I love to LOVE

Love is perfect...

I'm happy to be awAKE this morning no gas.. And I want a motorcycle... LOL

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I remember when we and by we I mean Kiki and Rora would sit in the dorm room all 3 of us writing on our own blogs intensely. Short grunts, tiny giggles, confused looks lol it was a fun time.. Anyway I'm reminiscing on that because I dead*ss be laughing and fully entertained (by myself) when writing these.

It's cool having thousands of inside jokes with yourself!

*rolls eyes*

So the mailing list wasn't completely dismantled but it definitely was trimmed quite a bit. I guess you'll know when the email hits riiight? I'm crazy excited for the potential 'heaviness' my pen might allow me to create today. Water falls, and then it's felt.

*waterfalls*

Been thinking on it for a minute promised it a minute aGO so hopefully things get moving with that. If it turns out anywhere near where I wanna be want it to be it'll bring tears and then permanently rest here.

Ivan what's good? somebody holla at the 'bol' for me! If I start thinking I'm turning into Mr. Fantastic it gets all bad. Never had that problem with my dude in those regards but Uknow! sh*t happens...

There's so much to say, or I just feel like there's so much to say... sO let's just say my mind has a plethora to speak per say. con speech. with words. Or not, I'm capable of going much deeper but I don't want to come off as a... creeper *michelle*

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Anyway the '3rd' eyes wide the f*ck open.

I've found a very ambitious way of failing at the things I do to the point where it's literally cool. Depending on what perspective you have on all this it could look really bad though, so I'm ghost-like for the most part. Trying to keep myself in a very insane lane where I know all consequences and outcomes before the decisions are made, and regardless of end results I walk on blind to any perjury (<-- that's a 'trippy' word).

*Can the blind lead the blind??* any1??

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Referencing my own 'literature' lOL There's more to that btw...

I really hope every1 is doing well. I haven't forgotten about skype (well I did but let this be mine as well as your reminder that I still have the thing. You gotta hit me for that though, and don't expect me to be on there OD'n, no social network gets that anymore. Bloodsuckers... Take what it was and make it what it 'ain't'.

Shout out to Rubin, Rough n Rugged, and my soon to be named and 'genderized' new notebook (i Don't have it yet.. it'll be petite though hehehehe)

Word to words I'm understanding you ALL more each day. Loving it like I love LOVE, and Marley. I kind of capped out, too much going on right now but today feels like I'm gonna be actively updating seemingly without purpose. Ya'll should know that's never the case smh nope

Shout out to Blu that n*gga is a problem and way ahead of his time. Keep doing you it's much appreciated homey.

Shout out to my colors... Yo word to everybody that's seen me I have a semi MEAN color scheme setup with my clothes IMO lol What you see here is literally what it is. 1 of these days I'm saying f*ck it and goin nuts with my sh*t. Jess I kid you not, get ready for the stares like now. F*cking Jay-Z and his trendiness...

*shakes fist*

Hey Squishy 'Pound my fist' lmao I'm done!


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Paranoia

For the paranoid. For those that think of things with imaginations so vivid they eventually become reality. 

I don't want paranoia driving my thoughts tonight. I want to feel as if all of my limbs and vital organs are working because I know I'm healthy. I think I'm healthy. Mostly I deduct from the numerous activities I conduct that I am healthy. So my mind should think healthy thoughts. 

My heart is strong as is my mind. My eyes are clear as is my mind. My friends are real.

I should chill time to dose off. Pray for me. +) 

*IF it feels too good to be true well than it aint... Oh snap! That's so Raven That's so Raven That's so Raven That's so Raven!!*





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Yeah I know...

*For those of you that receive emails from me linking you to this blog this will be the last 1. Not the last blog I write, but every1 is being taken off the list. I can't imagine it being that much of a problem for the majority of you on the list anyway. My reasons are I don't like writing to ghosts unless I'm intentionally doing so. For those that never respond with feedback/questions/answers like I said it shouldn't mean too much to you. Besides that the posts are going to get a little weird I'd imagine. More honest... Apparently honesty is a weird thing to this generation though. So yeah you know the phone's on (916) 230-5293. The emails work rebel2society@gmail.com kingxpoetic@aol.com . And of course the house that I built will remain rebel2society.blogspot.com . So here's your last platter so to speak. Get at me on twitter or... lol twitter smh just contact me if you care.*

If you love some1 you shouldn't let them go too long without them knowing it... Ya know? Aight ya'll

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Can the Blind Lead the Blind?

I smile in the faces of so many because what I have concealed in me is plenty... I need to like give my energy feel me. Feel me? An overabundance of such might just kill me. Someday, but really those days are smokescreens. Due to the haze and other substances that fill me. So I giggle thrilled behind my wall of deception, knowing deep down there are no exceptions. Either get on or develop a weapon for your protection. Immediately a drug reference? Well, that's what they think right? Are they right? I thought I crushed all of that with the help of God's might. HE who shined light in the darkness that was my life. What do I know? I just stay up analyzing and reading all night. Talking to strangers trying to pull away from the dangers broken relationships present to my endangered psyche. wait, that's funny... My old homies kind of play hide and seek. Jokes on me being forever 'it', I lunge as they run from me. Down and dirty getting bummy, my appearance doesn't reflect that I'm hungry-er. My worries were that I'd end up alone, an looking around that's not too far from my current zone, but I'm blown like the wind does to leaves. Like the wind did my friends. Like the wind does to tears flowing from blurry eyes. Dried. I tried, no need to 'wet my beak' bet I'm weak for sure that's more coal, more heat. Find my comfort in girls even if we don't speak. My hands are comforting I know because of what comes back on the screen. Communication by any means might lead to your jeans. She knows it, even shows it through acts of jealousy. I can't blame you I'm thinking 'me too' while fabrications and lies turn to truths. A contradiction, or we're merely confused. Sky bright I look up feeling used. At the edge of self control I start thinking 'what's the use?' Songs flowing through my head, Eminem's 'Beautiful'. Okay I'm cool. The world turns on... Undefined.

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... I still feel leaving was wrong to do. I'm Serious...

But I wanna wear silly hats...

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I TrIED but...

Sometimes things are destined to fail. I can look back at key moments in my life, and they usually are followed by, inspired by, or just plain are shortcomings. So it's in this shortcomings that I look toward the future with a more keen eye for positivity.

I tried it a way that wasn't my own and failed. I've failed on my own in my own way but found solace in knowing I understood the steps I was taking, and the path I was leading. Doing it your way has left me more so lost than anything else I could try to describe. Your not always wrong, definitely not always right, but your always NOT mine. Therefore I couldn't try to find peace through your thoughts. Kind of backwards...

Tumbling over and over descending into mysteries isn't the ideal way to find yourself, but if it works it works.

I found my 'friends' but that's another post altogether. What's real what's fake? Finding that out is REALly all that matters to me at this point, and I'm willing to put myself through WHATEVER to achieve that.

Here's to your way, and mine. Now. Live with me.



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Rtistic

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