Black Donte prelude?

I tend to try and give people exactly what they deserve after I've been rubbed the wrong way. Mind you, this is all from my perspective, which means something minor could be monumental in my eyes. Not saying people have to walk on eggshells when dealing with me, because I wouldn't judge someone I just met without really getting to sit down and get to know them. If I do know you, it still doesn't mean be extra cautious I'm just saying...

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Sorry to those that have caught the evil coming out of me. You probably deserved it, but I'm the type of person that feels ashamed (of myself) if I lose control of my emotions. And yes I'm an emotional person, I'm not sure if its very apparent though. Anyway, situations recently have caused me to lose control for brief moments. I do not want that to be the case anymore.

I see a problem I start working on how to fix it. Regardless of how long it may appear the problem is going on, if I know about it is I'm Workinonit!! (Inside joke right Charles? Lol uh yeah we've been in touch,
DEAD ASS)< --Pause

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I'm thinking I'm about to get WAY more personal on here. I mean its my f*cking spot right? I really have to stop considering others in the sense that my needs are important too. Sacrificing is cool (especially when people have no clue your sacrificing for them) , but sometimes it takes a lot out of me.

Which brings me back to what I was trying to say, all tangents aside. I'm an emotional person, but today I was emotion-less. Basically didn't care about anything, well I did until I was set off. Whatever, LA lost too! Though I didn't/dont care. I tried to dig myself out of it but no luck. I blame it on the music-less house. Walls of trust have blasted down, and safety (and sanity) reside where I lay my head to sleep. Just that one room. Other than that, outside (my normal environment ie. Anywhere I can be seen), or the gym. Dead a**.

I wanted to get at ya'll sooner, but something told me to go through the whole day first. I guess it put things in the right perspective, at least if I'm seeing through right lol (that's over your head trust me!) Hopefully, today can continue to be productive on my end. Plans have already been cancelled, so we'll see what ends up being the case.

"Mos" Definitely going to stay communicating on here though. This is where its at. Apologies if you are scratching your head as to why the connection was interrupted on other forums (myspace, fb, twitter, etc.). Its just that I remodeled in here, so I'm kind of not leaving for awhile lol. Today is all about inspiration. I'm finding some right now writing this. I'm GOING to have to find some more in order to do what I know I'm supposed to today. Definitely writing something though :)

Actually excited about how everything could possibly turn out. I'm about to go practice terrible dieting habits. Which reminds me, an update to what's going on with me is coming sort of, I think.. More information is coming. That works better. Aight that's plenty.. Gone!

*History on repeat Mos and Kweli blacking over a soulful Dilla beat*
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Does IT even Matter..

*Does na na na na na dance with tongue out*

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My team is now resting after sleep walking through the first round. *yawns* Oh watching this series made you sleepy too? lmao ok ok. I did enjoy seeing Jerry Sloan thrown out. Nothing against coach Sloan I just think its hilarious when folks get thrown out AND make a scene. That was great lol. Good job Utah. Deron Williams Whoowee! (ayo! pause and the like.. whatever lol) dude is nice with his though he not seeing Chris Paul game though. (they both on another level so shut up and stop trying to argue with me)

*Checks gun*
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I have one more bullet left... Anyone know where Carlos Boozer was tonight? I think he missed the game. lmao BLAOW!!!!!


---->>Moving On<<----

I love the night/early mornings. It's the only time I can really be (semi)stress-free. Here's what normally happens. I wake up to the situation i'm currently in out here, and feel sick knowing I have to deal with all these different issues we all go through (school, work <<--basketball for me, friends, enemies, money, bills, etc.). The whole day is basically me dealing with something until I don't have to anymore.. (I feel like this is confusing, think of having an exam tomorrow. your gonna be thinking about it until its over then its like aaahhhhhh!!! lol) So for me, 8am- 530ishpm is hell. 5:31pm come around maaaaaaaaaaan! lol I'm wildin out. (not really but that's how my mind feels when it's liberated from stress) With everything that's been taking place recently I look forward to my nights even more. a little bit of this a little bit of that (hmmm? lol) berry, ipod, laptop, now get out my way lol. But that's how it is for me anyway..
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Didn't get my point across how I wanted to.. (Maybe I should write about it?)




*Super Exhausted*

Can't sleep though, that wont happen until I sit down on something soft.. Get's me everytime lol U KNOW!! All this technology backfiring at the moment though lol I got way too much (tryin to be) going on. I've been slacking on my twitter heads 4real. Which reminds me 1000 posts coming soon I'm bout to throw a party for myself. lmao none of ya'll invited! (facebookers LOST lol) I'm dealing with this solo tip quite well actually. (Is that even really a big surprise? Naaaaah!) IF I still had the internet available to me in the comforts of my apt. I probably wouldn't have noticed that I've been alone *shrugs* but whatever my berry holdin up just fine.

*Because its my blog and I can*













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Joe Budden (The rapper) hit me up about the 'nonsituation-situation' (.. Quick recap: my friends aint my friends no more.) and had these words for me personally (which, naturally, I thought was nice lmao)

"I love everybody dont ask me who I beef with they burnt the bridge but they were standing underneath it" - mousebudden
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(that's that twitter sh*t ya'll AIN'T on) thanks homie. (he said it not me but damn if I didn't agree)

I saw some hilarious sh*t (Dame Dash Def Jam Fiasco... no lupe lol) tonight, so hopefully I can share that with ya'll. The hip hop heads will either be mad, or ltfao over it. Anyway I'll post it on here (maybe) tomorrow or tonight. Meanwhile I'm having a major hold up with my featured artist I was gassin its coming!

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I'm feeling like there's a lot of suspect material in this one sooooooo

"Me and another man will NEVER get it on! call me homophobic I just like to be strong" - Charles Hamilton

lol and thank you homie. (I just happened to be listening to that..... UGH NIGGA U GAY!! (c) Riley from the Boondocks lmao)

*Rejuvenated*


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bout to get on my TURTLE sh*t one time. Gone!!

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pleasantly overthinking

Damn its dumb early and for some reason I just started
Thinking about the situation I've put myself in among
Other things(Annnnnnnd??). Well and nothing lmao its
Quiet for niggas 4real I'm so past it on that level
Put the gloves on or shut up or worse (*gasp!*)
Play thug like you(all) been doing all year. Dig me??
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------>MOVING ON<-------

I'm thinking. I'm bored, hungry, and broke. Sooooo
First I need to make something to eat.. (Thinking grilled
Cheese??) *shrugs* whatever.

*crosses food off the topic list*

I'm kind of wondering how long before my blog is poppin
Like it should be. I got my eyes on a few key people
(All on the best coast lmao) but 4real I'm blackin on ya'll
Who want what!? LnF I need that MC convo we were having asap!!
Still on my NewGirlFriend shit!!
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Unrelated obsessed eeehhhhh lol. Beyonce can still get
It though. I feel like they went out of there way
To keep hip hop and Beyonce as far from each other in that
Movie as possible. Like they wanted you to see Beyonce's character (uhhhh what was her
Character's name again? Lmao exactly)and not Beyonce the entertainer
Did it work? Ionno ask the fangirls/(and)boys screaming 'GET THAT BITCH
BEYONCE!' In the back of the theater. *smh*
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Insomnia should be considered a serious disease.. Gone!

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get ya nails did!

Just got my nails done on some heterosexual type shit.
Damn that mess is RELAXING!! Had to ponder the question
Ms. Thang (the one doin my nails lol) asked me though..
Did I want a clear finish or not? F**k! Years of being
Conditioned to be very afraid of anything remotely uh..
Not straight had me sitting there blank faced for like a min
Lol dead ass though! I'm trying to think where I've seen clear
Finishes on boys... Two teammates of mine.. (Not the same team)
And various celebrities.. In either case I never really got it.
Do girls except this or maybe even prefer this??

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Random but I really wanna know!! Lmao gone..

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Manicures aRe NOT GAY lol f**k what you heard!

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