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Saturday, June 6, 2009

What it is..

I'm definitely on some music sh*t today it's a shame I actually have to go outside and socialize. Me and my laptop been gettin it IN! Sorry for the the absence yesterday (Not really) I was uhh doing me I guess.

*Shrugs*

I can't stand this wait to see my team on the tv screen again! Can we just make it 3 straight and bounce with the trophy in Orlando?? (see ZQ I can wishfully think too lol)

I have conceded to my injury (for once). I was on some F that I'm not going to NOT hoop sh*t and I woke up with eye swollen shut. So yeah, couple more days no hardwood (PAUSE lmao). No lifting today either, just living I suppose. What do I do when I have nothing that NEEDS to be done on my agenda out here?

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Watch Cartoons duh... This new Wolverine & the X-Men show is kinda eeehhhhh, but I got it Tivo'd so wth. Speaking of cartoons, me and hulu.com are about to be best friends provided my phone and laptop don't blow up on me. Got a lot of catching up to do.

Marley sends a lick out to anyone she knew and doesn't see anymore (lol), she's great for all of you who were wondering (still lays down like a ho too lmao). Just wanted to actually contribute to a post today, I don't think I will have this much to say for awhile. It's a Zoning day. I did start writing again though! Maybe, just maybe, if Michelle decides to hit me up I'll have something to put on here. Doubt it though, relaxing like this makes it hard to do much of anything. Gone!

CLAAAAAASSSICCCC!!!!

Feeling like taking a trip down memory lane. I love this hip hop sh*t. I'm gonna have some music for you all to listen to in the next coming weeks. Should be an interesting addition to my (future)job, side hustle, and grind that i'm already on. Who said summer was just for chilling?? Nah Get it while you still can!







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iLL... Guess who's my favorite out of all these guys! (dead a**, take a guess) Gone!

Rebel2Society

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Can I Talk My Sh*t Again?!

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Thanks Kanye lol Just wanted to hit ya'll with this really really quick to let you know where my head is at today..






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Bet you sport's heads forgot about kobe welcoming dwight howard into the nba like that lol. Yeah I DID say they were gonna be there.. Too bad I thought Cleveland would shake off the drool left from two series of sleep walking but hey, Orlando was dangerous. *shrugs* Cleveland better luck next year. I know AFTER the Lakers wrap this up in 5 (yeah I'm THAT sure about it. 6 at the most) its going to kickstart a crazy offseason. CANNOT WAIT! Laker Haters "Suck a Fatty" (Lmao Squishy that dude is a loser for life) Gone!

Rebel2Society

Feeling Good Feeling Great

Aahhhhh breathing in this Cali air today is really doing it for me. Basically I'm feeling great. Getting back into shape making moves upon moves. I'm in a good spot right now I think. The people I've surrounded myself with are all in the process of doing big things, and I'm in the process of making 2011 THAT YEAR. Keeping things in the family (or extended fam 1st/born leaders crew) is going to pay off..

Aside from my head throbbing I don't see how anything could ruin today. Finals are kicking off today and LA is about to go up 1-0 in this b*tch! This series is going to be over in 5 or 6 games, I'm leaning more towards 5 though. (Arrogant I know) another blog on that in a little bit though.

I haven't written anything in A LONG A** time! That's irritating but I'll probably change that sometime today. (Michelle where you at?!)

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Just thought about that.. This is a short entry anyway. (Full of random topics, give me a break I just wanted to check in with ya'll)

*more randomness pay attention to this though*

If any of you have plans no matter how big or little, when you decide to follow through with them, do it. By that I mean go hard and believe in yourself primarily. I'm going to be told no 100 times before I here yes. I can't let that deter me in the slightest because my belief in myself has to be stronger than the next person's doubt. Actually everyone's doubt combined. Things can turn ugly in life quickly, but surround yourself with the right people, and never lose faith in yourself.
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My way of sharing my perspective with anyone who needs it or cares. I'm out for the count for now. Ya'll know how to get at me! Gone!!

Rebel2society

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

ER Room

I f*cking hate hospitals!! Can't stand them one bit! So as I'm sitting here in the emergency room, I'm overwhelmed with a sense of discomfort. Deep gash over my eye, but I'm cool with that. Its the thought. No, the understanding that I'm going to spend at the least 2 hours in here that's killing me. So I'm playing that game where you sit and look around at everyone else waiting (who are also discreetly looking around themselves), and try and guess why they are in here. Then again, this game is making me think about why I don't like hospitals, so yeah, back to blogging.

Uuuuuuggggghhhhh!!!! Crazy nasty a** dude just rolled in here (literally lol) legs all f*cked up wtf!? Somebody should cover them with a blanket or something... (Not nice.)

No I didn't get this gash by getting cold clocked by an angry female like that Charles Hamilton n*gga. I was hooping and came into contact with someone else's hard a** head. I've been playing ball for as long as I can remember, and I've never had to deal with any gash resulting in blood and stitches. I do remember a lot of head to head collisions, head to elbow, head to knee, etc. (u get the point I've been hit a lot) So why the f*ck did this take place how it did!? I've been hit way harder before and walked away with a scratch. All I can think of is this is God's way of telling me something privately (camera crew was not there.. Well not mine anyway).

What is it that I'm supposed to learn from this?

Let's see, I have repented for my vacation. Sorry again Kansas kids! That deals with communication over long distances. Maybe its something more closer to home?

Whatever the case, this sucks. I can't even remember the last time I had to have stitches (dead ass), but coincidentally those were also acquired by my eye (the left one). I should be high right now... Maybe if I ask nicely one of the nurses will accommodate me with something that will take me away. Probably just very wishful thinking though.


Relationships, relationships, f*ck my relationships.. I'm starting to think I'm more cut out for the life of a traveling samurai. Or mercenary..

Why? Because they are ridiculously bad a** lol (not that I'm that, because I'm not). In all seriou... Dead A**ness (lmao still isn't old and it won't be until I get my proof) it seems like I'm more suited for a lonely life of travel where people aren't so much stationary pieces in my life, as opposed to temporary benefactors/bosses/sidekicks/lovers. To me it just seems to make more sense, especially with how "well" I communicate, but hey, my head hurts and I'm just trying not to acknowledge where I am right now (that's crazy, I didn't mean for that to be taken figuratively but it works.. But literally).

So yeah I'm either one of those two things in my mind right now. Which I'm losing in the slightest of ways fyi. A friend of mine said in order to connect with people effectively you have to be able and understand things from their perspectives. Meaning discrimination of any kind (specifically dealing with matters of opinion) is out for me. You can really take it as deep as you want. ^
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Ex: Soulja boy sucks. To me that's a very true statement lol. However, somewhere out there are people that like and enjoy Soulja boy's music. So it isn't wise for me to discriminate against it, because doing so shuts me off from a perspective held by someone down the road that I may want to help.. Too much? My head hurts lol. Just know I'm trying to be more open minded towards things I either haven't liked in the past or don't understand now. Check in Later.. Gone!

Rebel2Society

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

VACATION'S OVER and I'm about to go so f*ckin hard!!

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Forget the videos, music, and pictures. All you need to do is pay attention to my words.


My hiatus is officially over. That means I'm fully accessible again (sorry Squishy you were like a half hour too early lol). First, let me just send this out.. Michelle Hill I hope your doing ok, a phonecall is needed and will happen as early as.. Today, (almost said tomorrow time check lol)you should be mad at me too! Just know, I have been thinking and praying about/for your family k? Ok, next let me just address the Kansas kids as a whole. Guys/Girls I love you all. My absense wasn't really anything against any of you, please hear me when I say that.

Really I just needed the time for myself. I needed to really get away from Kansas mentally, and plan out my next few moves. Like I said, nothing against any of you, its just well... Your constant reminders of that which I had yet to fully put behind me. Dig? Love you guys to death, but things that happened, and how they happened out there really angered me. Not to the point where I would act out,(you know kicking screaming blah blah)just a deep brooding anger. I don't think a lot of you understand HOW much I WANTED to be there.

AFTER I saw how we as basketball players were treated.
AFTER I realized the perks we DIDN'T have.
AFTER I witnessed the love we DIDN'T get.

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AFTER ALL of THAT, I STILL wanted to be there!

*For the Record*
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Things were promised to us prior to us actually being there, so while it seems like b*tching and whining, I'm just breaking down the truth in it all.

*Back to the point*
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I remember conversations early in the year where we would sit around and talk about how the year was GOING to go. Or at least how we thought it was going to go. We all loved basketball so much, the passion in those conversations was CRAZY! Lol we would go on and on, I wish I had it recorded to share it with you all. To avoid getting into a deep tangent, I'll try and get to the point. I feel like we were fed a lie, I mean, if any of you saw any of the games it was painfully obvious SOMETHING wasn't right. I'm not trying to say what that was or wasn't, just that things weren't carried out how I was told they were going to be.

For me, it was just really frustrating. The whole year I felt like I was doing everything that was asked of me, and in return it seemed like I fell more and more out of touch with my coaches. Not even focusing on the fact that I wasn't being used in any way that was effective for our team or myself. I began to feel trapped in a situation that wasn't improving regardless of what I tried to do. I found coping methods that I myself, got lost in when my roommate was kicked off the team.. Sh*t just wasn't right. (Tangent...)

(Summing up..)
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Things got worse, and really all I had were my Kansas kids, my baby Marley, and MUSIC!! (that's the collective group of you all organized under one name I created lol) the thing about you Kansas kids is this. Coming home, and thinking about you all, made me reflect on my entire year. Every time that happened I became angry (again not the crazy angry) I had this hate in my body just boiling under the service. So instead of ignoring it, (cause that's kind of what I did ALL year) I decided to take time off (or away) and deal with it. So yes, my "vacation" was needed, and yes it helped quite a bit. I feel rehabilitated (almost)without the sense of losing what made going through that whole ordeal valuable to me in the long run. (the life lesson..) If that makes any sense to any of you. Hope it does, but if it doesn't (whatever) <-- You already know! lol

*DEAD ASS lol never gonna get old...*

I underestimated the pressure I would feel coming back home. I mean, I knew I wasn't happy with the year, I just didn't want/feel like explaining that to people who were expecting so mucn. I don't have an answer as to WHY it all went the way it did, and I hate making excuses, so it went the way it did and that was that. Not that I really had anything to prove to anyone else, because people that really know me know there had to be something else to the whole equation explaining what happened this year. I did WANT to prove something to myself, and I think I did a pretty good job doing that thus far. I hit the ground running basically, and already, I've had to alter what I perceive to be my inner circle.

That in itself really does suck, but I'm sure things will change in time. The fun part? It'll probably be caught on camera. Starting today, People will be following me with cameras (I told ya'll it was going down!!) documenting this long journey I'm starting (today) towards something HUGE! Can't exactly tell you what though, now's not the time for all that. Just know I'm GOING IN! the title wasn't for show. Today is the end of my vacation, and the start of the real grind.


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*WTF does that mean?*

For starters, ORGANIZATION! I'm going to be ON A SCHEDULE. People are either going to have to get with it or get left. So yes, I anticipate losing even MORE inner circle dwellers (...? lol F it..). I'll be up early at the same time every morning (to workout/lift/shoot) <<-- set number MADE every morning before I leave. Go Back to the gym in the afternoon at the same time every day to actually play ball. Finally, one more trip every night to workout/lift/shoot/run (actual running..). Every day, same schedule. Yes I left huge gaps of time out of the day, because really the gaps at this point and time aren't apart of the grind.

*I've got my blackberry Calendar set and task alerts on*

Yeah, I'm going to be very busy, tired, whatever. I'm STILL going to have complete control over my blog. Run it how I want to update it daily (more than once I'm sure), and find time to communicate with my Kansas kids (oh and the people here lol ya'll know who you are). Relationships have to be strengthened because more people need my time, and I need to experience what they have to offer. Bias (of time) in this case isn't really an option, nor should it be a problem that causes any kind of stress in my life. So I think we're good.

*Things YOU should know*

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I want this to work, and allow me to communicate with you all easily. Here's the deal, (Michelle listen up you didn't follow the rules last time!) In the event that I'm at the gym (lol umm yeah.. you know I'll be there so PAY ATTENTION), and you want to contact me. the best way to have any sort of lasting conversation or consistent rebuttal from myself is to EMAIL ME. Reason being, I'm not going to be in a position to sit with my phone in text back and forth, let alone hold a conversation (talking). I can email back though, it allows me to collect my thoughts and not send short pointless messages back (Squishy you get the point??), which I don't like writing (Because their pointless..), and I'm sure you don't like receiving (Because.. you get it lol).

*Your key to communication*

KingxPoetic@aol.com

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Probably going to change it, and create a new email JUST for emailing all of you back. In the event that I do that you'll know via.. something lol. I won't leave you all in the dark though. (Gotta say sorry to Kiki she's the only one that actually followed the email rule the first time lol) I'll be on facebook, myspace, and twitter periodically throughout the day so you can hit me on there too (I'll do much better promise).

For those of you that don't know I'm still TURTLE! Don't get it twisted this is me on repeat and a fire lit under feet! I'm so focused!! More details and plans coming to ya'll soon.. (have we figured out this is all basketball related yet? lol)
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I think that all about sums it up. If you got through it all thank you. Let's kick this summer off the right way, its going to be an interesting one. Gone!

Rebel2Society

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

I'm a fan, what can I say?

I'm into these playoffs, not because I love basketball (which would be reason enough), but because I know regardless of the outcome of either of the series its going to be some damn good basketball being played in the finals. Don't take this as me trying to find a way to back out of my predictions (caved and LA in the finals), because I'm not doing that. Though at the moment its looking more like a toss up in the denver LA series, and as I write this Cleveland is doing everything in their power NOT to go down 3-1 in the series (while still being down 3 in this game).

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All that to say this. I really am enjoying every game in both series. Yes, I'm a Laker fan 1st, but what so many people forget is that I'm a student of basketball and a fan of THE GAME, before any loyalty issues even come up. Yale watching to be entertained, I'm learning, going to the gym and improving MY game. Dig me?

*think about this..*

How ill would it be to have a cleveland/denver finals?? First we have to discard this notion of Lean vs. Robe. So many people don't realize that these two play two different positions, and wouldn't be matched up with one another. Lean vs. Mel however? Yea two players separated by 10 pounds (Lebanese 275 to memo's 265 according to league officials) AND that play the same position seems more likely, and may be more entertaining (given how each of them are playing). So Cleveland against Denver has that match up.. However, assuming that everybody forgot how dangerous Orlando was/is (damn it must suck to be Gamer Nelson. They don't need you bro! Lot damn no shots though). We probably will be looking at Orlando against whoever comes out of the West. Honestly, I saw this coming though, probably when Orlando had to go through Philly. Everybody wrote them off because they struggled in that series, well, Philly was a good team. As was Boston, so they were being challenged unlike the Cave who were impressive but didn't really play anyone in my eyes anyway. I think the same thing happened with LA. Houston was scary good. I knew this going into the playoffs, and them losing Yap allowed them to switch their playing style up, while maintaining the freelance play that made them so dangerous in the first place (albeit without Yap clogging the middle up).

*point being..?*

The teams left are left for a reason. All of them are talented, deep, and capable of scoring a lot of points. Oh, and for those of you counting out Cleveland I would be careful. Its never easy to measure an individuals desire to win, and what that desire can do for a particular team. My only knock on Orlando thus far, is they may not be mature enough to handle this 3-1 cushion they've acquired over Cleveland. As for the western conference finals, I find it funny how everyone has reacted to LA's play. For one, am not worried. I think they've been tested by good teams pretty much. I also think they'll win out in this Denver series, but hey maybe I just have a lot of faith in my team?

*shrugs*

That's the end of the basketball rant. Movie night!! Gone!

Rebel2Society

DO I MAKE SENSE YET!?

Or am I just... Senseless?