Shut Up & Listen!

People need to keep things in perspective really.. I'm too the point where if my association with you means I'm inviting headaches into my life, I'd rather walk away. Not to say I don't value people in my life, just to say I value LIVING life. It's too short to be weighed down by nonsense, and with that said, a lot of opportunities have been missed the last few days due to nonsense.

*SO KEEP THE B.S. FROM AROUND ME!!!*

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I didn't start this entry to complain about that though, rather instead to ask for help (which I most likely will not receive via my blog, but whatever), and get some things off of my mind.

I have a friend who is going through a lot right now. I know what it is he's going through, (though I'm not sure I am supposed to) and I know it is probably one of the worst things this person could have to deal with. How do I approach my friend? Seriously, do I come right out like look I heard what happened and I'm sorry blah blah. Or do I just talk to him and wait to see if this person enlightens me on the situation? I just do not have a clue as to how to approach this..

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Which is why pettier problems have really pissed me off lately. Get over it or get the f*ck out of my life people. I'm staring at crossroads in my life trying to decide what fits best, and which directions to take. It's difficult to say the least but I have found my old form of therapy. That being the gym, thank God for that. There's nothing like being in the gym with a ball and just doing you, and that's not even to say that I'm alone or want to be alone at the gym. Just that I love being in the gym working on my game (which for the moment, won't be showcased anywhere next year..). I don't know, what my new attitude is going to bring to me but i'm looking forward to finding out...

*Enough of that.. Lighter Note*

I've listened to some new hip hop and and a little disappointed to say, well, I'm disappointed lol. Busta's new joint is ehhhh, with way too many guest appearances (and Ron Brownz lol). Thinking on it now though, I guess I'm really not THAT disappointed, I just never expected Busta to come with a dud (and he did lol). Method Man and Redman came correct with Blackout!2 so that was cool. Lastly, Sho Tufli (featured on this blog some entries ago) delivered a nice mixtape based off Cam'ron's past work. Did I mention Relapse and Crime Pays?? Both Em and Cam went IN on their individual projects respectfully.

Me? I'm stuck in Hamilton's world, so I am listening to anything but him whenever my mind allows me too. What can I say when the world is throwing darts at me and pain is accumulating around me, THAT n*gga gets it. So it helps to say the least. Nothing else to say really.. I miss everybody that I dont see anymore (The Kansas kids lol), and that's really it.. Gone..

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The Cali Gon Creep Out.. Watch your F***** Mouth

Wooooooow really? I thought we were PAST this. I'm tired of the attitudes, and as I told everybody, and have been making a point to mention in this very blog of mine, I'm all about peace right now! Any negative energy/ feelings you have keep them the f*** from me, because I'm in a differen't place in my life. smh... People are crazy yo. I really don't understand it.. I've had my share of bad days out here, and believe me I know what its like to feel like the whole world is stepping on your throat, but to use that as an excuse to treat people bad isn't cool. Hear me when I say I'M SPEAKING OUT OF EXPERIENCE! (<<--Kanye style caps on that a** lol)I've been the a**hole that people didn't want to be around because of my attitude, and guess what? It's not fun being by yourself. You may think it's ok at first and your getting along fine,(and maybe you feel like being out here outside of your country you are by yourself)but trust me you will regret it.


*For Dramatic Effect*
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Now Kiki, I'm talking directly to you, and not because you pissed me off with your sh*tty attitude that you decided to cop when everybody was chilling on some good vibe sh*t (which you did). But because your treating your friends like sh*t (and I'm not included in that group). I know let me guess, I don't know you blah blah blah. Shut up for a second and listen, because I may not know you, but I know people (and you've displayed a great amount of immaturity through this all). In the last two weeks I have dealt with OTHER people's problems. Bulimia, money issues, sadness, etc. I didn't do that because I had to, I did it because when I associate with people, I don't do it unless I genuinely care. So shovel that people don't know you sh*t all you want. I don't care, but I will tell you this. (Strictly from my perspective) You have GOOD friends (and again, I'm not putting myself in that list), but if you keep acting the way you have been, you will be left alone. Maybe, that's what you want, but you owe it to them as a friend to stop acting like such an immature baby all the time. I'm just trying to give you my honest opinion, and I'm using my blog as the forum to do so because you seem to "not care" when I approach you any other way. This is in no way to put you out there, just to get my message across to you (besides I feel like I might explode if I were to say this in your face and I don't want to do that. So this keeps it calm for the time being), I can take it down after you've read it no problem.


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With all THAT said, I'm done. I wish you the best and good luck with what your persueing in life. Gone!

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For The Gamers

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If you rock with video games and your not excited about this what the hell is the matter with you? Dead ass, I'm still playing Call of Duty 4 Modern Warfare to this day faithfully. Best believe when it drops I'll have my preordered copy ready to do work on the world! I'm a gamer 4real, I does this!!! Lol If you think I'm just talking PLEASE get at me on the ps3, I'm begging you! Gamertag iiiiiiiiiissss

Growthstyle

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Hit me up add me email me (kingxpoetic@aol.com)to set up an a** whoopin (pause), whatever! I'm here ready for whatever lol. Now if you'll excuse me I got some Street Fighter 4 to play. Gone!

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Lonely Loser

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Exactly how I've felt all F***** day. Also how I sum up my time out here in Pittsburg Kansas. What will the next 3 months have in store for me? Loneliness + Insomnia = ME the lonely loser. Charles get me. Yeah I have relationships (though its amazing how quickly and drastically people change up, my phone aint rang in a month), I have company but that doesn't change the fact i'm LONELY! At the moment the only thing stopping me from exploding is my MUSIC. 5 days and counting. Gone.

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left out of it..

I guess cause I was left means I'm out of it. (C) charles hamilton

I literally slept the first of May away. Feels weird acknoledging
how unproductive I was lol

The number 2 has a special place in my life. Don't ask me why I just
like that number. Coincidentally it represents a special day for me and
two families as well so I'm gonna acknoledge it (the number). Peace.

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(Two's(fingers) for that topic)

Mr. Quick! Lol closet reader its all good homie I'll break it down
for you like this (without delvin into detail besides you 'pink' like me
Lmao you'll get it)
I have no problem with you (and never have in all these cases), or Brian,
or Spence, or Andy, or Tim, or Josh, or Jordan. Lol see where I'm
going with this? I tried to comment from my phone don't know how that turned out..











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Let me say I read all the comments and am admitting to being terrible
with responding back up to this point. That'll change liiiiike now lol.

I think I feel like grinding today (for my blog). I'm not sure what
exactly that consists of, but its probably safe to say a lot
Of entries will come out of it..

Anybody listening to anything good out there? I wish for once I could be
the one being told to check out an artist *shrugs*, but it is what it is.
If you want to shoot me some music or suggestions hit me up at kingxpoetic@aol.com


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(Me reaching out)

I'm thinking about putting a different twist on my morning. Just depends on how twisted
I want to be. (That could be trouble) Nah really I'm just looking forward to some
good basketball today.

*my prediction..*

Chicago loses by 8 in REGULATION. There aren't any other predictions because I honestly don't
know who else is playing lol. Whatever that's the only game I'm interested in until this 2nd round kicks off..
Wait my bad, D-Wade has a chance to will his team to the 2nd round (almost guaranteeing a less exciting matchup than the hawks would give)
so I guess I'm interested in that game 7 too..

The sun's starting to come up and I'm wide awake awaiting its arrival. I can't say its not lonely, but I can say that I enjoy it. Damn if
these jam sessions don't up my appreciation for all things music. Too bad I haven't been able to write for sh*t lately. Which reminds me...

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She was right. I posted it anyway to... Crickets (that's silence) lmao oh well, its like I said, I was just staring at it.
The people have spoken, (actually they didn't lol) try harder I guess..? Disappointments can only be looked at as hurtful pushes
in another direction in my journey towards progression. <<----(In my mind anyway lol) I'll be here all day. Gone!

No Invitation

Damn damn damn damn thought we were past this. I would like to quickly say that I'm not inviting anyone to sh*t!

*this should sum it up*

I got about as much love for everybody as everybody has for me. Gone.

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Ivan says he invited me (this just happened at 10:36pm) I'm like naaaaah! lol whether he did or didn't Rora didn't and that's really the point. No big deal really. Ivan know where me and him stand, (I'm pretty sure..) and as for Rora. Shame on you.

*smh*

However as I stated in previous entries, God don't make no mistakes (c) idlewild

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And I'm definitely GLAD I wasn't there. People in my life are starting to remind me of car mirrors. You know seeming closer than they really appear to be? Hmmmm just something to think about.. Gone! (4real)

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GONE!

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Unpredictable

so I have had 2 posts deleted in the last 24 hours and they were both heavy as sh*t.



"But It's cool cause we back friends and I'm happy that it's over..." Hov.

*God don't make no mistakes*

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Must be for a reason.. Let me just say last night was crazy and I think a lot of things were learned from the situation.
Sorry to Kiki and Rora, I know I was supposed to take ya'll to Taco Bell but like I said some stuff came up.

Today was cool (so far) me and Ivan was on some chill sh*t all afternoon went to the gym to hoop with the team.
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*his words for me*

"If you gon fight, fight. If they wanna give you sh*t, keep it 50/50. Don't go to cause a problem, but don't back down either."

I guess due to the events that took place last night he felt like something else was gonna jump off. I was just feeling like whatever. But thanks for the advice homie.

I'm starting to feel like a rumor... Gone..

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