Who The Hell Is Runnin This Blog!?

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A lot of things are tainted right now.. I just wanna be CLEAN! Gone..

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DEAD ASS THOUGH LMBLACKAO!!!!!

Yo Dead Ass man I'm Like this n*gga now. F*ck what you heard or thought about me in the past cause its not true Dead Ass yo. I'm him, and him, and him (that's 3 for those of you at home). Dead ass life has been something else hitting that good ol' Cali soil. Don't get me wrong, there are definitely problems out here dead ass! lmblackao. But I'm here! feel me? Like, I feel so much stronger dealing with things. AND staying clean dead ass lol. (Not funny though dead ass)this entry really has no meaning or purpose dead ass. I just found out that I am who I've been listening to all this time dead ass. Sh*t is crazy liberating dead ass! The only problem is I never know which one I'm going to turn into feel me? soooooo ummmm... Maybe you should disregard this, and dead ass try not to be too annoyed with me, dead ass yo I'm trying to control it! lmblackao Gone!

Rebel2Socie.errrr Charles Ham.. errr.. Dal.ummm Mack... no no none of those are right lmblackao. Damn.. smh

Shut Up & Listen!

People need to keep things in perspective really.. I'm too the point where if my association with you means I'm inviting headaches into my life, I'd rather walk away. Not to say I don't value people in my life, just to say I value LIVING life. It's too short to be weighed down by nonsense, and with that said, a lot of opportunities have been missed the last few days due to nonsense.

*SO KEEP THE B.S. FROM AROUND ME!!!*

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I didn't start this entry to complain about that though, rather instead to ask for help (which I most likely will not receive via my blog, but whatever), and get some things off of my mind.

I have a friend who is going through a lot right now. I know what it is he's going through, (though I'm not sure I am supposed to) and I know it is probably one of the worst things this person could have to deal with. How do I approach my friend? Seriously, do I come right out like look I heard what happened and I'm sorry blah blah. Or do I just talk to him and wait to see if this person enlightens me on the situation? I just do not have a clue as to how to approach this..

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Which is why pettier problems have really pissed me off lately. Get over it or get the f*ck out of my life people. I'm staring at crossroads in my life trying to decide what fits best, and which directions to take. It's difficult to say the least but I have found my old form of therapy. That being the gym, thank God for that. There's nothing like being in the gym with a ball and just doing you, and that's not even to say that I'm alone or want to be alone at the gym. Just that I love being in the gym working on my game (which for the moment, won't be showcased anywhere next year..). I don't know, what my new attitude is going to bring to me but i'm looking forward to finding out...

*Enough of that.. Lighter Note*

I've listened to some new hip hop and and a little disappointed to say, well, I'm disappointed lol. Busta's new joint is ehhhh, with way too many guest appearances (and Ron Brownz lol). Thinking on it now though, I guess I'm really not THAT disappointed, I just never expected Busta to come with a dud (and he did lol). Method Man and Redman came correct with Blackout!2 so that was cool. Lastly, Sho Tufli (featured on this blog some entries ago) delivered a nice mixtape based off Cam'ron's past work. Did I mention Relapse and Crime Pays?? Both Em and Cam went IN on their individual projects respectfully.

Me? I'm stuck in Hamilton's world, so I am listening to anything but him whenever my mind allows me too. What can I say when the world is throwing darts at me and pain is accumulating around me, THAT n*gga gets it. So it helps to say the least. Nothing else to say really.. I miss everybody that I dont see anymore (The Kansas kids lol), and that's really it.. Gone..

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Refreshing....

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Dope





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iLL (could've done with Jones though.. No shots)


Be back to normal soon I think.. Enjoy that in my absence. Gone..

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Broken

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My Most Important Blog Yet

I'm not at all a hateful person, but I don't deny my feelings and right now, I hate women/females/girls. Not to say if I see a girl walking down the street I'm on some belligerent mess, I'm just saying right now its a no go. People do hurtful things. Girls do hurtful things out of spite to cause more hurting. I've always had such an optimistic view on love and people in general, but my last year reshaped my views on people, and current situations are reshaping my views on love.

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This is not about me being IN love, it's not even directly related to a love interest of mine. I've always been the fly on the wall with the best view on what's going on around me. Unfortunately around me, isn't a very comfortable surrounding at the moment. I'm so happy to be home, but that doesn't mean home is perfect (it's certainly better than where I was previously at in Pittsburg, Kansas because there's love and stronger support systems here)and I can acknoledge that. Me and my B**** (Marley) are going to make it though, and that's really all that matter. I just have to learn to abide by my own rules while keeping it respectful...

Is it possible to love that which you hate?

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I don't know but I'll find out soon, until then (like I said in my previous entry)I'm falling way back. No phone calls, text messages, or personal face time for anyone. I need this time for me. (Email's will be excepted and the only form of communication --->> KingxPoetic@aol.com) Good luck with that.. Gone.

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Understanding

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Had a crazy conversation with someone today that really made me think about my situation. Quick recap, I'm walking home and I see a familiar truck up ahead parked on the side of the road with it's hazard lights on. The car then goes in reverse stops on the side and me, when the driver instructs me to get in. I knew him, so I did. Hence, crazy conversation. Gained a brand new understanding for this person, and I think (pending on my current viewpoints) will definitely help in the long run.

*Random*
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R.I.P. Wayman Tisdale (one of my new heroes). Music conquers all. I plan to rededicate my life to music, and he's a MONUMENTAL reason why.

I'm striving to understand that which I currently cannot. It's a long journey, but right now I'm falling back. Way back. Gone...

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