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Monday, October 4, 2010

Soulful Like Easter.

Song that started it all. SMH









*hola bonita...*




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Amazing.




*No bullies allowed dead*ss*






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Best Halloween Ever??






Anticipation building...




*R.I.P. Michael*

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Nympholepsy Sound CHeck Story.



am I wrong for that? Well...





Get hit with a...




But I'll always be..




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*Turtle Lee! Turtle Lee! Turtle Lee!* ;)





So...



f*ck it just..



And I'll...




...My way out this...






*thanks Incubus* *bows*


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aMy's black story...

*in order*










these messages are OD I should holla at Charles about doing this up for me. *smiles* onward..





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-hums -nods



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Like really love it...




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Love this soundtrack! lyrics ftw







as we continue on...
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Was about to lose my mind on facebook.






*Just to make ya'll WANNA understand*



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Let that boy cook!!!

Funny Charles with 'swag' lmao







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So you can look out of place trying to be like them? I think I've heard this story before... Lil B on the cuts lmao this is too funny. OD!




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We back here again?

Seems like every week I get the feeling of wanting to not express how I normally would. I know my intentions when I do express myself and it only serves to dishearten me when they are used against me. I know you've all accounted for me saying I'm in no way an easy person to deal with or have a relationship with. I don't care what that relationship is, I'm difficult and I know it.

I suppose knowing why is more important, but I know the reason behind that too. I'm not a f*cking mystery, I have a big heart and struggle with how I use it.

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Right or wrong? I would say my mouth clouds the intentions of my heart. All this is irrelevant, because it all means I'm feeling. That's more than I can say for the average human beings I've come across in the last year. I have to stop for a second here, some of ya'll were just down right mean people. Dead*ss man, people are growing more malicious by the day it seems, and if spite isn't the driving force behind their actions some other selfish motive is.

What's so wrong with wanting to be the best you can be for every1 in your life? Nothing, but therein lies the problem. If your going to live that way (or try to) you better damn well be able to back it up.

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How the f*ck do you back that up? a Godsend spoke to me and put me up on more than a few things I never really got around to thinking about. Guess I needed divine perspectives. I was told that in any situation your going to have some1 that feels SOMETHING! Not in those words, but some1 will have feelings that don't add up with what your trying to put out into the world.

SOME1 WILL HAVE FEELINGS THAT DON'T MATCH UP WITH THE ENERGY YOU INTEND TO PUT OUT INTO THE WORLD!

Sorry for the caps, but I'm not going to be doing much more typing/talking/explaining, and that right there is what we call a 'message'.

You should already know what I'll revert to, though  I DID say it'd be different this time around. I intend to keep my word. Rubin's ready anyway.

Out for the day possibly carrying on into the night and early morning. I will be in touch.



*peace and understanding* -hums, -nods




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Bitter but chill

Why a response wasn't given back to you last night I'll never know. I was experiencing many different emotions at once and would like to congratulate some1 I care about for being in such a good place in their lives. Kiki it could NEVER change anything basically. I've done a lot of crying/b1tching/explaining on here to the point where I'd definitely be a liar if I allowed things to change.

My ladies... smh

Huge year for dealing with the unexpected. I'm happy for BOTH of you (Squishy what up!), and wouldn't harp on what I couldn't change at this point anyway. Feel like my message is being lost due to sleep exhaustion or lack thereof.

Here... I'm NOT going anywhere until you all ceremoniously boot me out your life through that computer screen and/or phone call. I'm no psychic, better to let time tell it, I just have a fairly accurate hunch about things like this. Just so long as every1 is happy.


*sighs*

whew... Trying to decide whether or not I'm going to be stuck for the day or walking everywhere until I'm stuck. The options really aren't that different, one is likely to land me in a whole new slew of issues, while the other is less efficient..

Stomach says I need to add fuel to the fire before I do a damn thing, had the fuel in mind but I'm wrong if I do anything involving any1 but her so, no. With that realization made I shift my thoughts towards more important things. I got steps to take..


Remember though I AM bitter, understanding where it comes from will allow you to see its because I know how special the both of you are. Dare I... lol Ya'll know!


*Thinks about editing content*


*Disregards against better judgement*


*Decorations... Understanding, There will be peace, and understanding...* -hums, -nods


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I just would like to...

Shout outs. Shouts. -nods

Shouts to Family.

Shouts to Rubin.

Shouts to Rough n Rugged.

Shouts to forgetting important things. UGGHHH!!

Shouts to alone time.

Shouts to never having to be alone if you don't want to

*clone yourself and never ever leave your side*

Shouts to Technology.

Shouts to instant gratification.

Shouts to Pizza.

Shouts to intelligence.

Shouts to logic.

Shouts to being able to take care of yourself (and others).

Shouts to living under your family.

Shouts to freaky sh1t. *only girls of course boys are still icky*

Shouts to being miserable.

Shouts to being lonely.

Shouts to being sensitive.

Shouts to being a b1tch.

Shouts to *pullin no punches*

Shouts to Google.

Shouts to the content on dictionary.com

Shouts to money.

Shouts to the illuminati

Shouts to musicians.

Shouts to finishing out a list.

Shouts to jobs.

Shouts to me, I'm still here.

Shouts to my last remaining hope in marriage (there will be none after).

Shouts intoxication.

Shouts to addiction.

Shouts to life.

Shouts to death.

Shouts to the all the painfully average chicks calling each other ugly.

Shouts to the beautiful ladies who say nothing at all.

Shouts to the dead*ss ugly girls who try and shine because they're more than a face or... (lol)

Shouts to my old girls ya'll were tough, and INSPIRED shout outs that counts for a lot.

Shouts to the most supportive b1tch of them all. * ***** * (sorry for calling you a b1tch).

Shouts to sleepless nights.

Shouts to sleep filled nights.

Shouts to mornings :)

Shouts to favorite shows...

*back to scathing*

Shouts to the people who turned their backs.

Shouts to the people that forgot.

Shouts to the people that remembered.

Shouts to the people that STILL care, I see you (I've been watching/listening).

Shouts to the people that won't get it (again, I've been watching/listening).

Shouts to the people who keep it *Western Union* (100)

Shouts to the people who LIE to me, I love you.

Shouts to the people who tell half of the truth... Can never tell which is worse..

Shouts to Saved by the Bell... For the boyhood crushes.. OD

Shouts to the Mile High Club.

Shouts to not being afraid to cry.

Shouts to Inception.. The movie and the meaning.

Shouts to those I care about.

Shouts to dreams

Shouts to inspiration..


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Misunderstanding.

I will be single, alone, and miserable for a long time. The equations really aren't that hard to set up, nor are they difficult to decipher. My lifestyle wants subtract from my needs. My own stubbornness allows me to carry on knowing I'll lose in the end. Some would argue it's stubbornness I'm even still here at all. Call it what you want but I will become, stay, and remain single due to a misunderstanding.


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History says a misunderstanding will do much more then land me 'alone and miserable', but I know what I'm saying, so there it is.

Somethings I can't even begin to comprehend sometimes so I say shout out to Alex cause she's playing the same game I am. No telling on whether or not she knows she's losing too, I haven't gotten that far in with her yet. As I'm typing this I'm wondering if content needs to be edited. I've tried to be more open about my happenings and that hasn't really faired to well. Hence me losing.

Feeling awfully sick right now very suddenly.. Need a bathroom..    

That was intense.

Reminds me I wasn't supposed to write anything on here. Apparently this is where I go to talk bad about Jessica people whenever I feel like I'm catching the wrong end of the proverbial sharp stick. well *my fault miss lady, my fault.*                                                

I love Marley she's mine but I think she's been mad at me. I'll snuggle you when we sleep tonight baby!

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Too much.


Words are being too kind to me. I should do well to remember to return the favor, but in this case it probably won't happen before I pass out. I'm tripping, remembering things old and new all at once. I hope my stuff's charged up..

smh at the direction this went.

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Holds true for everything, this entry is complete.


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DO I MAKE SENSE YET!?

Or am I just... Senseless?