Understanding

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Had a crazy conversation with someone today that really made me think about my situation. Quick recap, I'm walking home and I see a familiar truck up ahead parked on the side of the road with it's hazard lights on. The car then goes in reverse stops on the side and me, when the driver instructs me to get in. I knew him, so I did. Hence, crazy conversation. Gained a brand new understanding for this person, and I think (pending on my current viewpoints) will definitely help in the long run.

*Random*
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R.I.P. Wayman Tisdale (one of my new heroes). Music conquers all. I plan to rededicate my life to music, and he's a MONUMENTAL reason why.

I'm striving to understand that which I currently cannot. It's a long journey, but right now I'm falling back. Way back. Gone...

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At The Moment This Is Where I'm At.

I love when the most difficult decisions I have to make are the ones that don't really matter much in the grand scheme of things. I'm sitting here (where I won't say) eyes burning, nodding in and out of consciousness, but hey, I gotta blog it's what I do! Lol anyway, I'm bout to break my ipod out, haven't listened to it all day (purposefully) and its about time. Here's the kicker...


*Drum Roll*

Do I use these?

Bose Quiet Comfort In Ear Buds


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I'd get a crisp focused sound with a bit of bite to it, and allow me to spazz out without waking the neighbors (lol yeah I'm sharing my space right now..).

Or... These?

Beats By Dr. Dre


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These Monsters (pun intended) are going to provide a rich sound and allow me to hear things in a song I never knew existed! Downside? Do I want to scare my neighbors with the immacably loud noise, followed by maniacle head bobbin? I know before I get where I'm going I'm going to be Beatin down the block.. ? hmmm... I'm passin out writing this, dead ass. I'm gonna close my eyes reach into my back and get ready for this jam session. Gone!

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It Is But It Aint...

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Cliche I know but.. Ah Whatever. Gone (Literally)...

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The Cali Gon Creep Out.. Watch your F***** Mouth

Wooooooow really? I thought we were PAST this. I'm tired of the attitudes, and as I told everybody, and have been making a point to mention in this very blog of mine, I'm all about peace right now! Any negative energy/ feelings you have keep them the f*** from me, because I'm in a differen't place in my life. smh... People are crazy yo. I really don't understand it.. I've had my share of bad days out here, and believe me I know what its like to feel like the whole world is stepping on your throat, but to use that as an excuse to treat people bad isn't cool. Hear me when I say I'M SPEAKING OUT OF EXPERIENCE! (<<--Kanye style caps on that a** lol)I've been the a**hole that people didn't want to be around because of my attitude, and guess what? It's not fun being by yourself. You may think it's ok at first and your getting along fine,(and maybe you feel like being out here outside of your country you are by yourself)but trust me you will regret it.


*For Dramatic Effect*
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Now Kiki, I'm talking directly to you, and not because you pissed me off with your sh*tty attitude that you decided to cop when everybody was chilling on some good vibe sh*t (which you did). But because your treating your friends like sh*t (and I'm not included in that group). I know let me guess, I don't know you blah blah blah. Shut up for a second and listen, because I may not know you, but I know people (and you've displayed a great amount of immaturity through this all). In the last two weeks I have dealt with OTHER people's problems. Bulimia, money issues, sadness, etc. I didn't do that because I had to, I did it because when I associate with people, I don't do it unless I genuinely care. So shovel that people don't know you sh*t all you want. I don't care, but I will tell you this. (Strictly from my perspective) You have GOOD friends (and again, I'm not putting myself in that list), but if you keep acting the way you have been, you will be left alone. Maybe, that's what you want, but you owe it to them as a friend to stop acting like such an immature baby all the time. I'm just trying to give you my honest opinion, and I'm using my blog as the forum to do so because you seem to "not care" when I approach you any other way. This is in no way to put you out there, just to get my message across to you (besides I feel like I might explode if I were to say this in your face and I don't want to do that. So this keeps it calm for the time being), I can take it down after you've read it no problem.


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With all THAT said, I'm done. I wish you the best and good luck with what your persueing in life. Gone!

Rebel2Societyake

Soothing Silence

Quick post because I feel some kind of way without updating this for ya'll. Today was super relaxing on my end. Slept for more then 2 hours for the first time in like 2 weeks. Played ball with the teammates that I love (lol I love em all but come on you know what I mean), and got my workout in. I gotta get right LnF don't play that mess. My departure out of this town cannot come fast enough, nothing against anyone here, but I need this for me. Life is really about to be upgraded for me in the next 4 months, and I CAN'T WAIT!! I have so much I want to speak about on here, so be on your p's and q's. You should have realized by now I'm nocturnal and this blog pops at night anyway lol. Speaking of which, I know i'm an insomniac, and I should probably get some pills to help that problem. However, Eminem's new album got me bugged on taking anything in capsule form lol. Dead ass though... Still detoxing. You should be proud.. Wait is it detoxing if... Nah that's another post altogether. Be up with me! Or check me when your up and it's light outside. In which case I'll be zoning out to some music trying to stay squeaky (clean duh). Gone!

Rebel2Society

Bipolar I Am

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See this sh*t right here, is exactly the opposite of the last post. What's crazy about it is I meant them both equally. Sometimes I just can't get over the things people do. I try to understand things from all angles but obviously it doesn't work all the time. It's funny a friend of mine said that my last entry was better then the rest. To which I replied "why?" and she told me because it was happier................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

Happier? Ok let's get one thing out the way for all of you who read this. I'm living life, so I will experience my ups and downs, and I will report it to you how I feel. I won't call you out, but saying things like that almost makes me not want you to check up on this sh*t altogether. Maybe I'm tripping (it's been a very rough night), but I feel that way because if all you can take from this is happy or negative, your missing the point. Somebody please feel me out there.

*Enough of that..*

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I hate not being able to help people. It makes me feel like I've failed. Gone..

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Nowadays Is Some Funny Times...

This is a message for those I've fallen out of touch with and still care about. What's crazy is a lot of people I've been talking to recently have been echoing these same sentiments to me, (in a different fashion)anyway I like this joint and the message is ill so I'm gonna leave ya'll with it to think about..





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Sometimes things just happen. Dead ass, it's not always some crazy underlying problem that causes things to go bad/south/no where at all. I can't wait to reconnect with some people.. Gone.

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