surprise surprise I wanna take a ride..

Its semi-early here, and I have an apt full of unpacked items.
Eyes are burning from sleep deprivation(I told ya'll insomnia
aint nothing to f*ck with!) as I sit amongst all of my prized
belongings. Getting real nostalgic, but that's ok memories are
great tools of inspiration...

*Detoxing Sucks*

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Yeah I'm clean, and clear headed. I'm not going to front on the
feeling, its great. Especially considering that I hit rock bottom
in my life about a week ago. Homeless, addictions, and the depressing
realization that I couldn't take care of the (other)girl that got me
(and Ivan.. What's good homie) through the year. Once again music was
my escape. Shout out to my fav. Rapper (I mean musician)
Charles Hamilton. Dude kept me alive with his music, so I'm forever
grateful for his passion, and handling of that which is so dear to me..




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Thank you music. I don't want people to get things wrong and
misconstrue what's being said. I had people to talk to, but
at the end of the day, I was alone. I had to climb various hurdles by myself.

"I sold my soul to myself, I'm so alone" Charles Hamilton
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It's deeper than ACTUAL human interaction. The point is, sitting here
in this living room, I feel great(covered in dirt... It was a deep hole I
had to climb out of) and ready to approach what's coming NEXT. 4 days and
counting down to my reunion with California sunshine.(I know what YOUR thinking
LnF.. and then again, maybe I don't.. But its intentional) Don't really
know what I'm going to do first, but then again, does it really f***** matter?


I'M GOING HOME!!!!


I'm contemplating stepping up and being the bigger person(again) in order to
salvage some relationships that were real tight knit at one point, but
as of right now? Naaaah! (No shots, just a lot of OTHER important things on
my mind) Fam 1st/Born leaders/foreign tongues reunion! Can't wait, but
there's some cracks in our armor that I'm determined to fix up when I
touch down. mmmmhhh home cooked meals.. *eyes closed with a koo-laid smile*
And like I said I'm clean. Its quiet!!














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I don't care WHAT you think about this, just THAT you THINK
About all this. I wasn't lying, I want to connect with ya'll,
and I'm not at all ashamed to do that. (even if it means revealing
some secrets of my life along the way.) This blog is going to pop before
it's all said and done, but I need ya'll help! Or not,
whatever. I love this sh*t and I'm going to do it regardless!
Are YA'LL going to be along for the ride? (I hope so lol) Gone!

Rebel2Society

My Momma Loves Me..

As corny as it may be my mommy sends me things on the daily to let me know she's thinking about me and loves me dearly. This sh*t right here homie! This sh*t right here!!!!!! lmao let me stop.. Thanks Mom I love you.

Here's today's:
Daily Horoscope Extended Tuesday, May 05, 2009
Feel as if you've been through an emotional ringer lately? Take heart -- you're due for a break now. Your great attitude has made everything go smoothly lately -- good for you! Tempers are cooling, fortunes are turning, and you are set for a traveling opportunity. You will be able to learn more about a different culture or cultural event you've always been curious about. Fill today with exploration and feed your curiosity. It will stimulate your mind.

Daily Horoscope Extended Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Cultural considerations are foremost in your mind right now, and your great social energy ensures that you can explore and learn much more than usual. It's a great time to travel and Being polite and having good manners is important, but if someone is rude to you, you certainly don't owe them any courtesies. If someone pushes your buttons, then let them have it. Celebrate your obnoxious side today and use your creativity to craft an insult that will really get your point across. You aren't someone who can sit quietly while someone disrespects you or a love one, so why act like you are? Conveying truth in you actions is never a mistake.


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Damn right my momma loves me! Honestly I don't even be on horoscopes like that, but because my MOM takes her time to do this for me, I pay attention. Damn home cooked meals are right around the corner! MAY 16th baby!! Gone!

Unpredictable

so I have had 2 posts deleted in the last 24 hours and they were both heavy as sh*t.



"But It's cool cause we back friends and I'm happy that it's over..." Hov.

*God don't make no mistakes*

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Must be for a reason.. Let me just say last night was crazy and I think a lot of things were learned from the situation.
Sorry to Kiki and Rora, I know I was supposed to take ya'll to Taco Bell but like I said some stuff came up.

Today was cool (so far) me and Ivan was on some chill sh*t all afternoon went to the gym to hoop with the team.
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*his words for me*

"If you gon fight, fight. If they wanna give you sh*t, keep it 50/50. Don't go to cause a problem, but don't back down either."

I guess due to the events that took place last night he felt like something else was gonna jump off. I was just feeling like whatever. But thanks for the advice homie.

I'm starting to feel like a rumor... Gone..

Rebel2Society

Gettin Better..

Update



A lot of people are having a bad day. I feel for them. We'll get through this! Lol. Shout out to my auntie she's technologically inclined, and therefore keeps a biased eye on me lol love you!



LnF what's good? (Or should I say what's hood? Lmao U KNOW!!! For the 'black side')



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Its been a minute since I had burger king. I don't even like BK like that but this mess is hitting. Found a dollar in change (15 pennies, 2 quarters, 3 nickels, 2 dimes), got me a whooper jr. (Couldn't pay the tax they let me slide though.. Smh) God must have taken over whoever made this for me. Damn...















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*unrelated note*



Wtf? I saw a sign buckle up arrive alive. Upon reading the stupid a** sign I almost crashed! I think they should rethink their sign.. (The city)



Can't wait to get back to my laptop (well internet anyway) and squad and just Woosaaah!! Lol. Gone!



Rebel2Society

Poetry This Poetry That

One of the many things you can expect from this blog. If your feeling this, there'll be more to come. Feel free to send me your stuff as well. KingxPoetic@aol.com

[After All These Years]

See me with my friends now they botherin us. Sayin we was meant to be we need to dead that other stuff. And just focus on us yea you should be proud. That's just a testament to who you was. And who you are it aint easy breakin the circle. We cruise small but after all these years. Damn all these years its crazy you the lady I wish was here. Look at all my peers and compare just to gain ideas. Thinking maybe she want somethin I didn't have but he did. I could write my whole life to the girl. Like you know your the one my stars sun and world. And when your to my right I know everythings right. Remind me of when you used to passenger ride. But its cool that's over the memories is still there. I'm still here your wrong your feelings far gone. so I let my feelings disappear with near sited fear. You don't get it I was here u wasn't u made it clear. That you appreciated the years but now wasn't the time. The way you explained it had me feeling there was no time. just a stronghold faith on the unknown and divine. But I felt so deprived like you was taking from my life. Draining it from inside me I turned to other things. Like straight drinks or laced weed aint wanna find me. And it hit so quick my own niggas couldn't time me. Never tried to intervene how could they if they couldn't find me. I can't blame them they wasn't the ones lying. Living obscene they have own lives.