New Old inspiration

I may be moving to LA in a few months. A move is a long time coming whether it be to the heart or to depart from my city it's happening. I've known that for quite some time and shared such information frequently, so really no surprise. I guess I just want to see if its actually going to happen, I have my doubts and my doubts come from familiar letdowns. Let it all go is what I should do, and I will for now just wait and watch day to day. A change would be great though...

Music is cool right now I can't even complain she's doing what she has to and so am I. Funny how things can be good for days and days on end but that 1 bad song can leave a hell of a taste in your mouth. Sorry Music, but f*Ck it you started it. in the meantime I am feeling rushes of inspiration and I want to compare what my mind inspired today is to my mind inspired from yesteryear or whatever past inspirational pieces I find... Compare and contrast, while trying not to notice how much worse I've gotten lol

*We talkin' bout practice!*


Nah I think I'm ready to jump off this '2-year-stay plateau' I've been getting comfortable with. I mean, damn it HAS been 2 years out this b1aaa.

Who remembers 'BIA BIA!!' ?? smh now that's some sh1t, but hey it was inspiration to some1. I feel I don't go in like I used to. Too concerned about feelings and whatnot, which really sucks in my opinion. This was supposed to be for me, but I guess if I'm reaching I gotta have something to reach out to.

Music... Something different this time around. F*ck with me.









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I'm so in love again!

On the day of Chris' death I fell in mad passionate love again.






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Fear is facing the back...

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Which means I chase the future...


Loving my position in this event

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floating

Not cause I'M HIGH! the pieces have FINALLY been placed and set in. I swear if everything works out I will have successfully taken another step into adulthood. My dude I'm hot! meanwhile I'm wild, nothing new there, yet I don't feel like slowing down... We'll see how that plays out, I'm loving life at the moment and that has nothing to do with the little bit of paper I was holding, nah the people G, the people B...

Squishy shout out to you and the baby (who's name I am embarrassed I keep forgetting I'm sorry!) Margot shout out to you and the baby who's name I can't forget)! My other fathers and mothers soon-to-be's and all. Alex let me find out your pregnant!

Loving life moving toward familyism; meaning I am thinking about taking care of myself and 2 others. Never before has this been attempted financially so I'm gonna give it my best shot. Belief is the first step in most cases, and I have an OVER-abundance of faith. Potential too, I'm just trying not to waste that.

7am flow! let's go let's go! Today might be very interesting, if Jess let's me get my way. I feel her but ladies we gotta do something about these double standards! May have to find my Male compadres *sighs, rolls eyes* Lol Nah I really am loving life right now. Just about figured out and I'm ok making mistakes to further that goal. 'No biggie', I say...

Today. *I've been living for today since 'loser'* *I Gotta a lot of Growing up to do...*

Musically I am just... Ecstatic. I'd love to have a listening session with some specific people and just burn trip out and vibe to the music..

B left. I did some snake sh1t, Guess I was holding a grudge. It's cool though I got to see him things are good, future plans seem lucrative. Dale, Macky, Chris, Mike, Sean, X, Jason. 7 Boys! I have 7... 8 boys to lean on now (PAUSE)




*I just really missed your blanket with you under it* ;)


Misconstrued I'm sure but hey.... Geanna! Michelle! lol Ki..Ki.. lol okay I got ya'll all I think I miss every1 just in a good mood (I've said that I'm sure...) Sorry for the scatter brain thoughts, just thought I'd let myself go since I feel pretty in the 1st time since DECEMBER.

Depression is crazy. Feel me though?






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Still going...

*I should've known better.... When a heart and a body connect in such a way ours did... I'll let you fill in the blank whenever you want to...*










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I....

F*ckin love to love. Welcome back babe. Jessica Davis I suppose it's yours to lose now.










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Do they still?

referring to the plaques... Once again right over their heads.


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