Happy #200

I wasn't ever gonna liberate this, then I saw it was post 200 coming up. Aww shucks lol well all I can say is take it for what it is. 1 of the ast times I wrote anything significant besides today. Hopefully there's more to come lol.

Oh and don't judge me this was atleast a good 2 months ago.


I find it funny because I noticed every word that goes unspoken
you know it deep down that's reason enough for a smile
when I'm deep throating but fuck it he's potent and I'm focused
at least I'm trying to be but sometimes I feel like 1000 lies flying at me
thought I found the key for we but its all the same to me just to be floating
I'm choking on the air speed creates wiping nut off my face nigga keep smoking
The hell I wanna remember this for? then I remembered who I was doing this for
"crazy" she says the way the blues and pinks in the sky mesh
She was talking about the birds eyes let the sky rest that was my (most recent) request
So I could get back to the beat that's was keeping a little to quietly for what I'd expect
unless Jess in the driver's seat planned it out that way ok weren't we here for the sunrise
in the first place? I bet this sh*t carry on until the sunset but son set the wall won't let me
see it right anyway positioning's off we botched this up I think its fantastic no shock tactics
Besides its gonna rise high enough for us to spot it so why don't we just stop it spark up
and change topics I won't front the way you rolled the blunt up got me thinking and lately
your boy been heatseeking Mr. Sea King my man was right pipe do make it better
and how she was last night I know I'll never forget her until there's something better
How superficial that ain't really me is it? Man fuck a trick fuck a bitch but Turtle your
sensitive you always lend a shoulder what's gotten into you kid? nothing really I'm so imaginative
I get flashes of emotions like ya'll do that's exactly why I write it places me in a calm state
I can't be fake in your face if we're close enough to go there cause you know a past mistake
doesn't just disappear that shit'll shake the baddest rock until breaks and I'm coming from there
I'm trying to make sure I do go back I don't know if that's a certainty but certainly effort on
display is needed in the worst way curve it away too close who knows who's pretending
ahhh paranoia I wondered when I'd see you again awkward grin when my income lends to
more fun sh*t get used to this jack rabbit in and out because the scenery's shifting
these damn 5 red lights got a beef with me I ignore them when I'm cruising but its harder
when I'm boarding here's a thought I figured whenever I get bored or in need a conversation
I'll just log on my blog post something and wait for Envy to go off he really is what makes my comment section so hot and cause I said he's name he'll probably say I suck cock or my mother's cock but girls know that's so so... naaah lol I said it right that's exactly what I mean too
so really though tell me what's good my dude? How's your life? How's your job? You gotta wife? are you like 12? not delve too far into your personal life I just wonder where you find the time to diss me well just about every time I log on the internet it doesn't make it me upset honestly I'm impressed emersed in mystery unaware of your whereabouts part of me thinks I should be a little scared I mean really think it out it's kind of weird cause I don't know what you about my life my blog I put myself out in the open like f*ck it little suckers will get a chuckle on some real sh*t Ironically I thought it'd be some old chick doin the clucking not that case here... so weird whatever though its all good my mind's going places it probably shouldn't its early i'm stuck already
watching Marley getting dirty chasing birdies wtf is this working? I'm supposed to be getting chased
but I leave that space far too quickly today its afternoon now was that time wasted?
Too many questions so many locked chests what am I left with not the 1st option
I'm 2nd guessing everything so I don't get lost in the middle of the clusterf*ck my mind is quick to put
in the oven let that set baking insecurities I get emails and text that won't let me forget guilty is
my conscious if the mirror's being honest in what it shows me people astonished like he's
actually growing and the pains aint enough to keep me out this game I like playing so I remain in the middle of if it all the terrain's just different it's hardly a physical challenge the pool of talent refills itself constantly there clear? I think my mind has a chemical imbalance I swear it
never hesitates to make an effort to stop even or not I enjoy the tilt because its different and
I've grown accustomed to wanting to chill so predictable basically I'm on when I'm off
routinely stretching the box directing myself to thrills that kill any ill will my insides are harboring still
get a feel for the 'real' the grip of the blue steel aint for me but its there daily so maybe that makes me
harder than you? There's a thought... Blow a knot because I live life sacrficing packed with fighting so any item i'm buying is not to be showing off...


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Unfinished. There's a surprise...  Hope you enjoyed it!

Gone!!                                                                                              



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And Another One

Don't really know about this one lol. Let's just say I was trying to spazz on myself, and at some points I think I did. This is kind of weird putting all this out there for everybody to not pay attention to but who cares? I'm not supposed to, especially at this point during the night. (come on kick in already!!) So enjoy it or don't, whatever...


Oooooo (<--actual title lol yea, wtf? Huh?)


Sometimes I find its hard to decline the little time that's truly mine I'm minding my chiming regarding my friends rewarding my pen with rhyming I think we like it I know she like it we fighting I'm writing quickly think lightning

she see it now she's smiling she wilding saying I'm the next kid now I'm smiling damn we shining trips me out we fell out she was like fuck it keep grinding and that amounts to the trust she gets from me bitches bounce now please

yeah I be looking what can I say I mean my hearts tooken taken I'm saying none of ya'll looking like crooks shit I'm straight a little late in my understanding that she came to win ok

game on then let me start playing I feeling like displaying my articulation with manipulating different statements placing them over your dense skull sitting on your shoulders heavy like Ionno I'm trying not to be cliche

so can we just say what I have to say will have ur mind dealing with a lot of weight I think that's fair but not to be mistaken with the white powder base I'm trying to flower my base with words behind bass though the bass you can't hear or feel...(I'll let u in on a secret if you promise you can keep it)
Gone!

Rebel2Society

Ivan what's good though!?

Wooow Remember this so vividly, it was dark out there to me because everything I came in there with was somehow stripped from me. Gotta love what Kansas taught me though. this was more or less me trying to make sense of a falling out with my brother (roommate) Ivan. I love that dude regardless of where we were at and where we are now. Enjoy or don't whatever... (Lmao that's like the official introductory sentence)

True Love (frustration)

I know I'm blessed in life god did me right but I'm stressed my mans is like fading from the light matter of fact to say it best there aint friend in sight and I'd say its been left that way for quite some time now bow out gracefully is what I tried to do these people chased me until I cried a few times let my tears just slide down my face

as I'd drive no destination but the music's there so just riiidde frustration got me over thinking everything people are puzzles the weed is the pieces so I light up and try to think up a thesis as to why we so indecent but every time I see it my stash gets vented meaning I smoked it all blowing the contents out and confessed my recent sins to myself problems put on the shelf I'll be hearing from them

no drugs so say hello to my alcoholic binge all this to search for a reason something that makes sense and can explain our mind state actions and intents but listen I'm just a dude that finds it funny what extended fam will do when their hurt or confused look can't help you cause your trapped inside your mental

letting her use u like a tool and its wack to sit back and act like your not being a fool I understand that its painful shit I went through it too yeah yeah u talking years man I was four deep my dude you need to move or move on or cope with what's she's on but mostly just be strong

cause I loved you for that when we first connected but all this depression is leaving me depressed kid you filled the void that my older brother left me with but as the year went on I felt like I was doin what the older brothers did she broke your heart and that's when it started

you a shell of yourself homie and that's why I departed sit you down can't talk to me like a man I'm just trying to help at the very least understand what's goin on inside your head because in mine I'm dead

this isn't me and countin on that cali soil to set me free a touch from she all that just to let me be bumpy road ahead of me but I know there's something god's telling me this can't be for nothing no mistakes from upstairs so fuck any excuses your all selling me.

Gone!

Rebel2Society

Practicing Restraint

Michelle catch up! Lol nah I have been trying to write more though. No point in having it there for no one to see but me though... Well there is but yeah, enjoy it, hate it whatever..

(She said listen when u dealing with me don't make promises you can't keep)The air's still smoke fills empty space as I lay with a gaze fixated on the (my)haze(face)smoke circulates in a peculiar way as I create different shapes with my fingers what a game I wonder if its the same for her laying with jane I'm saying

we be on the same plain every day and when it goes down we on our night thing but hey against the grain is how I like to play I'm open she know it so she let it slide and when I'm by her side I know regardless of whatever we're alright but what about the night when I'm zooooooonnnniiiiiinnnnnnnggggg

she's all allllooooooonnnneeee and my presence can't touch where she stands huh!? Can't reach through the phone to put one on ya used to be I couldn't dial your number stress piled me under bags zips halves and nicks that you provided with your own money clips yeah that's it I aint forget that shit but for the moment I'm not on it clear sailing no drama no tonic though I stay with the juice

no chronic cause I'm saving that for you chess game? Maybe my Bishops go hard in the middle just a riddle cause I know I can be quite evasive but this is not the place to be great stunting with your knights put those away kid!

learn your history you'll find its way creative better yet learn the game the way we did and there it is are you still playing with me? Laying there half covered in sheets aint heard your voice in a minute but what is speech? when we communicate through breaks and beats snares and kicks the craziest did I just hear..

Nah let me rewind that shit lyrics you know I'm laughing now right koo-laid style like my smile might outshine the lights its that bright baby I finally get it I'm just that nice lol let me stop.. And come back just to say this is better than whatever other written's on display and its dedicated to you and the spot where you lay

thinking on all of it I wish I could put your thoughts away or mine at the very least my words could make your thoughts ok daydreams or nightmares we share everything from love to movie chairs but beware there are those who don't care peep their evil stares but its like shotpullin we just bust em out the air I take a little yell pull bust a shell and I'm cool

I gotta vent to you hence my stint spent trying to repent for all my shit without you baby I got you and I can't live without you there's just something about when we're out even if...

(Yeah its unfinished.. more throughout the day )

Gone!

Rebel2Society

Cemetery Silence

Instead of being quiet I wanna be silent
there's a difference between the two you
just have to find it wildin really just sick
of the climate I'm home in my mind roadblocks
I have to climb them back to the cemetery
yeah I'm dead with silence watching everybody
living life this prison like one I created
awhile back should thank god that I'm here
and alive but if my heart isn't in it I'm just
living a lie I realized that some time ago
when things came to blows with my ego I'd have
to decide where she'd go and I couldn't shouldn't
have taken it any kind of way but I guess
that's easier said than done especially coming
from me so alone on a throne that I built for
myself sat around and watched people wither away
at themselves then turn the hate to place the
blame on somebody else doing the same thing so
confusing and logic is my only company so instead of
running I sat comfortably abusing whatever I felt
would do its best to comfort me wanting what I
couldn't achieve reaching out because I couldn't
believe we'd leave out without so much as even
speaking that's reasonable doubt leaving out
all the bs is the best way to say I'm over
it today so its back to the cemetery quiet for
ya'll I just explained silence to ya'll my brand
though where I cancelled any and every desperation
from you and your mans so I'm gone just floating
in the wind like my so-called friends Pac said
it first I just think there's no point in pretending
any longer yeah I'm hurt just wish someone would
give a damn show their worth its tough ODing with
my work I'm so sure on the flipside I'd be there first
but that's alright I told ya'll its quiet you can
see me but don't speak I'm trapped in
cemetery silence.







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*I told ya'll I was gonna wreck this sh*t!!*

Should explain this? Hope ya'll enjoy.
See I CAN write sometimes lmao. Gone!

Rebel2Society

Grrrr Let it breathe!!!

Damn this is some super rough venting I got for ya'll
I'm so sincere about the rough part lmao. Basically
This here is some hot (unfinished) garbage! But in light of that
Its emotionally on point so it is what it is.
LITTLE BIT of insight..

How u sit n another man face pounds n handshakes all that
and still be fake I was real each day my niggas ya'll was
family why wait for me to leave the place to disgrace my
name? And everybody's guilty grimey ass filthy niggas oh
well I know well that you speak like little bitches so time
tells me who was doin all the dirt throwing all this time
frontn like I aint knowing yall was the kane to my abel sat
at my table ate my food smoked what I gave you WHAT THE FUCK
MY NIGGAS?! Man fuck these niggas if I can't be real then ima chill
just sitting with my grill sealed that's why this shit's written let
the tears spill hitting walls ya'll seen the holes that came from the
pain that yall bein hoes. And I'm sorry ladies what can I say baby
I'm emotional. Take it whatever way ya'll know where I stay do what
u do put holes all in my frame hey I've been dead way before today
its nothing to me. I adjusted to be someone who could see the sincerity
in my team even if we aint really speak yall adjusted FROM me! How you gon
say I changed always up in my room racking my brain cranking the bass to make
the beat bang creating space so yall had place or a seat to connect with me
the door used to be open but my nigga soft spoken wasn't feeling my vibes
which is why now when I'm inside the doors closed but the doors ALWAYS open
damn my door WAS always open and brittany was the only one that got it she
lounged I jotted talking wasn't an option but hey I've been that way since
day one I can be alone and think comfortably and when I tried to explain
this to ya'll your statements wasn't matching your actions a couple days
back I heard some chit chat over the speaker on her phone picture that...
And Guess who the subject was?... aint gonna say your name but that hurt
me my nigga can't look at you the same kinda lame I looked up to your tiny
ass in the beginning when we'd sit passing blunts back n forth chilling
talkn bout how we was gonna be killing ionno I had a feeling come to
find out u was one of the main ones illin yo that shit gave me chills
when you hobbled through practice with your back kid eyes wallowed I
couldn't close my own eyelids... Cause then everybody would know and
though I respected you we couldn't let it stop the show see I
remember all that before my roommate wanted to fuck you up for talkin
smack bout some ass yall tapped and jealousy's a weak emotion ya'll
should've controlled that. Its funny and nothing short of wack that
I'm too abstract that (all over a bitch? Fuck a bitch I gotta bitch yall
breakin covenants and now that I'm numb to it all I'm loving it cause
I see it all shovel shit yall spit up out of your face. I don't have
time to or for waste...
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And that's how u drop a bomb. Dead ass!! But seriously
Take it for what it is I don't really care anymore (obviously)
Is it over yet??

*thinks some names shoulda been dropped*

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That probably means no lmao stay tuned. Gone!

Rebel2Society