Hmmm? "Friends" R My Weaknesses

I guess I know why I don't have many friends, and those that call themselves friends of mine are often looked at by me as barely acquaintances. Being recognized for playing ball is cool (I guess..) but I've never really been comfortable around those I'm not close with anyway, so when people come up to me like "yooo what's good man?" I'm left to either have a blank stare (I don't recognize 90% of the people who do this), or fake it until I can place if I remember them and from where.

Anyway for the unlucky few who have access to me as "friends" it's perfectly clear you don't understand me. Not 1 bit. No real issue by me, I could careless. After all that's kind of the reason I write so much. I'm obsessed with what you don't get and then some. I don't get just about everything, so I let my eyes and mind approach 'everything' as such.

*Ya'll Not Diggin Hard Enough*

Shouts to MERON lol I struggled to spell it out correctly I like my little nicknames what can I say? I truly believe the things I ponder are miniscule through her wider doper more magnified telescope, but I'm working to get o her level.

quick question... Barnes & Noble, Borders, or Hastings?? If you don't recognize any of the 3 (bookstores) then you know what it's like to approach life in a state of not knowing EVERYTHING.

*Dancing in my seat and people peeking*

Today has been up and down much like the entire week... Ya'll ready for me to get BACK on point?
I recently had a "friend" ask me  f*ck it let's just quote this lil n*gga..  "Just by chance do you have my jordan flip flops?"

*sighs*

Did you notice the quotes around friend? This question came via text message a day after we had all went out that night. Seems normal right? Only in this instance in order for me to have had his flip flops 'by chance' I would have had to go into his house and literally take them when I was clearly fully dressed to go OUT from head to toe.. Does this sound an awful lot' like stealing to any of you? Or are you buying some1 could walk out with flip flops clearly unaware of what they were doing... 'by chance'??

I suppose if there were no quotes around the word, I would have no problem with the question even if it is STILL a riDICulous question to ask. I'm playing nice now though. It was just an uneasy feeling sitting with me thinking on some1 who thinks their close to me accusing me of such a dishonorable act. Smear my character why don't you?

Anyway I called him on this initially my response exactly... "Y the f*ck wud I have ur flip flops? And by chance n*gga? Wtf??"

Needless to say he never responded lol there's more but ya'll get the point. I hope some1 decides to get nosy on me and hassles me until I have no choice but to release the entire convo. It's too 1 sided though lol old BBM users know *The view of my thumbs is the truth*

Controversy, most don't handle it too well and me I'm well, controversial. Those that REALLY know me know this and they understand it's that way because I act and think through the lens of my misguided emotions. Dangerous? Yes. Entertaining? Sometimes. Effective? Not really. Guess I really am stubborn.

However, if there's 1 thing I love about me it's my emotionally charged view on life and those in and around it. So I'm not trying to change that for nothing, but instead learn when and when not to trigger it. In hindsight the lil n*gga was like one of those mafioso hit men in the Godfather movies. He didn't have the brain, or the balls to accuse me on his own merit, and I say that fully confident in my conspiracies. Sickening as it may be.

So while he got the Ether, the others are getting pounds and rounds (alcohol people lol) when I see them cause you know that little quote about friends and enemies right? SMH lil n*ggas


*Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer*



*I got so much to gain in so little time*



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5 mics from the Source??

This USED to be the ultimate crowning achievement for an album to receive. Now? Not so much, still even with magazines credibility somewhat questionable it still means SOMETHING to receive this honor. So I grabbed my board earlier this week and got to surfing. Come to find out The Source Magazine has crowned a new album a 'masterpiece' and awarded it the rare 5 mics rating. Its been 5 years since the Source gave this rating out to some1 *{[(Save that for the end...)]}*, and now the next artist up is Bun B being recognized for his newly released album Trill O.G.

My 1st thoughts upon reading about this? F*ck now I'm gonna have to listen to some South music lmao I'm kidding. I was pretty surprised seeing as Bun B (Trill O.G.) was up against some pretty steep competition. Eminem (Recovery), Big Boi (Sir Lucious Left Foot: The son of Chico Dusty), Drake (Thank Me Later), The Roots (How I Got Over), Fat Joe (The Darkside Vol.1), and Rick Ross (Teflon Don).

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Now I've heard all but 2 on this list (Fat Joe's on deck as I type, and Rick Ross... I just have no desire to listen to this n*gga, still have yet to hear the Jay-Z featured track on his album Free Masons... Cause I do.n't care.. but if tonight goes as planned he'll be up after Fat Joe) and none of them struck me as classic. Maybe Em's but after going back and listening again I'm starting to feel like he just brought back 'classic' lyricism. Big Boi's is so ambitious it's hard to take it all in. For that alone I thought he could be onto something with it but it had too many 'filler' tracks imo. Drake's Thank Me Later was a very solid 'debut' effort just not the best introduction fans have heard from him. Definitely not classic though that mixtape on the hand... The Roots came with a solid album too, only... They ALWAYS do that lol it didn't resonate with me like the others have YET.

Bun B though?? I'ma be real as cotton fields. Bun's album never crossed my I gotta hear this sh*t radar. Call me rapper racist I don't know. I DO know he can rap, and he has classics, and has done so much for hip hop and the culture blah blah... Don't know sh*t about this album, and I'd like to keep it that way until I decide to sit down and hear it through and through (headphones or the whip).

I'm not trying to take anything away from him as an artist or a dope rapper. I just have my doubts... Did you know The Source redid old reviews for albums they felt they dropped the ball on as far as awarding them classic (5 mics) status? Yup. Did you know they did the same thing with albums they felt deserved the honor but could not receive it at the time due to the magazine not having been created? Yup.

Here's the list:

2Pac - All Eyez On Me, Me Against The World

Biggie - Life After Death

Dr. Dre - The Chronic, The Chronic 2001

Snoop Dogg - Doggystyle

Wu-Tang - Enter the Wu-Tang (36 chambers)

Eric B. & Rakim - Paid in Full*

Boogie Down Productions - By Any Means Necessary*, Criminal Minded*

N.W.A. - Straight Outta Compton

Run D.M.C. - Run D.M.C.*, Raising Hell*

Beastie Boys - License To Ill*

Scarface - The Diary

D.O.C. - No One Can Do It Better*

EPMD - Strictly Business*

Ice Cube - Death Certificate

Slick Rick - The Great Adventures of Slick Rick*

Fugees - The Score

Mobb Deep - Infamous

Jay-Z - Reasonable Doubt

Geto Boys - Grip It on That Other Level*

Public Enemy - It Takes A Nation of Millions

Raekwon - Only Built 4 Cuban Linx

De La Soul - De La Soul Is Dead

Main Source - Breaking Atoms*

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(*)= albums that were not out when the magazine was published. ^^ The rest are redone reviews.

Now for the Original 5 Mic classics...

Nas - Illmatic, Stillmatic

Biggie - Life After Death

Eric B. & Rakim - Let Rhythm Hit Em

A Tribe Called Quest - The Low End Theory, People's Instinctive Travels and The Path's of Rhythm

Scarface - The Fix

Ice Cube - Amerikkka's Most Wanted

Jay-Z - Blueprint

Brand Nubian - One For All

Outkast - Aquemini 

Critical Beatdown - Ultramagnetic MCs

Lil Kim (lol) - The Naked Truth (lmao)

Bun B - Trill O.G.

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So it's bee 5 years since the last artist received 5 mics from the Source. That artist being Lil Kim for her work on her album The Naked Truth. Now, I AM knocking the fact that she got 5 mics cause that album was mediocre at best. I know because I listened to it frequently upon it's release smh I want those hours back! My only question is this; If they can go back and redo reviews they felt didn't rate albums where they deserved to be in terms of boosting the ratings, why can't they do the opposite to lower ratings? Poor Bun B... The credibility of his album is automatically questioned because of the magazine's 'dark aged past'. Oh well though, like I said I'll be listening intensely in the very near future. Going to make quite the event out of it... Well maybe We'll C..

*dadadadaaaaaa*

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Classroom "B4" is in session

Easy Chair.

Feeling remorseful night ends I realize I have the power to write in an endless supply of black knights. If I should so choose to abuse what I like. Reading too much thoughts starting to blur damn it' I'm sorry' words never spoken to her. Word to the curves life's throwing while showing mortals are a step away from the portal to end their life. Take consideration for a second what's going on in your life. Different plots created for a chance to make a statement or a mark. Either way we work not to be forgotten and left in the dark. My anger serves as the flint that aids the sparks whatever life is hard. But damn it can't you hit pause for a second? Or are we too into dividing sections at a time for us to feel fine with what's neglected? Not another step then dreams deferred word to me but from you not a peep. Hmm? I know your lined in sight with what I see so imagine me surprised at the lack of support I receive to fuel my dreams. You got me open but empty riding on E fuck. Chill I'm sitting easier here then I ever was reclined over there. I like your chair a lot but it clouds my judgment and cuffs my thoughts, when I needed hugs.. Plot thickens while rotten chickens go in for an ending this. Play it cool if you want to noble dude but come on really? Your demeanors quoting T.I. And I'm the 1 that's silly? Loord get me if I'm misinterpreting incorrectly or over stepping what u had planned. If my path is that by chance of constant reprimands then I'll walk on while trying to gain a better understanding. Knowing that I sin, just a man then. so if THIS is the path god placed for reprimands. I need to accept it and forget about understanding. My stage is, my cage. that fair weather makes difficult to gauge your fair whether its hot but cold in ways that horrible enough for me not to say. This is the spot for me red burgundy inclined to recline back to my mindful burglaries. Don't step in my face if your words are just hurting me.. Someone curtains please!

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If u haven't noticed these aren't really edited (sorry). Anyway the lesson of the hour? Who's path are you walking on yours or theirs? 'Chilleth Fair'

Turtapolous Rex
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The start of "B4"

Before.

I went after what I tried after I'd write a stanza or 2 to serve as my own relax-er. Girl couldn't get with it for the night so my words will have to suffice. Cool to me but kinda knot. To separate ends and we're both pulling counter productive more money in the pot for well you know.. Things that throw reality on its side a ride back to Kansas aint the place dude. I would've had base all in my face true I was scared my limit was fair to me but now its up there and my thoughts are too so I can stay here and lose them too or hop on like the other fools I used to ridicule. So really what do you suggest I do? Bugging out remember loony tunes, that's my looney tomb for paradox and doom. Fiascos, assholes, depression for slow cash flow. Not mentioning they tracing what I'm pinching fuck.. Like no luck right? Like chill I don't wanna write no more. People ask will you fight for more? I reply "nah" cause they don't even know what they fighting for or where the fight might be likened to go. The here and now in my life I'm fighting for the next day just to catch a gaze as the sunlight blast through my blinds. A kick start intertwined with the opposite of my times. But hey, most of what I defined came from behind something that wasn't mine. I was in my designated single file line. Even seemingly within peace arms length of the tree I'm wild a beast. sickening to feast on what your receptors keep but I'm deep in thought whithout raising my voice to speak. Unless I'm yelling at the peak of my lungs frustrated the stars won't show me where I come from or where to go next damn I'm so stressed. Still in check so I step 1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1... Feeling half-through without a capsule to move.. Fucking asshole swear to what's odd that's me. But he see's trash that earned an attachment to what his seed yearns for. Not tonight matter of fact no more not a peep not a word. Strike a chord it'll be clear when I right his jaw. You know.. What I'm fighting for? Anyway I'll pay for that some other day let me save some space for oxygen now by saying 'my mistake' but I don't give a fuck I've never fake. Catching how my face looks like I've never been a-wake. Break it down and wait the ceremonies taking place.

Let me here ya'll talking about spaces... Shout out to my sponsors at the phone company!

*next stanza*

Turtapolous Rex
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My blog will be my notebook

For tonight I will try for as long as I am willing to write in my blog as if its just me. I will not pull any punches. Although this series of entries should all go under the umbrella "B4". Like the classroom door to my thoughts.

Depending on when things work themselves out there will be another honest series much like this 1 to go under the umbrella "Afte(a)r" which will be on a whole other hype. Ok... Let me get started before I lose my nerve

*this guy*

Turtapolous Rex
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somewhere SHE's Reading Remix!

Hidey hooo jessimo!!

Thought I'd take the time out of my day to just miss you for once! I knoowwwww right? What'd you do to deserve all this? Well Jessica? I say to you CHILL lol now what?

'Anyway hardest working indy-while dealing with traumatic bi-polarisms coming from 9 feet above her head. (Sh*t anywhere within 10 ft of the house ACTUALLY) ' hard title Uknow Iknow!

Too jubilistic up in this b*tch. Running on life is more OD than any drug everrr! Life and heart warming open ended 'memor-thoughts' if u can diggeth.. If not I'm good cause I get it..

Shower's almost freee!! After I get clean I get a Leetol bit insecure looking in the mirror. Tonight I need to own the mirror. Your words may just help after all.. I hope they do.

Anyway here's to loving to love the lovely things that rub off on me due to the lovingly venomous darts you spew. CHill Lol.

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Ima C-H 2 ya know??

*the nerve of this boy*

*out of character mind*

*Technology glitches*

Turtapolous Rex
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Somewhere she's reading

Hidey hooo jessimo!!

Thought I'd take the time out of my day to just miss you for once! I knoowwwww right? What'd you do to deserve all this? Well Jessica? I say to you CHILL lol now what?

Anyway thank u for your words kind soft words and hard left hooks PoW! Lol

Love u!!!

*there was so much more to this blog n technology F'd it up... Lol at sugar foot though Uknow!!*

Turtapolous Rex
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