See my ears are different.

Which 1 do you think came 1st? Lol it's Hilarious how much this n1gga be talking to you.






*having mad b1tches is looking shakey...*








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What I really meant was

Why people think me walking away is me throwing something away? Don't quite understand that, I feel like I've been throwing sh1t away for quite some time, and I just started understanding that. See I knew I was trash or resembled such because I was discarded, and left in the muck. Dirty as what's on the inside of the street sweeper trucks. The lining of bucks becomes rare to the touch, I've come to like the holes in my hands. Liking is an overstatement but the hole left from my man's is still strong standing or floating... But get some money honey I know you got yours, kinda left me floored. Sick of being ignored but that's a "tossup" at the worst. More cents might prove to make dude rude and lose sense, but a humble streak peaked out with 1 inch and 6 feet. Terrible things wait, let me pop up. I got incredible grooves to change moods if I wanna. Baby talk. You know I'm gonna do whatever I gotta, but let me hit this first get on with my lazy walk. 2 in 1 not 2 for 1 that'd be a good deal. Word to the cigarette shop around the corner from the spot with the 5 red lights.. not a night so I'm not over there but maybe a close by night will find me back over there. With my stolen fears looking up at me, I wave goodbye happily.  To the left of me she, but even she shape shifts so frequently forcing me to travel back through the past just to find a pretty memory. Went left, and got left. Went back and got blasted through reality checks... You know so society could say whether or not I passed it? What you think? Like, really, did I pass it? Let's just assume I'm in the back of the classes. Paying more attention being quietly more attentive then the people in the front of the class. So they say look at this classless ass spazzing in here. They don't care that I'm dirty poor and hurting let alone hard working. They got a problem with me cause I'm not there! Come on, I can't be everywhere... Can hardly stand to be inside my head. Hard to stand without reaching for my meds. Pretty long lasting prescription for what I've been depicting. Feeling invincible could be good or bad, when I get to feeling like that my actions aren't sensible. Get a bag fill it up with my most important stuff. Contemplating if bringing my dog along will make it all too tough. Lying on my back wondering how the stars see us, until I'm blessed enough to seal them shut on my own. Feeling like home is where my feet are. That's pretty hard, or soft... Laughing in the grass I feel its time for my mind to sneak off... Really i was NEVER there so here, and hear understanding to why I speak soft... Still moving, on lost but at least it's not off...


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Conversations with Rubin

I've been having some deep talks with Rubin trying to let him voice his concerns with where I'm heading. First off I tell him be cool, I know it's tough dealing with me my dude but just know that we are in it together. I think he understands now.

Which means new sounds can now work towards being accepted. It's been silent for too long.. Well not really, but I don't consider your noise audible noise. My dude proved that a LONG time ago, but I just got it last night.

106 n Park is just interesting.. I see what ya'll like though, and I'm not mad. Just trying to understand, and that's where I'll be (mentally) for awhile. Do you think it's backwards to gain understanding of others through music they may or may not accept? I wonder...

I really should point out I'm in a very bitter part of my life. Meaning I feel like a veil has been pulled over my eyes while I've been spun around for greater disorienting affects. The results is me not giving much of f*ck right now. I'm telling you cause it honestly scares me knowing I'll act 1st and think later. There's no telling I'll be guaranteed my later diggeth?

Getting kind of weird now...





*tacos then pop up then well... tacos*



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hold u down

Just Wow.

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I can't plan stuff like this. Can't do it. Love that I can't, and it still happens with such perfect timing. My time is everything besides little numbers like this. Enjoy, this is my favorite song off the GodleebarnesLP.






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1st heard this on a solo excursion in San Diego. Wasn't really 'solo' but at the time I was walking around looking for a bathroom, food, and girls. Well not for girls that would be dishonest, I was looking AT them though. Least I could do all the guys naked out there anyway, I require even playing fields... too much...


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When 2 plus 1 doesn't add up.

Aka when your chick and you music no longer coexist.

See I can zone to my music all day with or without some1. I'd prefer it to be with some1 else just so I can see how outer space my thinking is when compared with their earthly views. *chuckle*

However, half the time I don't get their opinion at all so that's neither here nor THERE lol. The worst is when I get an opinion that isn't theirs at all. Why curb what YOU think cause I'M weird?? Makes little sense to me.

Moving right along. Few things can compare to the joy that comes over me when I get ready to listen to unheard music. *rephrasing* (f*ck it)

However I DO have a girl won't even shout her out cause she's close to the end of my shout. Trouble comes when I have this other "chick" I'm trying to f*ck with. My excitement can't be messed with I'm telling you that much now. Consequently (essay style), my b1tch clashing with my chick. You figure out who's who cause I'm done thinking I know to find some1/thing new.
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... Which would make me excited if you were...

These 2 keep conflicting with each other amongst other things. You sheisty b1tches need to watch out. Shout out to my habits I only care about.

*1 and 1 and 1 and 1 and 1* <<=== a lot of habits


Lastly, love to those that take time out to understand me amidst the bullsh*t you surely must have to sift through to get dude, or me, or him too.

Just not looking good for relationship season... But you'll know cause Uknow!

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On Another Note

The distinction has been made. New notes to be posted on my fb page full of interesting content *rolls eyes* Speaking of content... A blog is a blog. A note is like 15 things rolled into 1. More on that later.. The direction these entries will be taking. Greece/Rome Gods/Goddesses Astrology charts (apparently we're in WHAT age now?) ...

Strictly because I'm interested. Figured it'd be a welcome change from music and OTHER things... Hmmm My online presence will be APPARENT. Fun fun fun... Catch me in person though! <<--- smh






*laughter*





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My skin's grown thin.

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Should be the title to something I'm writing cause it's ill lol... What if every blog was written out into some sort of verse/poem before it actually became the blog entry you eventually read? Hmmmm... Just something to think about...

Stop letting things get to you and just get to the things 1st. That's the point of this here entry. I don't want to be on my spiteful sh1t, because I know I can, and I go in. I don't know what it is in me that allows me to possess such an embodiment of evil, but trust me it's there. Instead of attacking those I'm not in good standings with, I'm going to effectively ignore them.


"All you care about is..."

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The statement that set me off, or a summary of it paraphrased for your crystal clear understanding. I don't know, I just LOVE being told what I do and don't care about. I should let people do that more often.. Next time for that, however, this time I will definitely take heed of what was said. People have to be accountable for what comes out of their mouths it's as simple as that.

I wish people would slap me with some direct quotes geez... It'd be that much harder to talk my way out of something.

I don't want to go on too long there was a reason for this specifically, and I think I've achieved it. Just letting you all know I'm a little more fed up than I was yesterday. Which consequently is me being more fed up than I was the day before. It's just NOT a good look.

When some1 says "all you care about.... blah blah blah blah" to me they better be ready to eat the whole damn sentence. *sighs* spiteful. Maybe, but what about motivational? Like I'm going to either motivate you or myself to make a change, and when I flick the switch to undergo that change? SMH

That's it lol







*But what the hell do I know I just chill UNDER trees*

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-Nods










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Fall back!

If I'm too much of anything in a negative connotation fall the f*ck back. Reason being, I don't need to hear what I'm not to you, if you feel that way get another me. Dime a dozen I'm sure, go shopping and buy your happiness cause I'm NOT it. Just felt the extra need to put this out here coming off a night where I was back outside and feeling very out of place.

I know what I like/love and what I don't, it's that simple. Forcing me to change what I know to work for me isn't a good look. Forcing yourself to change what you know won't work for you isn't a good look. Does anybody feel me, like can I get a good look? This goes for every single relationship I can think of.

Don't want to think of them at the moment, I know I NEED to work on them so I'm not looking like the perfect saint here. As stated above, just felt the need to address it. Be happy with me, or be happy without me. I think the past half year has shown I'm comfortable or confused enough to foot it alone. Chill.




More to come later. Trying to decipher the difference between a blog and a facebook note. There has to be a difference (in concept and context) otherwise there's no need for both of them, and I need both of them. Do you need it?
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2 Minute Free write.... Go!

Taking as much time as I find I have to breakaway from the hectic schedule I have. Escape the life that I'm living no dice my escapism is just a different type of prison I know. few do though so I'm here to explain. Although the people who get it aren't near me its plain to see they hear me. I see them in my happy memories when reality bleeds painful truths to the things I would do. So past tense as if I'm new, I like to believe that to be my truth, but you know... Shit happens I'm just above an excuse. Take my words as proof that I Do think of you it's just not cool when my feelings get overused. Or over used to what they can't have, not saying I can't reach and grab, but taking another stab at that always leaves me thinking what's the use?




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Maybe I should finish that... a lot on my mind 2 minutes wasn't nearly enough, but that's all I have time for!



*they ARE all connected*








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UP(late)date

I don't know why it seems late I'm writing listening to things I haven't gotten a chance to listen to, reading, watching, and letting my thoughts skip around my head...

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That was another not-so-late night similar to this 1. I'm happy to report the thoughts skipping around my head are there with profound reason. It appears I've gotten a grip. I really do have to apologize for those that have been trying to email me. I've seemingly fallen into a pattern habit of ruining well running technology.

*shrugs*  Everything should be handled and back in it's place until I decide to switch phones again. I have been writing quite a bit, the more I write the more excited about what I'm writing I get. Coincidentally it's also the more self-conscious I get about what I'm writing so I'll take that a little step at a time.

Some1 HAS to see it or I'll feel... some kind of way. YES inspiration is apparent, but I have to keep in mind what I think is very clear usually is marred in encryption to others. More reason why the source of my inspiration is special.

I said (I think) I wanted to start picking my favorite (insert number here) lines for every week. I really do want to do this, but now I'm thinking it won't just be from me. Or it will, but I'll have a separate list to include others' work I've come to appreciate. I'm discovering some dope writers out there. Word to Sasha Janai.

I'm going to think on this though, with some planning it could be more than what I initially planned, and I think that's definitely a good thing. My whole angle is this, I LOVE to write, and I know others out there are like me in regard, so let's get it popping and build up to help each other out.

Michelle hit me! lol all the writing talk made me think of that but yo 2nd paragraph.

Kanye's a musical genius. Just had to point that out.

I am going to be more conscious of what I'm speaking on. It was brought to my attention music is all I speak on, which isn't at all true, it just happens to be what others are willing to discuss. I draw examples and common ties through music because of the previous sentence. NOT to say that it ISN'T therapeutic for me I'm just pointing out there's a reason for everything.

Especially when your on a solo tip for most hours of the day. Which I DO mind, but deal with accordingly. This week is going to be full of interesting situations. I'll make sure to detail them as best I can.

lol chill this some OD sh1t right here... GUY "I need to take a break," WOMAN "Why did your d1ck break?"
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More reason why girls are too much lol. That's from HUNG btw I don't need any trouble caused by this hobby.

Backpacks are where it's at right now... R2 is clean and I'm feeling like a Turtle =)
You know what's sick about Chris being Turtle? THEY made Turtle and THEY aren't around anymore... Kinda ill.

Question: What would a 'Rebel2society' look like if illustrated? What does THE rebel2society look like when illustrated? Pondering your answers...



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Do the Math

Loving my pen right now. Funny I started this BEFORE you played me. smh


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To lose inspiration...

Just as quickly as inspiration can come it can go. Happens to me all the time yesterday being the most recent. It's not necessarily a bad thing, I know why I lost the inspiration to write what I had planned to I just wonder if it will come back (it will) and when...

Started off nicely just faded in a major way. More long walks should provide the ammunition I'm looking for, though I have had a lot of questions arising spurning from this morning alone. Today has been so empty...



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To be Inspired

I love when something very small in the grand scheme of the day/week/month/year/etc. goes on to provide a wealth of inspiration for me and my mind. Maybe I'll post what "inspired"work looks like later. Regardless.

*thank you*


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Dumb People

Mind all Meth addict.



*I mean come on it sounds dumb*


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Some wIErd Sh*t

 If its "I before E, except after C", WTF is up with weird?

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It's an example of the word defining itself literally.

as said by the Nahright comment writers...



*That is all*


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I Need My sugar somethin Like THIS

He cooked for you? So, I cooked for you. Did you actually see him cook for you? That n1gga aint cook for you!



still looking for the perfect verse over a tight beat though... and her food gotta be delicious AND nutritious!



*Mos Def Knows*
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If you can't tell me what you can't tell me...

Then you can't tell me NOTHING!

Definitely gonna let my dude Charles speak for me for a LONG TIME. Listen to this THEN tell me you wanna be my girl...

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Those that didn't listen are cut now. Those that listened and learned nothing just means we wouldn't work anyway. Those that listened and took something away from it we might be on the same page, if that's the case anythings possible. 

*I'm a heartbroken poet I'm supposed to be tough*

-nods

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"No1 Man Should have all This Sour"

Told my pen I was still sour I was severing our bond, going to the keyboard she said 'hey hon' I'm thinking cool, a poem every hour. Dousing fire with randomly placed words seems absurd I heard once that flying through curves with the birds helps you spot a healthy herd. The like-minded folks secretly wishing the worst to get worse cause the reason behind what they spoke was stolen and replaced with a hearse. It gets darker, but take this as an attempt to remove the blades from my back, I feel used undeserving of that action, and that which is half a fraction of making no sense leaves me silent thinking of where my mind went. Probably with them in the wind backstabbing bastards. I lent a familiar description 2pac gave to me and squeezed tightly to those words. Which is to say I went my way before my high days with intense listening. Missing my own intensity dousing my own fires with broken logic. Cool if she got it, better than broken heart pieces from a flesh made locket. However mine are. Scoop them up into my pocket, toss the hammer that did the damage walking on feeling weak, love famished. Out of pocket.





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Late 4...

Late for a buzz I'm so ready to get up thought my pen would suffice but I  haven't been using it enough. Next drug, don't listen to me please. Yet listening is all I ever wanted, you see without eyes or ears to fall onto, these words long to be recognized. I lie to myself so they know in order to rectify what isn't real, they have to go behind my back and fin somebody that'll fill them up. Taking away what some say is bliss. Now how is this, I'm lost in it but using it as an excuse for my gift. I say gift because I'm breathing living still unsure if believing in you is completely wrong to do. Dangerous to the psyche or not, definitely harmful word to the knots my heart pumps through. Being true through and through but unaware if being through is public worthy if it's unbelievable by either two. I'm just chilling with no thrills though I could go back on what I said and pop up til what I said comes out of my mind and into my sight instead. Hallucinations for those of you confused, if I'm over your head, be comfortable. I'm over mine too. Typing is cool, provides a direct link into my lies, my windows looking surprised I'm just trying to keep my A in front of evil while I stand in front the mirror. Backwards to most but getting that helps you understand clearer. Watching the watch on my forearm, it never ticks just kind of fades away as time goes on. Tattoos of abuse word I hit you a few times too, but I'm sure of where I stand unfortunately music holds all my truths. 


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Prequel to me

So as much writing as I have been doing for myself I just realized this entire time I've had no efficient way of keeping up with what I write... I don't know just feels like if I wanted to I couldn't rate what I've written. That's where other people's opinions were supposed to come into play, but I'm typing to myself again, so I get it.

The start of writing to whoever it is up here or there. I just want... don't know.

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An entry representing me, confused, unsure, and a day late.




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