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Wednesday, August 11, 2010

The start of "B4"

Before.

I went after what I tried after I'd write a stanza or 2 to serve as my own relax-er. Girl couldn't get with it for the night so my words will have to suffice. Cool to me but kinda knot. To separate ends and we're both pulling counter productive more money in the pot for well you know.. Things that throw reality on its side a ride back to Kansas aint the place dude. I would've had base all in my face true I was scared my limit was fair to me but now its up there and my thoughts are too so I can stay here and lose them too or hop on like the other fools I used to ridicule. So really what do you suggest I do? Bugging out remember loony tunes, that's my looney tomb for paradox and doom. Fiascos, assholes, depression for slow cash flow. Not mentioning they tracing what I'm pinching fuck.. Like no luck right? Like chill I don't wanna write no more. People ask will you fight for more? I reply "nah" cause they don't even know what they fighting for or where the fight might be likened to go. The here and now in my life I'm fighting for the next day just to catch a gaze as the sunlight blast through my blinds. A kick start intertwined with the opposite of my times. But hey, most of what I defined came from behind something that wasn't mine. I was in my designated single file line. Even seemingly within peace arms length of the tree I'm wild a beast. sickening to feast on what your receptors keep but I'm deep in thought whithout raising my voice to speak. Unless I'm yelling at the peak of my lungs frustrated the stars won't show me where I come from or where to go next damn I'm so stressed. Still in check so I step 1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1... Feeling half-through without a capsule to move.. Fucking asshole swear to what's odd that's me. But he see's trash that earned an attachment to what his seed yearns for. Not tonight matter of fact no more not a peep not a word. Strike a chord it'll be clear when I right his jaw. You know.. What I'm fighting for? Anyway I'll pay for that some other day let me save some space for oxygen now by saying 'my mistake' but I don't give a fuck I've never fake. Catching how my face looks like I've never been a-wake. Break it down and wait the ceremonies taking place.

Let me here ya'll talking about spaces... Shout out to my sponsors at the phone company!


*next stanza*

Turtapolous Rex
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My blog will be my notebook

For tonight I will try for as long as I am willing to write in my blog as if its just me. I will not pull any punches. Although this series of entries should all go under the umbrella "B4". Like the classroom door to my thoughts.

Depending on when things work themselves out there will be another honest series much like this 1 to go under the umbrella "Afte(a)r" which will be on a whole other hype. Ok... Let me get started before I lose my nerve


*this guy*


Turtapolous Rex
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somewhere SHE's Reading Remix!

Hidey hooo jessimo!!

Thought I'd take the time out of my day to just miss you for once! I knoowwwww right? What'd you do to deserve all this? Well Jessica? I say to you CHILL lol now what?

'Anyway hardest working indy-while dealing with traumatic bi-polarisms coming from 9 feet above her head. (Sh*t anywhere within 10 ft of the house ACTUALLY) ' hard title Uknow Iknow!

Too jubilistic up in this b*tch. Running on life is more OD than any drug everrr! Life and heart warming open ended 'memor-thoughts' if u can diggeth.. If not I'm good cause I get it..

Shower's almost freee!! After I get clean I get a Leetol bit insecure looking in the mirror. Tonight I need to own the mirror. Your words may just help after all.. I hope they do.

Anyway here's to loving to love the lovely things that rub off on me due to the lovingly venomous darts you spew. CHill Lol.

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Ima C-H 2 ya know??

*the nerve of this boy*

*out of character mind*

*Technology glitches*

Turtapolous Rex
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Somewhere she's reading

Hidey hooo jessimo!!

Thought I'd take the time out of my day to just miss you for once! I knoowwwww right? What'd you do to deserve all this? Well Jessica? I say to you CHILL lol now what?

Anyway thank u for your words kind soft words and hard left hooks PoW! Lol

Love u!!!

*there was so much more to this blog n technology F'd it up... Lol at sugar foot though Uknow!!*


Turtapolous Rex
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DO I MAKE SENSE YET!?

Or am I just... Senseless?