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Sunday, May 15, 2011

Ya little Piano Virtuosos

vir·tu·o·so   
[vur-choo-oh-soh] Show IPA
noun, plural -sos, -si  
[-see] Show IPA
, adjective
–noun
1.
a person who has special knowledge or skill in a field.
2.
a person who excels in musical technique or execution.
3.
a person who has a cultivated appreciation of artistic excellence, as a connoisseur or collector of objects of art, antiques, etc.
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–adjective
5.
Also, vir·tu·os·ic  
[vur-choo-os-ik] Show IPA
. of, pertaining to, or characteristic of a virtuoso: a virtuoso performance.
Origin:
1610–20; < Italian: versed, skilled < Late Latin virtuosus virtuous







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Voices...

*Life's a b1tch what she touching me for? Think it's time we had a f*cking divorce. I don't love her no more*



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I tried.






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The end just came. (Not really) Beginning? (illy)

I don't need to be with any1. People don't want to be with me. I could be a hoodstar easily, but the niggas out there might beef with me. It's cool I don't want it I aint fronting my dude be cool. I'm overused to thinking like these fools,too long and find yourself standing in a pool the nerve of it all you'll fall not knowing rules are absolute. I could be... Pretty much whatever I want. I got a bankroll a vehicle why I gotta front? Oh, none of its mine, that's right rewind. I still got these things most people wish to have my everyday is their prize. I end the day OD'd on pride so It's solo time in the ride. I never functioned well in groups, I'm sad being alone but still can't cry. Oh well, another day for emotions to feel, I'm broken looking for pieces with the super glue to seal them back together. Maybe sunny weather can help me heal, Lord knows I wanted her here but she could never help me chill. Unless her mouth was slobbing my dick to be specifically graphic. No shot I'm just sitting here writing wishing I had it. Not a bad chick, a cutie though, got a nice lil booty roll 2 bee stings, yea she's down with that Kanye soul. Honestly can't work it, but hey nobody's perfect . It hurts that I feel I took half off the deal to make it work and all I really got was labeled jerk-ish. Dismissing skirts clearly trying to flirt cause like I said on some real shit I was trying to make it work. Now the only feeling of jerk is being laid in the past tense, I'm there already just lacking even half the passion. I hate feeling numb, I've known that too well. Hospital visits due to a vivid imaginative mind I thought myself up sicknesses fantasies blew mines. Not even the good kind like I spoke on before I thought I was good to die and I never felt that before. I'm low, no money, no drugs, no love. Pressed up against the ceiling though, I'm confused its not the ceiling its the floor. Where'd my sex drive off to? Probably where I kept the pills, might pop 2 to get through the rest of today's bills. Not like I pay them, but acknowledgment from colleges got people ill. I wonder how that bitter girl feels with her cheating boy, don't bring that sh1t to me I listened when I was annoyed. Implying that you find a decoy but you got salty had some attitude to deploy. I'm not a toy and don't expect to played with, so when it happens I get mixed like battered food. Part rude, but my ultimately I settle on "oh really ok then, screw you". Tired of being tested I can't stay sleep to rest then I'm expected to perform like I'm at my best. You fucking idiots how many times I have to tell you I'm depressed. Sometimes it hurts just trying to live breath by breath. As in I'll f*cking end it in the most splendid way possible. I feel like signs been everywhere but nobody thinks its topical. Need me to be newsworthy I got you don't worry in a flurry of haste I can show you the results of thinking livings a waste. "Oh my boyfriend he's a cheat Chrissy what do you say? I want to give him more chances but there's no more to take!" Well there you go asshole your answering your own questions confession you should have been learned your fucking lesson. I need some tree good music and a place for a decent session, Still think I'm dying when I hold it in my chest but Damn holding everything else in didn't prove for the best. Blowing it all out doing a little less I'm hard pressed to find a line that won't make me obsessed. Again and again and again. Cycles are about as common as the wind now days. Ended that with screenshots to match the convo I had with sh1t she's gonna try and make my hat. Won't do it can't have that, I know where it went and I'm honest so Blame me for what I'm responsible for... Nothing else to say there's the door.





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What do you call..

What do you call some1 who only shows interest in you when they feel it negatively affects them? I got a lot of words, but it ain't even worth it. Ya'll aint sh1t.





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Blu...

Feeling that way so I throw on this dude's music. Sunday morning flow, I love this man he's an incredible artist. Again, most don't know because the radio isn't going to point you in his direction. Which isn't at all saying that it shouldn't, he's beyond dope. Reach and caliber of a Lupe Fiasco if you will.

That's all going to change maybe... Noyork! is coming. Gotta be ready for that... For now this...






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Stress just kind of melts away.

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Jean...

Jean's a freak. I love her. I dated a girl like Jean before, it was interesting. I almost got cut a few times. She was a rider though and her name started with a J lol.

*More in Common then just ballin and rhyming, Get it more in Carmen*

Anyway Jean's whole f*cking persona is just sexy. Confidence through whatever circumstance, and a hilarious quick tongue. She raps really really well too. I'm a little tight at her being so blatantly overlooked by all these dumb females, but they only know what the radio programs them to.






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Peep the singing adlibs, she has vocals too.

Shout out to Talib Kweli for staying on his job and constantly giving her great looks.





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Shots Fired!! HAHAHA

Hey it's not coming from me, I just thought it was HILARIOUS! lol






"Ayo n then we got this nigga Big Sean namsayin. Ayo once again it aint like the god feel like he need to smack this nigga or nothin but the nigga whole aura jus moist son. The nigga look like a victim n shit. This niggas more Sean than Big if yall hear what a nigga sayin here. Word to Puff son. Ayo the nigga be spittin ey now n then n he gotta a couple gems n shit but that super duper shit was played the fuck out 5 minutes after this nigga birthed it g. Ayo thanks for that shit nigga.




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Yo this n1gga whole style is straight baby thighs son."

Props to BigGhostface lol


*DEAD*


It's all fun though!

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Few Know





Why would this be significant?


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My 100 Dollar bill Withers..






*The windows reflection says 'you stupid Chuck'*



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This what I mean...

"If you look at son skin under a microscope, the shit probably look quilted"


*FEELINGS*


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Feelings

I'm sick of feelings yo. Straight up, I'm doing me for awhile. I've tired of being put in positions I don't want to be because I FEEL or try to look out for others. In the end it gets you pretty much no where. I know people probably reading this nodding along, well do like me then. I'm really disgusted with the current events I've experienced in the last 48 hours. Starting to think I'd do better just starting over by myself.

There are obvious neon glowing arrows that point to some fairly telling facts. Health to be precise, but what do I know? I'll kill myself quickly, and slowly at the same time. Why? Cause I FEEL too much. I'm past not giving a f*ck and I'm past people growing too big for their f*cking panties. The question I have for everybody is if I'm so f*cking bad and detrimental to you and your lifestyle. Why even f*ck with me. History been ran it's course that's no longer an excuse, no1 owes me sh1t. I say that cause I'm certainly feeling like I'm about to be done FEELING like I owe people anything.

Guilt has taken me a long way, and I'm done letting it dictate what's what in my life. I'm tired of FEELING for people. F*ck that..

I had a friend who has a friend, and I happen to make an observation 1 day. Went something like this: "yo why you let all them do your friend like that, you ain't think to say something? I don't think that was too cool I think your friend is really upset"

"No my friend's fine, it's like that all the time trust me, that's like my blood It's good everybody says that when they are around"

"... Ok, that's not what I got but hey, what do I know"

A whole f*cking lot' apparently. It's not even that I'm a 'know-it-all' type. I just FEEL too f*cking much. Call it whatever you want, I call it a curse cause I'm sick of it. Feeling guilty, feeling pain that isn't mine, I'm sick of it. I have my OWN issues to deal with. I have plenty of MY OWN pain to displace. I'm sick of it.

I'm the only 1 I know that can hide the truth of what their feeling. Lately, not so well and that's because I'm changing. I'm growing to no longer be able to accept this 'me' that FEELS these things. this 'me' that fabricates FEELINGS...

I don't even know anymore, as sure as I am exhausted and fed up I'm just as lost. I don't trust anymore. At all. I'm taking things for what they are.. Even now 'censoring' and 'filtering' what I feel because people can't take it. Well I'll take it for them as usual. Just lock it all up and remain in pain.

F*ck feelings.







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AINT SHIT

Damn... Seems like she came from... Where she get that frame from... All kinds of pet names son..













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Whoompty Whoomp





Motherf*cker shut the F*CK up.

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Worse day in a long time. I'll be okay.



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And

It is what it is. I need some Tupac to listen to ASAP.











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DO I MAKE SENSE YET!?

Or am I just... Senseless?