyone has got… the fear So alone… So alone
[Verse #4: Lupe Fiasco] Yeah… I am back up on the airwaves Feelin’ like a Soldier, and I ain’t talking where the Bears play Flair, look how I Fred Astaire (further stair) down the staircases ‘Finna be a hair-raisin’ tortoise versus hare race So you should hang around here (hair) like some earrings I know attention’s all about how you pair things So when I want them to hear me out I just sit them next to some pictures of Rosa splitting with her titties out And what’s written on her titties is what it's really about Then her vagina is some poor kids from China Nipples nuclear missiles Ass is a daughter without a dad Back is like Afghanistan, Iraq Health care hair Drive by thighs Education lips HIV eyes Environment feet Justice get her so wet, brains get you brains You can fuck her if you protest But before you bust in her face, finish listenin’ to the tape... Enemy of the State...
[Lupe Fiasco] Microphone check, I make em all bounce Every teller in Bank of America, make em all count You gone need the whole staff to add up the amount... It's gonna take to pay me off to keep me out your house To keep me in my zone so that I don't zone out I'm Rich and Po' like Zone 4, thoughts is deep like Tone Loc Walk with me like old folk, cross your street a score's goal'ed I don't rap, I hockey rink... cause my flow is so cold
I am on my "mmhmm," they are on they "Oh, No!" I am really in here (hair), they ain't real like Soul Glo Don't you know I'm so sho, them n****'s got no Glow Find a master 'fore you can come back into the dojo
Lupe got his mind right, n**** this is my mic And I've come to take it all back like Miller High Life He must not be tied tight...back against the wall... He will throw a ball, like he playin' Jai Alai
I'll do the register, you just get them fries right I don't trust America, after watchin' Zeitgeist Take a look at my stripes, chest looks like a tiger arm and I'm hot as tiger balm, fire like a five-alarm And it's set to Tire Barn, Get ya fire-fighter on....
I ain't worried 'bout you hoes (hose), I don't even need to roll I turn down your ex like how you put your tires on Once I get these tires on, I buy a bomb and tie it on And ride this around the entire song, find a line to drive it on Park it near a metaphor, wait for it, the timer's on You can turn your hydrants on, I'll just turn my wipers on Wipe it off then wipe me down but don't forget about my bomb!
[Lupe Fiasco] I call this one Yoga...Flame
Uh, meditate On the floor, fold your legs, resonate Breathing speed, regulate Clear my mind till it levitate
Dhalsim, I beat the game,
Level 8, Hella good
Never great cause God is great So ain’t no goats, ain’t no gates
Fences see the rams ram, lambs let, sheep’s skate
Brace yourself, teeth straight Fix your face for Pete’s sake Birthday wordplay, piece of cake 4 door flow with seats for eight Ororo Munroe make it rain Not with bills, I make it change
Take that cool shit, make it lame
Take that nerd shit, make it bang
Yeah, you heard us make it bang Yeah, you heard me make it bang
Melt the change and make a ring
Take that ring and make a bracelet Take that bracelet make a chain
Look how far my necklace hang Connect that chain up to a crane
Pull the game up by the brains Could not move it just with brains So I had to use some bling
Shouts to Drizzy, shout to Wayne Yeezy, Jeezy, Ricky, Fifty, Raekwon, Loso, Gucci Mane
I’m not going to drop my name Sneak that message to the masses, you can call me Chocolate Rain You might think my wallet drained
Look how far my pockets hang
That’s cause I got pocket change My net worth is basketball They net worth is soccer games
Tell them ni***s stop it mane But they cannot stop it mane
So, they forced to watch it drain They be looking so blue like water when I wash my jeans
King without the whoppers and, King without the pauper and King and I ain’t got no drains
Bruce Lee, dishwasher Cleaning out your pots and pans These ni***s ain’t got no stain Power once I hit them with the powder Then throw em’ in the shower These ni**a slower than some dial-up I be on my broadband These ni***s still downloadin’ Lu finished, you still up on YouSendIt, uShare, zShare How long you going to be there? Damn… FinallyFast.com for you fam Information super highway These n****s ain’t got no lane But you can ride my shoulder Like they pulled you over I sit in the driver’s seat You sit on the sofa I am Patrick Swayze You are Whoopi Goldberg
Cause he was a beast and the way that he controlled her Rest in peace to Patrick Rest in Peace to Stacks, kid Rest in Peace to Rap, no, rest in peace to wackness
Yeah, n***a, I whacked it Baby boy with the glasses Tears like a black rap Zach Galifianakis Hangover, game over, n***a that’s it!
*If you care about what Diddy is singing about I apologize but this is a Lupe post obviously... skip to the 2:45 mark after Lupe's 1st verse to get to his 2nd verse.*
[Verse #1: Lupe Fiasco] I see, diamond flooded demons, Lamborghini angels Halos down with the doors flapping when they came through Windows up, system bumping, you the one they sang to Same two, who said they the ones you should send your thanks through Pockets full of blessings, they can sanctify and saint you You can hear 'em revving up in heaven now, can't you? Sandals made of chrome, his soul made of leather An engine full of sinning and, candy painted feathers The sound of the motor only reverend you confess to I see this all in the eyes of the girl I'm next to I asked her “Where we going?” and she just told me "Pleasure" Hands on the wheel, and her heels on the accelor- -Rator, told her wait up, she kept going like et cetera But like a broken record, we’ve come too far to just wheel it back, selector So we gon’ ride forever, forever, forever, forever, forever
[Verse #2: Lupe Fiasco] Uh, said she was a fan of mine Knew she was New Jersey, but said that she was Anaheim Butterflies turn to suicides, now it's phantoms flying Used to whisper in my ear, but now she tryna 'vander mine That holy feeling (Holyfield) all gone, slowly feeling all wrong None of this is satisfyin', pull it over, let me out I'll just hitchhike back to mine Nothing's really as it seems, yeah I shoulda known that Thought I called a angel, devils had my phones tapped
[Lupe Fiasco] Uh, yeah, this one's for Chilly Chill, Food and Liquor flow, Strong like it's been distilled by, Hillbillies in the hills and we move down to Beverly, So heavenly, waking n****s up like revelry, We won't be going back to you regularly, so forget it Shadow flow, call up Punxsutawney Phillips, My mind's on dope, my brain's on skillets, Thoroughly trained to just bang off lyrics, Bang bang bang like Pops Wayans, Witherspoon (with a spoon) or with a fork, Was coming out my egg like Mork, deserves his own head on Rushmore
Flood the game like a giant in a dwarf's shorts, So long n****s, career so short it should be ridin' on a horse, Mines is a horse, but mines is the size you could sneak inside a fort (Ford), Yours is a pony, it could sleep inside a Porsche, I am on point like the eating side of forks, So keep your head down like your reflection in a spoon, Chilly Chill will be outta corrections real soon... Enemy...god willingly...
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Uh, we just gonna keep it goin' and goin', until I feel completed and happy about it...You know?
Uh, Opus of a ghetto boy who grew into a project man Brewster Place (booster plates), he used to stick his scissors in his sockets damn, clear that Project Runway, 'cause this is where my rocket lands, ain’t got no problems, Houston, I A.K.A. then rocket land. Events recent that lit a fire under him like pots and pans, rockets and I (eye) up in the sky like helicopter cams...
And you down there in the traffic jam from here I’ve seen a bunch of fake shit like avid wrestlin' fans... Came up from the bottom of the eye exam ZOOM Now I’m like the biggest G off (Geoff) in the room, still hard to see me like the truth on TV or the roof from the sidewalk, I don’t flo' (floor), I ceiling
My mama said they need me... 'cause, I’m made from the best stuff on earth like Snapple Tea Leaves, they glass is half full so I spit into them like Celie, no longer G, now you can see me but your letter's (lettuce) still under my sea (C) like seaweed C and G but nothing bout me C-G, It’s all real, none of this is green screen...
"Shut Up and Let Me Go" just like The Ting Tings, I’m feelin' like a Mac, standing around a bunch of PCs. I’ve rocked it from the shouters to the soccer moms, try to stop what’s going on... you’ll see the back of my hand like the tops of palms, I’m balling like the tops of pawns, circle of influence getting bigger like the ripples on the tops of ponds.
Short-footed and War Headed like the tops of bombs, Domino-in n****'s, delivery is Papa John's, Little Ceaser‘s, uh, burning down your Pizza Hut... Plaque collection building 'cause, I don’t brush my teeth enough, yeah, Crack is wack and reefer sucks, you might think this deep as fuck but this like my weaker stuff, they ask “Is this his day-to-day 'cause this is like a week to us?”
Mic is shy and speakers blush, I is shy (Chi) and he is up, I correct, me is up - no we is up - cause its like two of me and each of us, rappin' acid, eat this up, A-Town down, peace is up, New York to East Coast is tough, West Side ridin', lot of n****'s salty 'cause, 'cause I be overseas and (overseasoned) tough.
Everything seamless, WorldStar never seen this, NahRight gotta stream this, motherfuckin' genius!
Brave and fly, you backbone-less and wingless, bunch of chickens on the strip, I’m coming for they fingers... till what they throwin' up is meaningless... Chilly Chill you seeing this? This didn’t make MTV’s list...
Finish fingers, eating wrist, feedin' frenzy and shit, Succotash stuffering, Chicken-Frikasee'en this... a beat eatin' media blitz, pace is getting feverish, pain is growing Seaver-ish, these the peppers Peter picked, things are at their easiest, Real Compton city G’in it but I’m from Chicago...house lights, bravooos!
*Applause*.... Yeah, I’m just playin'....Internet, check!
[Lupe Fiasco] Aww, you don't get it
[Lupe Fiasco] I'm just a wolf inside a lion's suit, A shark shirt, a panther's pants, piranha hat and tiger shoes, I got a lion's den inside the booth That right there is point blank This here, is from where the sniper shoot Might take a long time to get it, by the time I hit it I done ran Bubble Tape around them Chiclets, POOF!! I ain't the bomb, I'm the company that got the contract to rebuild during the aftermath, Have a blast! Goin' green, only using half the gas, the calming comes through after disasters' have But this calm has the same fury that disasters have I should have a class, I'm the son/sun of the South Pole plus Alaska's dad Got n****s like "DAG!!", flow is like crazy gone mad And villains gone bad, Punk ass n****s, don't be so Daft Baby, why you hangin' with them busters like Babs? They are such a drag, you should move 'em to the trash Feel like I'm walkin 'round upon Cassius calves Quite a beautiful script, and such a gift of gab A big bass, shout out to Mistah F.A.B Young Frankenstein reportin' live from the lab I bought the bars out, put it on my tab If you came here to box, you'll leave in a bag I run the game, Bilderberg Group, in the lead with the flash Usain Bolt ain't even leavin' this fast Why you take offense with your defensive ass? Never Hussein'in the hole/whole, not even in the half Cause n**** I aint hidin', I'm the whole world, n**** you're an island And the sea's risin', if I keep shinin' You gon' have to take submarines to the drive-in nowwww
HEY!! ENEMY OF THE STATE!!
[Lupe Fiasco] Ohh! Shout out to Slaughterhouse.. Joe Budden, Royce, Crooked, Joell.. Uh! yeah!
[Verse #1: Lupe Fiasco] The game was looking weak, the whole scene starved So I came through with some muscle milk and protein bars Barbells and jump ropes, Bowflexes to body it And a couple Billy Blanks Tae-Bo Karate kicks If you aint Million Dollar Dreamin', then we op-pee-sites In high school, I was voted the most Ted DiBiase'st Also the most slept on, cause my Ted DiBiaseness An Inglorious Bastard, and you looking like a Nazi biiiitch
They say it's hard out here for ol' boy, then tell me where Taraji is I am going so raw, watch me Soy Sauce, Wasabi this Noble on them Pro-Tools, hot as H-E- double hockey sticks Make sure you give the chef your compliments And thank him for his constantly great tasting accomplishments A smiley face, emoticons if you wanna remain anonymous My retirement's on hold, I got the whole world on conference Matchstick Man, I really have the confidence that I'ma give them G.O.O.D Music like Common Sense and Consequence Content that's relative across the continent New York, Houston, Chi-Town, Los Angeles Enemy!!
[Lupe Fiasco] Aw! Shout out to Push, Shout out to Malice, Fam-Lay!! Ab Liva, Re-Up, N****a We Up!! .. G's up Windin' down but..
It's Hirst verses and Murakami rhyming, All my raps is super flat, all your raps is super wack, Tell him that the future's back, DeLorean rolling down the block You can call it shooting craps, and my roof is back And my wings is up
Kingda Ka without kalua, so you ain't gotta pour the king a cup Young Yakuza but, none of my fingers cut So I can still sip red zinga with my pinkies up Made man, you can call this cleaning up I'm OCD, I never think it's clean enough That's what defines me, I never think it's mean enough Lines deeper than those waiting on a sneaker, cuz You gone need two heads like the King of Clubs just to figure out the meaning of, I'm just achieving buzz so stay out of son/sun way like you're drinkin' blood This is what it feels like to be in love...ENEMY!
I mean come on, I mean look at what I'm droppin' here Do this for the block and the blogosphere No, you ain't ready for the heavy, so I'll keep it light as joggin' gear I don't want the throne, I want the helicopter rocking chair Jay gave me a co-sign like I was RocaWear, but be clear I'm not the air (heir) I'm the water, fire and the earth; That means I'm doin' dirt, spittin' flames and quenchin' thirst, And plus the real God has been on my side since birth I hope that he forgives me, I hope I do his work in every single verse, Now I might do a dance, I might even jerk, tell them n****s don't hate Only God is great, Enemy Of The State
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My first time updating ya'll on my way to my early morning workout. Its a little different this time, I'm about an hour too early but whatever, I'm feeling extra motivated today. Let me chill though, talking about the work you put in is wack to me. People should just know when they're resting I'm putting in work on my Mayweather sh*t.
*cop count on this drive is crazy*
Kind of geeked got new music today lol. (Still waiting though Charles that wasn't cool yo.) This 50 is about to go hard. Yeah, that 50 lol, Curtis, whatever. He's coming with it I have a good feeling (sh*t it better bump at least its gonna be my workout music for the first workout).
What's good Kansas kids (and Rora lmao)!? Squishy how u living?? Michelle can I get something to my inbox? Like now? Lol just wanted to say what's up to all of ya'll. ZQ what up!?
Kiki.. Cause you'd be tight if I didn't say your name lol.
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^ ^ ^ Shout out to the whole Pitt state hoop squad. Rod what up? Don't know anything about anything man, that night I was drunk my dude. What I said was from the heart though, I think I was referring to your chick in the sense that you didn't know her THAT well.. No disrespect (no shots), just clearing that up here, since I didn't text you back my bad, still love though. *It's Hendo around my way and I'm just saying what's up!*
^ ^ Swear I greeted that n*gga like that everyday! What up homie?
Trying to spread this positive vibe I'm feeling dig me?? Josh I got you, we'll talk soon. Hope everybody else is good I'm bout to (well I already am) reach out soon.
Big bro Ivan how YOU living Philly head soft talkin a** n*gga lol. You know what it is man! Our b*tch is bleeding everywhere, not cool. You'd be grossed out too on that "I'm bout to faint man" sh*t lol too many funny things between us (pause).
^ ^ Ivan's good money by the way. We ODin to get prepared. For what you ask? Sh*t ask him, I'm not telling (just yet) . Big moves coming (Cali is going to be good for you! Lol let me chill..)
Too bad I'm just now pulling up to the gym, and I want to write more than anything right now. ;( the hell am I supposed to do now? So yeah, Michelle hit me up!
How about I post an interview of some sort today (alex pay attention lol)? Introduce the world to a couple inner circle people. B'coax what's good!? J-Bird what up though? Habib.. Habib lmao. Macky where you at man? Jerome fat a** man, you damn near ghost yo.. Finally, Dale um... Yeah we was a mature thought away from beefing, but see I am growing up!
Brittany (who probably doesn't read ever) play rock soccer with no shoes on. <-- gotta love that one. Nah it aint that bad, but stop listening to people that aren't around.
LnF don't front like your not re-learning how to have fun again lol. This is great, but damn we BOTH gon' be broke lmao.
Uhh Jess what up? Stop losing my stuff! Lol
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Gotta go and "lock in" as Diddy would say. I'll get at ya'll later. Gone!
Lol just felt like sharing that. I've been in fitted hats since my head was bust open (yea I know its grammatically incorrect surprise surprise) and today is the first day I shed the hat. Simply because my eye is looking better (almost healed no scars plz!!), and I got some of the craziest waves on earth! Lmao dead a** though. I'm getting it in early today starting things off right. LA is going to win, I'm going to stay disciplined, and people are going to smile.
^ ^ ^ I like that, matter of fact I want to make this the first stress/argument free day of the summer. Spazzing is not an option. Anyone who tries to go against this today will be put down by my waves lmao. I need to stop..
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I love the innocence of a child's hello/hi. Puts a big a** smile on my face every time.
^ ^ Kids on the way? Lol let me stop, I don't think about how the things I think about are perceived when I'm happy. YOU KNOW!!
Just different, ya'll know the drill. I'm socially Socrates, because I'm assuming he locked himself in the house and only mumbled incoherence to people as a substitute for conversation. Why would Socrates want to talk anyway? He was probably too busy being a genius. Not saying I'm a genius, but I do be busy doing me lol. Socially awkward I know I'm weird just deal with it if your not used to it.
This isn't supposed to be a long entry by any means. I think I'm going to leave my spot and walk over to the block myspace, facebook, and twitter live on. Maybe, definitely don't feel like walking, but then again I did a bunch of stuff I didn't feel like doing today. Progress is the key to any attainable goal. F*ck how long it takes you to accomplish, just keep digging away at it.
Just completed my backup plan. Feels good to know that in the event that 2011 doesn't go as planned I'm good with a legit second option. Money will be made in my life lol. Not that money is my goal in life, because to me that's wack as sh*t. I want to chase passions. I am chasing passions. I think the best part of it all, is bringing the people I grew up with along with me.
There isn't going to be any turning my back on folks just cause. I'm fully prepared to reach out and grab the willing. They'd do it for me (I think..). Anyway, I'm just excited to see the future. An attainable future at that. For now I AM trying to attain money, but not for the sake of getting paid. This is more like "my foot's in the door now where from here?" sort of thing.
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^ ^ ^ I'm riding to the airport with Jess, and we are talking about old a** cartoons we used to love growing up. Hey arnold, doug, rocko's modern life, Darkwing Duck, x-men, spiderman, etc. I could go on and on, just know I was/am a cartoon head. That includes movies and such (ask me what my fav. Movie of all time is.), really I'm a big nerd but that's ok cause I'm Turtle, and that's how I get down lol.
^ ^ ^ Speaking of which I recovered all alter ego's today, pretty cool.
I want to shout out all the blogs I follow, everybody keep doing your thing. I've been slacking lately but I'm about to have an appreciation thread for ya'll. So keep it ill! Gone!!
I tend to try and give people exactly what they deserve after I've been rubbed the wrong way. Mind you, this is all from my perspective, which means something minor could be monumental in my eyes. Not saying people have to walk on eggshells when dealing with me, because I wouldn't judge someone I just met without really getting to sit down and get to know them. If I do know you, it still doesn't mean be extra cautious I'm just saying...
^ ^ ^ Sorry to those that have caught the evil coming out of me. You probably deserved it, but I'm the type of person that feels ashamed (of myself) if I lose control of my emotions. And yes I'm an emotional person, I'm not sure if its very apparent though. Anyway, situations recently have caused me to lose control for brief moments. I do not want that to be the case anymore.
I see a problem I start working on how to fix it. Regardless of how long it may appear the problem is going on, if I know about it is I'm Workinonit!! (Inside joke right Charles? Lol uh yeah we've been in touch, DEAD ASS)< --Pause
^ ^ I'm thinking I'm about to get WAY more personal on here. I mean its my f*cking spot right? I really have to stop considering others in the sense that my needs are important too. Sacrificing is cool (especially when people have no clue your sacrificing for them) , but sometimes it takes a lot out of me.
Which brings me back to what I was trying to say, all tangents aside. I'm an emotional person, but today I was emotion-less. Basically didn't care about anything, well I did until I was set off. Whatever, LA lost too! Though I didn't/dont care. I tried to dig myself out of it but no luck. I blame it on the music-less house. Walls of trust have blasted down, and safety (and sanity) reside where I lay my head to sleep. Just that one room. Other than that, outside (my normal environment ie. Anywhere I can be seen), or the gym. Dead a**.
I wanted to get at ya'll sooner, but something told me to go through the whole day first. I guess it put things in the right perspective, at least if I'm seeing through right lol (that's over your head trust me!) Hopefully, today can continue to be productive on my end. Plans have already been cancelled, so we'll see what ends up being the case.
"Mos" Definitely going to stay communicating on here though. This is where its at. Apologies if you are scratching your head as to why the connection was interrupted on other forums (myspace, fb, twitter, etc.). Its just that I remodeled in here, so I'm kind of not leaving for awhile lol. Today is all about inspiration. I'm finding some right now writing this. I'm GOING to have to find some more in order to do what I know I'm supposed to today. Definitely writing something though :)
Actually excited about how everything could possibly turn out. I'm about to go practice terrible dieting habits. Which reminds me, an update to what's going on with me is coming sort of, I think.. More information is coming. That works better. Aight that's plenty.. Gone!
*History on repeat Mos and Kweli blacking over a soulful Dilla beat* ^ Rebelmusic
What's a house with no music?? Somewhere I definitely don't want to live. What's a relationship with no understanding? A relationship I don't want to be in. Dilemma time dead a**. I'm sick of this feeling, and can't shake what the cause of it is. So I'm goin hard into me mode. I think I've said it before, I have too much love in me and not enough knowledge of how to share it. (Definitely didn't say it like that though lol) so I'm not worried about sharing sh*t anymore.
*wtf does this mean?*
Welcome back Mr. A**hole.
^ ^ People think I'm insensitive, and I only care about myself. When in actuality I care too much about everybody in my life. Sorry, can't carry on like this anymore, and I won't. People have to draw the line somewhere and mine is being finely etched for everybody to see.
I'm just tired of everything . EVERYTHING!
I hope everybody realizes this is me backed into a wall (again). My actions are direct counters to what's being presented in front of me as "so-called options". I still love this though, my blog has truly become my spot. I got the sofa with the big a** flat screen on the wall. Music pumpin out the speakers (yeah its loud in here) on the screen is my future. I'm dead a** watching my future in here, seeing how crazy 2011 is going to be for me (a silent film of course [); ) )
^ ^ ^ ^ ^ I love connecting with whoever it is reading though, and for those I know read it, I think its ill we can communicate this way.
*Nas blacked on this Untitled(N*gger) album! Had to throw that in there, I'm in the whip listening to it. Damn homie smh* (pause pause pause)
All of that means you better f*cking cherish this sh*t. I'm about to recline in my spot for awhile, so yeah, I might not be communicating. Well not unless its done on here ("Mos" likely). Now its time for me to get lost in my music. Gone!
^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ A lot can be learned from that situation. First, let me applaud dude because he held his temper in check, and DIDN'T react out of anger after being caught with a tough right hook lol. Second, he was man enough to apologize for the wrong he contributed to the situation. I'm just saying, I've been in situations where I wish I would have reacted how he did, so big ups to him. Lastly, I feel like it's important to spread positivity. I don't just want to post dude getting punched out so everybody can harp on the negativity of the situation. This gives everybody a chance to see the whole situation through..
Anyway I Gotta go! Got the Tyson documentary on (this dude scares me still..) and some Baskin Robbins to eat (LnF killing hers super fast! FATTY! LMAO)! Gone!
People need to keep things in perspective really.. I'm too the point where if my association with you means I'm inviting headaches into my life, I'd rather walk away. Not to say I don't value people in my life, just to say I value LIVING life. It's too short to be weighed down by nonsense, and with that said, a lot of opportunities have been missed the last few days due to nonsense.
*SO KEEP THE B.S. FROM AROUND ME!!!*
^ ^ ^ ^ ^ I didn't start this entry to complain about that though, rather instead to ask for help (which I most likely will not receive via my blog, but whatever), and get some things off of my mind.
I have a friend who is going through a lot right now. I know what it is he's going through, (though I'm not sure I am supposed to) and I know it is probably one of the worst things this person could have to deal with. How do I approach my friend? Seriously, do I come right out like look I heard what happened and I'm sorry blah blah. Or do I just talk to him and wait to see if this person enlightens me on the situation? I just do not have a clue as to how to approach this..
^ ^ Which is why pettier problems have really pissed me off lately. Get over it or get the f*ck out of my life people. I'm staring at crossroads in my life trying to decide what fits best, and which directions to take. It's difficult to say the least but I have found my old form of therapy. That being the gym, thank God for that. There's nothing like being in the gym with a ball and just doing you, and that's not even to say that I'm alone or want to be alone at the gym. Just that I love being in the gym working on my game (which for the moment, won't be showcased anywhere next year..). I don't know, what my new attitude is going to bring to me but i'm looking forward to finding out...
*Enough of that.. Lighter Note*
I've listened to some new hip hop and and a little disappointed to say, well, I'm disappointed lol. Busta's new joint is ehhhh, with way too many guest appearances (and Ron Brownz lol). Thinking on it now though, I guess I'm really not THAT disappointed, I just never expected Busta to come with a dud (and he did lol). Method Man and Redman came correct with Blackout!2 so that was cool. Lastly, Sho Tufli (featured on this blog some entries ago) delivered a nice mixtape based off Cam'ron's past work. Did I mention Relapse and Crime Pays?? Both Em and Cam went IN on their individual projects respectfully.
Me? I'm stuck in Hamilton's world, so I am listening to anything but him whenever my mind allows me too. What can I say when the world is throwing darts at me and pain is accumulating around me, THAT n*gga gets it. So it helps to say the least. Nothing else to say really.. I miss everybody that I dont see anymore (The Kansas kids lol), and that's really it.. Gone..
^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ Had a crazy conversation with someone today that really made me think about my situation. Quick recap, I'm walking home and I see a familiar truck up ahead parked on the side of the road with it's hazard lights on. The car then goes in reverse stops on the side and me, when the driver instructs me to get in. I knew him, so I did. Hence, crazy conversation. Gained a brand new understanding for this person, and I think (pending on my current viewpoints) will definitely help in the long run.
*Random* ^ ^ ^ R.I.P. Wayman Tisdale (one of my new heroes). Music conquers all. I plan to rededicate my life to music, and he's a MONUMENTAL reason why.
I'm striving to understand that which I currently cannot. It's a long journey, but right now I'm falling back. Way back. Gone...
Wooooooow really? I thought we were PAST this. I'm tired of the attitudes, and as I told everybody, and have been making a point to mention in this very blog of mine, I'm all about peace right now! Any negative energy/ feelings you have keep them the f*** from me, because I'm in a differen't place in my life. smh... People are crazy yo. I really don't understand it.. I've had my share of bad days out here, and believe me I know what its like to feel like the whole world is stepping on your throat, but to use that as an excuse to treat people bad isn't cool. Hear me when I say I'M SPEAKING OUT OF EXPERIENCE! (<<--Kanye style caps on that a** lol)I've been the a**hole that people didn't want to be around because of my attitude, and guess what? It's not fun being by yourself. You may think it's ok at first and your getting along fine,(and maybe you feel like being out here outside of your country you are by yourself)but trust me you will regret it.
*For Dramatic Effect* ^ ^ ^
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Now Kiki, I'm talking directly to you, and not because you pissed me off with your sh*tty attitude that you decided to cop when everybody was chilling on some good vibe sh*t (which you did). But because your treating your friends like sh*t (and I'm not included in that group). I know let me guess, I don't know you blah blah blah. Shut up for a second and listen, because I may not know you, but I know people (and you've displayed a great amount of immaturity through this all). In the last two weeks I have dealt with OTHER people's problems. Bulimia, money issues, sadness, etc. I didn't do that because I had to, I did it because when I associate with people, I don't do it unless I genuinely care. So shovel that people don't know you sh*t all you want. I don't care, but I will tell you this. (Strictly from my perspective) You have GOOD friends (and again, I'm not putting myself in that list), but if you keep acting the way you have been, you will be left alone. Maybe, that's what you want, but you owe it to them as a friend to stop acting like such an immature baby all the time. I'm just trying to give you my honest opinion, and I'm using my blog as the forum to do so because you seem to "not care" when I approach you any other way. This is in no way to put you out there, just to get my message across to you (besides I feel like I might explode if I were to say this in your face and I don't want to do that. So this keeps it calm for the time being), I can take it down after you've read it no problem.
^ ^ ^ ^ With all THAT said, I'm done. I wish you the best and good luck with what your persueing in life. Gone!
This is a message for those I've fallen out of touch with and still care about. What's crazy is a lot of people I've been talking to recently have been echoing these same sentiments to me, (in a different fashion)anyway I like this joint and the message is ill so I'm gonna leave ya'll with it to think about..
^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ Sometimes things just happen. Dead ass, it's not always some crazy underlying problem that causes things to go bad/south/no where at all. I can't wait to reconnect with some people.. Gone.
Its semi-early here, and I have an apt full of unpacked items. Eyes are burning from sleep deprivation(I told ya'll insomnia aint nothing to f*ck with!) as I sit amongst all of my prized belongings. Getting real nostalgic, but that's ok memories are great tools of inspiration...
*Detoxing Sucks*
^ ^ Yeah I'm clean, and clear headed. I'm not going to front on the feeling, its great. Especially considering that I hit rock bottom in my life about a week ago. Homeless, addictions, and the depressing realization that I couldn't take care of the (other)girl that got me (and Ivan.. What's good homie) through the year. Once again music was my escape. Shout out to my fav. Rapper (I mean musician) Charles Hamilton. Dude kept me alive with his music, so I'm forever grateful for his passion, and handling of that which is so dear to me..
^ ^ ^ ^ Thank you music. I don't want people to get things wrong and misconstrue what's being said. I had people to talk to, but at the end of the day, I was alone. I had to climb various hurdles by myself.
"I sold my soul to myself, I'm so alone" Charles Hamilton ^ ^ It's deeper than ACTUAL human interaction. The point is, sitting here in this living room, I feel great(covered in dirt... It was a deep hole I had to climb out of) and ready to approach what's coming NEXT. 4 days and counting down to my reunion with California sunshine.(I know what YOUR thinking LnF.. and then again, maybe I don't.. But its intentional) Don't really know what I'm going to do first, but then again, does it really f***** matter?
I'M GOING HOME!!!!
I'm contemplating stepping up and being the bigger person(again) in order to salvage some relationships that were real tight knit at one point, but as of right now? Naaaah! (No shots, just a lot of OTHER important things on my mind) Fam 1st/Born leaders/foreign tongues reunion! Can't wait, but there's some cracks in our armor that I'm determined to fix up when I touch down. mmmmhhh home cooked meals.. *eyes closed with a koo-laid smile* And like I said I'm clean. Its quiet!!
^ ^ ^ ^ ^ I don't care WHAT you think about this, just THAT you THINK About all this. I wasn't lying, I want to connect with ya'll, and I'm not at all ashamed to do that. (even if it means revealing some secrets of my life along the way.) This blog is going to pop before it's all said and done, but I need ya'll help! Or not, whatever. I love this sh*t and I'm going to do it regardless! Are YA'LL going to be along for the ride? (I hope so lol) Gone!
It's been a hectic week for me, and it's probably only going get more hectic in the next few days, but hey, I'm going HOME in 6 days!! You can't tell me NOTHING! I feel like I've been getting caught up in a lot of OTHER peoples problems, and in the end my advice (while it may be taken) is starting to sound like a broken record. Therefore, I'm done giving it. I've been preaching peace and tranquility all week, so I'm done dealing with anything that isn't that (even if it's just me THINKING its something negative I'm not dealing with it)...
I've heard from a lot of excited people back home, damn it feels good lol. I'm about to be making some major moves in the next month, and of course your all going to be updated. I only ask you keep the hate to yourselves. Been meeting a lot of new interesting people that are going to be featured on this blog so that's coming too. (Shout out to BeeColl aka Bridgette and Mr.Flores aka Tonio.. I'm beefin with a Rod homie won't call you that lol) All in all, it's just looking lovely for me, and I can't wait to expand on relationships I have, and rekindle ones that kind of got away. It's bout to be a great summer..
*Random*
I can write, I know I can, but yeah I'm in a slump. No you didn't get the fact that I was just putting it down to do it, but oh well you've kick started a whole new rant in my blackberry. YES I'm tight about your criticism. Yes I'm going at you. Yes i'm going to make you change your F***** mind.
^ ^ ^ ^ Pretty much somes that up right? lol yeah all in good fun.
I'm out for now, got a date with the prettiest dog in the world. I'm gonna have the actual proof I was speaking about posting yesterday in my last blog up in a little while though, so be on the look out for that. Its Quiet! Ahhhhh yessss! lol. Gone!
All I want to do is have a blog people are into. That's it, (16)nothing more nothing less! (lmao LnF remember when that was stuck in my head all spring break!?)Anyway, I'm going to be doing more to make sure I'm doing my part to make this the best blog it can be. Internet training 101 coming up I guess lol. Dead ass though a forum for discussion has been created and I'm guiding it the best I can, I need YOUR help though. I'm open to whatever my email (kingxpoetic@aol.com) is open to whoever wants to hit me up, and I DO RESPOND TO EVERYONE! Tell your friends, family, whoever lol. Let's get this thing poppin and usher in the summer the right way..
^ ^ ^ ^ ^ It's almost here! Shout out to Ivan and Squishy they got an early headstart on the season (summer). One more to Ms. Hill (Michelle not Lauren lol) cause she's writing her a** off lol..
I beat 12am (well not technically 12am for the whole US but for the midwest and the left coast I'm straight!).. Now wait until AFTER 12am should be interesting... Gone!
P.S. Merry Summer..?
http://www.zshare.net/audio/59735642f13bb9d8/ ^ ^ Drake Feat. Trey Songz & Lil Wayne - Successful
http://www.zshare.net/audio/5973684443e95d2b/ ^ ^ DJ Jazzy Jeff & The Fresh Prince - Summertime
Now time for some online gaming via Ps3.. LnF you aint even ready!! (Street Fighter 4, Killzone 2, Call of Duty 4, NBA 2k9.... Gamertag: Growthstyle )<<--- Who want what!? Gone!(4real)
