Black Donte prelude?

I tend to try and give people exactly what they deserve after I've been rubbed the wrong way. Mind you, this is all from my perspective, which means something minor could be monumental in my eyes. Not saying people have to walk on eggshells when dealing with me, because I wouldn't judge someone I just met without really getting to sit down and get to know them. If I do know you, it still doesn't mean be extra cautious I'm just saying...

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Sorry to those that have caught the evil coming out of me. You probably deserved it, but I'm the type of person that feels ashamed (of myself) if I lose control of my emotions. And yes I'm an emotional person, I'm not sure if its very apparent though. Anyway, situations recently have caused me to lose control for brief moments. I do not want that to be the case anymore.

I see a problem I start working on how to fix it. Regardless of how long it may appear the problem is going on, if I know about it is I'm Workinonit!! (Inside joke right Charles? Lol uh yeah we've been in touch,
DEAD ASS)< --Pause

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I'm thinking I'm about to get WAY more personal on here. I mean its my f*cking spot right? I really have to stop considering others in the sense that my needs are important too. Sacrificing is cool (especially when people have no clue your sacrificing for them) , but sometimes it takes a lot out of me.

Which brings me back to what I was trying to say, all tangents aside. I'm an emotional person, but today I was emotion-less. Basically didn't care about anything, well I did until I was set off. Whatever, LA lost too! Though I didn't/dont care. I tried to dig myself out of it but no luck. I blame it on the music-less house. Walls of trust have blasted down, and safety (and sanity) reside where I lay my head to sleep. Just that one room. Other than that, outside (my normal environment ie. Anywhere I can be seen), or the gym. Dead a**.

I wanted to get at ya'll sooner, but something told me to go through the whole day first. I guess it put things in the right perspective, at least if I'm seeing through right lol (that's over your head trust me!) Hopefully, today can continue to be productive on my end. Plans have already been cancelled, so we'll see what ends up being the case.

"Mos" Definitely going to stay communicating on here though. This is where its at. Apologies if you are scratching your head as to why the connection was interrupted on other forums (myspace, fb, twitter, etc.). Its just that I remodeled in here, so I'm kind of not leaving for awhile lol. Today is all about inspiration. I'm finding some right now writing this. I'm GOING to have to find some more in order to do what I know I'm supposed to today. Definitely writing something though :)

Actually excited about how everything could possibly turn out. I'm about to go practice terrible dieting habits. Which reminds me, an update to what's going on with me is coming sort of, I think.. More information is coming. That works better. Aight that's plenty.. Gone!

*History on repeat Mos and Kweli blacking over a soulful Dilla beat*
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What's a house with no music?? Somewhere I definitely don't want to live.
What's a relationship with no understanding? A relationship I don't want to be in.
Dilemma time dead a**. I'm sick of this feeling, and can't shake what the cause of it is. So I'm goin hard into me mode. I think I've said it before, I have too much love in me and not enough knowledge of how to share it. (Definitely didn't say it like that though lol) so I'm not worried about sharing sh*t anymore.

*wtf does this mean?*

Welcome back Mr. A**hole.

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People think I'm insensitive, and I only care about myself. When in actuality I care too much about everybody in my life. Sorry, can't carry on like this anymore, and I won't. People have to draw the line somewhere and mine is being finely etched for everybody to see.

I'm just tired of everything . EVERYTHING!

I hope everybody realizes this is me backed into a wall (again). My actions are direct counters to what's being presented in front of me as "so-called options". I still love this though, my blog has truly become my spot. I got the sofa with the big a** flat screen on the wall. Music pumpin out the speakers (yeah its loud in here) on the screen is my future. I'm dead a** watching my future in here, seeing how crazy 2011 is going to be for me (a silent film of course [); ) )

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I love connecting with whoever it is reading though, and for those I know read it, I think its ill we can communicate this way.

*Nas blacked on this Untitled(N*gger) album! Had to throw that in there, I'm in the whip listening to it. Damn homie smh* (pause pause pause)

All of that means you better f*cking cherish this sh*t. I'm about to recline in my spot for awhile, so yeah, I might not be communicating. Well not unless its done on here ("Mos" likely). Now its time for me to get lost in my music. Gone!

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I'm every day people

Yooooooo lmao (that should tell you where my mind's at) I'm out with my n*ggas chilling on some cool sh*t. That meaning I'm just vibing off this alcohol. Its a different look being with this group of friends definitely. The other group (the only one's I've acknowledged on here shout out to fam 1st/born leaders crew though!)

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Where the f*ck has LnF been?? Lmao doin her thing I suppose. I hope YOU had fun tonight too....
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And that's when I let whatever substances in me take over lol. Definitely forgot about the blog and got to having a blastn but its all good I was thinking bout ya'll! This Laker game is pretty much uneventful. Why? Because they are clearly better than Orlando and right now, Orlando just looks out of it. They are fighting pretty hard though (whoa pause). These n*ggas keep knocking down 3's lol we'll see how long that lasts.

Squishy stop all the bloodclot whining.

Yesterday was supposed to be a heavy a** hip hop day. Didn't really turn out that way, but I guess there's always today (not tomorrow that's never promised). To merge into what may be another blog entry altogether, I just wanna say Mos Def is that dude. He's super nice on the mic, and gets his Will Smith (acting/rappin... Well) on. He has a new album out that I have yet to listen to. That's on the agenda for my ears later on "Mos" likely lol.

My B*tch Marley is loving today. I've been outside with her all today, now that I'm posted in the garage on the couch I look over and she's knocked out lol. Cute stuff. I should take some pics but I'm lazy (waitin for a b*tch to upgrade me right? Lol ), she does need a bath though.. (LnF where are u!? Wash this damn dog!! Please? Lmao)

Soooo LA is up 2-0, ionno ZQ we might have them brooms ready to do some heavy sweeping lol! I have no idea what tonight is going to bring but hey, I'm optimistic that an open mind will take care of whatever I decide to get into.

*yawning (literally)*
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Yes a lot of time has passed since the beginning of this blog. I'm trying to be a busy guy remember? I'm tired though, gotta keep that in mind if I'm going to drive. I want to blog all night so I'll have my charger to keep my batt. High.

I need to start getting ready though.. Which means the music is bout to go on! D.O.A. Get em Hov! I'm Hovinit like a chauvinist lol (...?) Gone!

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What it is..

I'm definitely on some music sh*t today it's a shame I actually have to go outside and socialize. Me and my laptop been gettin it IN! Sorry for the the absence yesterday (Not really) I was uhh doing me I guess.

*Shrugs*

I can't stand this wait to see my team on the tv screen again! Can we just make it 3 straight and bounce with the trophy in Orlando?? (see ZQ I can wishfully think too lol)

I have conceded to my injury (for once). I was on some F that I'm not going to NOT hoop sh*t and I woke up with eye swollen shut. So yeah, couple more days no hardwood (PAUSE lmao). No lifting today either, just living I suppose. What do I do when I have nothing that NEEDS to be done on my agenda out here?

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Watch Cartoons duh... This new Wolverine & the X-Men show is kinda eeehhhhh, but I got it Tivo'd so wth. Speaking of cartoons, me and hulu.com are about to be best friends provided my phone and laptop don't blow up on me. Got a lot of catching up to do.

Marley sends a lick out to anyone she knew and doesn't see anymore (lol), she's great for all of you who were wondering (still lays down like a ho too lmao). Just wanted to actually contribute to a post today, I don't think I will have this much to say for awhile. It's a Zoning day. I did start writing again though! Maybe, just maybe, if Michelle decides to hit me up I'll have something to put on here. Doubt it though, relaxing like this makes it hard to do much of anything. Gone!

CLAAAAAASSSICCCC!!!!

Feeling like taking a trip down memory lane. I love this hip hop sh*t. I'm gonna have some music for you all to listen to in the next coming weeks. Should be an interesting addition to my (future)job, side hustle, and grind that i'm already on. Who said summer was just for chilling?? Nah Get it while you still can!







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iLL... Guess who's my favorite out of all these guys! (dead a**, take a guess) Gone!

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Can I Talk My Sh*t Again?!

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Thanks Kanye lol Just wanted to hit ya'll with this really really quick to let you know where my head is at today..






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Bet you sport's heads forgot about kobe welcoming dwight howard into the nba like that lol. Yeah I DID say they were gonna be there.. Too bad I thought Cleveland would shake off the drool left from two series of sleep walking but hey, Orlando was dangerous. *shrugs* Cleveland better luck next year. I know AFTER the Lakers wrap this up in 5 (yeah I'm THAT sure about it. 6 at the most) its going to kickstart a crazy offseason. CANNOT WAIT! Laker Haters "Suck a Fatty" (Lmao Squishy that dude is a loser for life) Gone!

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Feeling Good Feeling Great

Aahhhhh breathing in this Cali air today is really doing it for me. Basically I'm feeling great. Getting back into shape making moves upon moves. I'm in a good spot right now I think. The people I've surrounded myself with are all in the process of doing big things, and I'm in the process of making 2011 THAT YEAR. Keeping things in the family (or extended fam 1st/born leaders crew) is going to pay off..

Aside from my head throbbing I don't see how anything could ruin today. Finals are kicking off today and LA is about to go up 1-0 in this b*tch! This series is going to be over in 5 or 6 games, I'm leaning more towards 5 though. (Arrogant I know) another blog on that in a little bit though.

I haven't written anything in A LONG A** time! That's irritating but I'll probably change that sometime today. (Michelle where you at?!)

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Just thought about that.. This is a short entry anyway. (Full of random topics, give me a break I just wanted to check in with ya'll)

*more randomness pay attention to this though*

If any of you have plans no matter how big or little, when you decide to follow through with them, do it. By that I mean go hard and believe in yourself primarily. I'm going to be told no 100 times before I here yes. I can't let that deter me in the slightest because my belief in myself has to be stronger than the next person's doubt. Actually everyone's doubt combined. Things can turn ugly in life quickly, but surround yourself with the right people, and never lose faith in yourself.
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My way of sharing my perspective with anyone who needs it or cares. I'm out for the count for now. Ya'll know how to get at me! Gone!!

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